My 2.5 yr old Koda was snatched away before me... HELP
 

The love of my life, my baby girl Koda, died Thanksgiving night. She was only 2.5 yrs. I can't function. I can't stop crying. I wanna be in heaven with her so bad right now. I am new to this forum. I am so afraid. Koda was everything to me. We were inseparable. She was a 5lb furball and I am a 235 lb ex-athlete that can't stand the pain and loss.
We were walking in a posh Beverly Hills neighborhood at 8:30 pm. I had my baby on chain at my right foot, where she always walked. My friend was at my left walking my other dog. We were talking. I heard a sudden yelp from my girl. I turned and a large coyote had her around the neck and was already running up the middle of the street. God. I cant stop reliving this in my mind. I ran as fast as I could screaming Koda's name. I could see here beady eyes staring at me. Oh god. I felt helpless. I could almost feel her saying "help me daddy". I could not catch the coyote. All my strength and speed from college sports were no match. My baby was taken right before my eyes, in the heart of a residential neighborhood in Beverly Hills.

PArt of my spirit left with Koda the other night. I will never be the same. The past 24 hrs seem like 3 yrs. I am so devastated. I LOVED HER SO MUCH! She is in heaven now waiting for me someday. But damn, I am only 38, if I live to 80 that is 42 yrs away!!

I would appreciate any words of wisdom and encouragement.

Brett

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I can not imagine the pain you are going through. I have never lost a dog to an accident..I have lost many to old age, disease and it is very painful.
To tell you the sorrow will get better with time isn't much help right now..and honestly, I never forget the lost ones.
The only thing I reflect on in a situation like this is the fact your Yorkie was loved every day of its life..many Yorkies suffer every day of their life and have no love at all...best wishes

I am so sorry for your pain and loss!!! That was a horrible thing to have to witness :( So very very sorry. There is a special section on this forum for people who have lost pets...you might want to check it out.

Oh how horrible!!!! I think it takes a REAL man to share his feelings like you just did! Hang in there! We're here for you and I'll pray for you in church today!

I am so, so sorry to hear about your loss. We just lost our Kelli the morning after Thanksgiving, but I can't imagine the pain you're going through from seeing that in your mind. PLEASE know that we're all here for you, you're in our thoughts and prayers and it WILL get easier with time. It will. Koda would want you to go on and live and she knows that you did EVERYTHING in your power to save her. She loves you, and eensor is right, it takes a REAL man to share his feelings like this. Talk as much as you need to, we're all here for you.

I am so very sorry for the loss of your baby. You have got to get yourself another baby as soon as you can. Chloe sends hugs and kisses.
Joy, Nikki and Chloe Rose

Oh my gosh!! I am so very very sorry for your loss! :( what an awful thing to see...I can only imagine the pain you're going through right now. But, I will have you in my thoughts and prayers. Rest In Peace Koda :littleang

I am so very sorry about your loss. How tragic!
I am sure there are no words to describe the pain you must feel, but we are here for you.

Take care

That is so horrible! I am so sorry for your loss. I wish you the best and hope your heart heals soon. Take time. you will meet again and it will be wonderful! In my prayers. MuffinsMom

Brett,
I am so sorry for your loss. I can't even imagine what you are going through right now. Time will help, your Koda is playing in Heaven right now. I'm sure she is looking down on your right now. I will keep you in my thoughts. I know it took a lot for you to share your feelings the way you did. I am so proud of you. It is helpful to talk about these things, and all your YT friends are here for you...
Hannah

I am so sorry for all you are going through.

I don't have words...I was shocked and very sad reading that - I'm so sorry and I don't think I could get over that kind of pain...My condolences to you...I'm so so sorry to hear what happened to your Koda....PLEASE keep trying to focus on what you shared together and try to take those awful images out of your mind....What a nightmare - I'm really sad for you.

I have no doubt that Koda lived her life to make you happy. Don't sully the great memories you have by letting this tragedy destroy you. You've already taken steps to heal by sharing the story in a way that could benefit others. If this could happen to you, it could happen to any of us, and I, for one, have learned something. Thanks for that.

I am so incredible sorry to hear about your loss. I can not imagine the grief you are going through right now!! You will be in my thoughts as you struggle right now!

I am so sorry about your Koda, how horrible you must feel, what you went trough is my worst nightmare, as i take Rosi out for a walk before bedtime. Now i will be even more careful and put her on a short leash, normaly i use a retractable.
Again i am so sorry for your loss !

I am so incredibly sorry about your baby Koda. I know you were extremely attached to her just from the way you told the story, and I cannot imagine what you are going through. Please take care, and remind yourself of all the wonderful times you had with her. You did everything you could.

Rest in peace little Koda.

I'm sooo sorry.
 

This is such a tragic story... Nature is so cruel. We lost a our Maggie (mini pin) two summers ago to a rattle snake. I know your pain, and I am so sorry for your loss. There are situations were we are helpless, no matter our strenghts or our technology, somethings just can't be helped... May your Koda rest on the wings of a Angel. :littleang I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers.

Brett,
I wish I had something encouraging to say, but it would just be a repeat of what everyone else has already said - I just wanted to let you know that I am thinking about you and am soo very sorry this happened to you. I lost my 9 yr old Mollie suddenly and I never thought I'd get over her. I still miss her like crazy. Thank you so much for sharing your touching story with us on here..... everyone here is so caring - you have definately come to the right place for support. If there is anything I, or anyone else, can do, let me know. I'll be praying for you. Just know that Koda knows you love her and she's watching down on you right now.

I am so very sorry. I can relate to the grief and pain of your loss. I can't relate to the way you lost her, though. Sometimes, no matter how tough we are, we can't prevent the tragedies that come into our lives so unexpectedly. One of my neighbors ran her little yorkie out the front door one night because it was sick. She ran back into the house for a sweater and back out just as quickly and her little one was gone. We know it was a coyote. They are all around us. The thing is that she had a fenced yard in the back of the house, but she was close to the front door when that happened and she never even thought of such a thing happening. We just cannot foresee every bad thing that can happen, nor can we prevent every bad thing that can happen. It takes time to work through one's grief. Perhaps a nice on-line memorial would be a beginning to remember the unconditional love that Koda had for you and you for her.

Brett, this is such a sad and tragic way to see your sweet little one leave you. Like
someone else said you can be comforted that she had such a wonderful life with such
love. When I lost my Mollie it was as if I lost a member of my family ( but of course
she was a member of my family) It gets easier but believe me it is with you for a very
long but the pain does lessen. I would wait to get another until you grieve and get
over this abit or you will feel guilty and not be able to welcome the new little one the way
it deserves. How did you find this site?? Do you have a friend on here?? It's great,
lots of nice people and when you are feeling blue just tune in to us and we will listen.
All I know is dogs are almost human and when alive would do anything to make you
happy so now is no different. Keep that in mind that she would want you to go on
and keep the fun memories and over time shut out those horrible images completely.
Joan

My heart aches for you and your loss! I can't even imagine and words escape me. Please know that we here at YT welcome you and we will all be thinking of you. Please share your memories with us, we are great listeners and can share in your pain!

I'm so sorry to hear about your Koda.

I am so sorry what a terrible thing to have to witness. My thoughts and prayers are with you.

Brett - I wanted to post the Rainbow Bridge Story but this one seemed more appropriate for you...your post was just heartbreaking and I wanted to share this with you - the last 2 lines just really get to me

I got to the gate of Heaven this morning, after we said good-bye.

I began to miss you terribly, because I heard you cry.

Suddenly there was an Angel and she asked me to enter Heaven's gate.

I asked her if I could stay outside for someone who would be late.

I wouldn't make much noise you see, I wouldn't bark or howl.

I'll only wait here patiently and play with my tennis ball.

The Angel said I could stay right here and wait for you to come

Because Heaven just wouldn't be Heaven if I went in alone.

So I'll wait right here, you take your time, but keep me in your heart.

Because Heaven just wouldn't be Heaven without you to warm my heart.

Wow, what an incredibly sad story! Very sorry for your loss. I am suprised that she was able to get away with a leash on. That does not make me feel very safe now walking Lily. I hope you are able to find some peace and know she is now safe and waiting for you.

I am so sorry to hear about your loss Brett. I've heard of us having problems with Coyotes in Los Angeles, but I was under the impression it was more up towards the mountains, never in a million years would I think they were brave enough to walk right up to you on the streets. This is so so scary. I am so sorry for all the pain you are going through.

Hmm
 

You think a story like that would make the news or the paper? So you only have one post on here.

I'm just not totally understanding what you mean by this? :confused:

Yeah..what's up with that?

Brett, I feel with you and cried compassionate tears when I read your post. We all live in fear of loosing our yorkies, since they are so dear to us in a way that others can have a hard time understanding.
Koda would have wanted you to be happy - and you will. But mending takes time. So please take care of your self, eat healthy, exercise and ask for support from those you love to get you through this.