My heart has been ripped out
 

I really don't know how to feel right now. I just lost my little girl unexpectedly and I wasn't even there to say goodbye or anything.

I am currently going through a breakup and in the process of moving back home with my parents in Virginia from Atlanta. I took my fur-babies Hayden, Lucy and Chloe (their daughter) to stay with my mother while I pack and get everything ready. Chloe is only 1 year and 3 months old and is only 3lbs. She came from a litter of 5 which were expected not to make it as they were only 2 to 4 oz and their mother was unable to feed them due to eclampsia but my mother and I bottle fed them all and they all survived and turned out to be healthy little babies! I placed all of them but my Chloe with close friends as I couldn't bare the thought of selling my little miracles. Chloe was so special to me and I just can't fathom her being gone. Especially when I don't know what happened and wasn't there to hold her and say a final goodbye.

My mother called me Sunday morning saying that Chloe woke them screaming and was limp and couldn't stand. They immediately called all vets around but all were closed as it was Sunday. Soon after, I get a call back saying that she didn't make it. They performed CPR with no success. I was in shock and hung up the phone as I couldn't even process her being gone. I don't understand how this could happen!

I feel as if Chloe was wondering where I was in her time of need. Why wasn't my daddy here to help me? Why am I hurting? What is happening? I can't deal with thinking that she may have thought those things. I will never forgive myself for not being there though I couldn't have known that this would happen.

I have called my vet to arrange a necropsy but I was informed that I would not get her back if I chose to do so. I want to have her cremated so that she will always be with me but I also want to know what caused her to suddenly perish.

I am so torn. I am sorry to babble but I just don't know what to feel or do.

I am so very sorry for your loss. You are already going through a tuff time and I know that your heart is just breaking. I will keep you in my prayers and hope that in time your heart will begin to heal.

Blessings

I'm so sorry for your loss. Please don't beat yourself up. You gave her life when nature tried to deny it. She had 15 months of a wonderful, loving existence thanks to you and your family. That was your gift to her, and you should be proud of that.

I have no doubt you will remember every wonderful, miraculous day you had together for the rest of your life. That's her gift to you for taking such great care of her.

Thank you so much. I get what you are saying and while it may be true I just can't get over her being gone. Yes I gave her life and I made sure she had a wonderful life but I just can't understand why it could be taken away so quickly and unexpectedly. I enjoyed every minute of time I had with her but the fact that it ended so quickly, without reason and without me being there makes me question what was the point? If she was only going to get to live a short life and I was only going to get to enjoy her company for such a short period of time, why couldn't it just have happened when it was expected from the vet. Why die while sleeping in the bed with her mother and father as well as my mother and father. I get that she died with people who loved her but it just doesn't make since, I can't accept it. I know that sounds harsh but I am at a point in my life that I just don't understand the reason for anything anymore. I am sorry for ranting.

Thank your for your thoughts and prayers. Indeed I am going through a lot and the loss of my Chloe just tears my heart open. I don't understand at all :[

I am sorry for your loss & know that you must be devastated. If I had to guess, I would say she had AAI.

I'm so very sorry for your loss. RIP Chloe.

So sorry for your loss:(

I am so sorry to hear that you have lost your baby girl. May Chloe rest in peace, and you take comfort in your memories of her.

very sorry for your loss rip chole.

I am so sorry for your loss.
RIP little Chloe.

I'm so very sorry. Rest in Peace, Chloe.

First let me say that I am so sorry for your loss. I have had to say goodbye to TWO of my sweetest babies this last two years. One was from old age, one cancer.

Isn't it strange (or maybe it really isn't) how very much we grow to LOVE these little babies that the Lord has given us to take care of? They give unconditional love. They are so forgiving. They ask nothing but love and basic care. I will NEVER understand how anyone can abuse a little one in any way. It breaks my heart.

You are going through a very rough time now. That little pup has become more important to you than ever before. She filled a very important place in your heart and life. What you are feeling is very normal for everyone but because of other things in your life, it hurts even more.

You gave your baby love and care for her WHOLE life. That is priceless no matter how long OR short that life was. You loved her and she loved you in return.

I am only a month and a half from losing a 15 year old dog so I really DO know how you feel. It hurts so bad. But time DOES heal, it really does. It just doesn't seem like it now. I understand. I really do. Even 15 years was not long enough.

Rest assured that there are MANY MANY people who know how you feel and may even be going through the same thing right now. Remember time heals. And remember your baby and the time you had with her.

Love and hugs,
Louise

Soooo sorry for the loss of Chloe we all know how you feel for I'm sure we all have lost a loving pet. It takes time try to remember the good time's. God let you have her for 15 month's I'm sure he has other plan's for her. Another baby taken to early R. I. P. Dear Chloie Reast at Rainbow Bridge.:animal-pa

I am so sorry for your loss. I will pray for you and your family.