It hurts so bad...
 

I've been a lurker in these forums over the past several years and as many others have said, never thought I'd be posting in this section. Our little Bruin past away the other day from a tragic accident and while my wife is hurting, I seem to be having an especially hard time moving forward. I miss our little boy so much! From his sweet licks and kisses to his silly howling while a particular song played. Besides my adoring wife, I have a new daughter of one year and a surviving yorkie Kahlua, all of whom I'm trying to give extra love to right now to suppress the pain. I'm a 31 year old male and need to be stronger for my family, but I can't stop missing our little boy and noticing how empty the house feels without his furry little energy.

Bruin, please know that Daddie loves you so much and will join you one day in heaven. OMG, I'm starting to cry as I finish this post...

Welcome to YT. I am so sorry for your lost. You have come to the right place. There are many caring folks here, who knows how painful and hard to lose a furbaby. All I can say is only time will heal all pain.

IM sorry for your loss.

I am so sorry to hear about your loss. You are a very lucky man to be loved by a Yorkie. My husband is our baby's best friend. I don't know what he would do if we lost her. I know we will all have our hearts broken someday. I hope you find peace in knowing your baby will be waiting at the Rainbow Bridge. You sound as though you are a great daddy and husband. I wish you the best, and welcome to Yorkietalk.

Thank you for the heartfelt responses...they really make dealing with this just a bit easier. Part of me just wants to curl up next to my other furball Kahlua and do nothing while the day passes me by. I'm so depressed and lethargic right now, even a bit sick to my stomach since I haven't been able to eat much lately.

So sorry to hear your sad news. Just wanted to let you know we are thinking of you and sharing your pain.

I am very sorry to hear about your little one. Daddie must take care of himself for the sake of his family as they would not be able to bear another loss. Please know we are here for you.

im so so sorry for your loss, you made me cry too.. just know that my heart goest out to you and your family and i will be praying for you that go helps you heal your broken hearts... take care of yourself

I'm so sorry for your loss. Losing a dear pet can be incredibly hard.

I am so sorry .... I live in California...the sun is shining here today...when you go outside today, feel your little guys hugs and kisses through the warmth on your face. Think of Bruin. Once when I was crying about the loss of my baby, my niece said to me, "Would Nic want you to be this sad?". I always think of that when I have moments when I miss him so bad I just can not do anything else. Well I hope my words help. I will light a candle for you and your family today.

I know the pain of losing a fur-baby all too well, so my thoughts and prayers go out to you and your family.

Welcome and sorry for your loss.

I lost my baby this year, too. The pain is still with me every day, but I have to know that she is in a better place. Some days I still cry a little, but it gets easier with time, you are just not in that place yet - it will come...

Deeply sorry for your loss.

We fell your pain we lost our little Mya Mia on Mar 2 to tragic accident.She was 2 days shy of 5 months.I still cry everyday but try to keep it together for Bella.We miss her dearly.

The loss of one of our babies is so difficult. In time you will be able to remember the good times with Bruin without so much pain. The joy of loving these special babies comes with knowing one day we have to let them go, and some go way to soon. My heart goes out to you in your loss.

Godspeed little one
 

Gosh I'm so very sorry for your loss.

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Thanks everyone for the replies. I'm getting ready to go to work and still can't focus on anything else but the hole I feel in my heart.

It still feels like a bad dream. I just want to wake up and see my little Bruin there jumping at my feet, begging to be held. Oh God, why did you have to take him away from us so soon? I can't wait the rest of my life to understand the answer to that.:cry:

So sorry for your loss.

You are in my thoughts and prayers. You remind me so much of myself, my husband and our Roxy and TJ. It is just us. I am 33, husband is 40 - TJ and Roxy are 4 y/o and they are the Light and Love of our lives.

I am hurting with you, as this is exactly how Me and my Husband will feel and grieve when we are faced with the passing our one of ours.

I lost a person that was everything to me when I was 23 :( - boy did my life change in that instance. I don't think I handled it the best way, but I was young and did what made me get thru the best way I knew how at the time.
Some of the things that helped me and still do is my talking to him, sometimes in my head and sometimes out loud. I also have a very special sign and it makes me feel really happy when I see it. I don't know why things happen, but there are reasons, and I know how tough it is to think that we have to wait a long time to see them and find out why, but just think about how exciting it will be when we are reunited ~ that's what keeps me going....

I know that pain and hurt and the feeling of no control when we loose a special person, so I am so fearful to go thru that again, but I also know there's no way of stopping it, so I try to focus on 'when we meet again'.

I don't know if this helped you at all, but I am draw to you and just wanted to share :(

Yes, that helped ease the pain for the moment...thank you for taking the time to reply.

Your welcome.

I never owned a pet before, so I never knew the extent of the true love and care and the happiness and the void that they fulfil (if you allow it). I know that you do not feel complete anymore, and that your are very sad and lost, and you feel anxious about not having control anymore because you lost something so sacred and precious. These are the normal things to feel when your love goes so deep. Sometimes we get to keep what we love for a long, long time, and sometimes we only get to treasure them briefly. Which ever the case is, this deep love makes us stronger. Although you are in the sad moments right now, your still on a good path. You have a family, a wife and a daughter and your baby Kahlua and in time, you may open your home to another one, who will not take his place, but add new memories and add new love to heal your heart :)

I am so sorry for your loss. I have lost pets before and can understand what you are going through. While I still miss them it does get easier with time. We are all thinking of you.

I am so sorry and send my sympathy to you and your wife.

This forum is such therapy in that only dog people can know the pain we feel when we lose one of these dear friends of ours. I don't know what I would have done without YT when I lost my 14 yr. old yorkie last June, they were all such a help. Glad you decided to join us, it will be good for you. Hugs to you and your wife. Joan

I am so very sorry for your loss. :(

Can't thank you all enough for the encouraging replies. It's been a rough day at work just trying to keep my head up, but periodic visits to this forum and thread have kept me going. My wife just called me saying she was on her way home and that getting through her day was a lot harder than she expected too. Amazing how a little 3.5 lb rugrat can leave such an imprint on your heart. When I get home I think I'll take my other Yorkie Kahlua for a walk to make sure her spirits stay up through this.

Waking up to another day without my Bruin. Trying so hard to keep strong.

Gosh I know its it hard for you. Try to focus on your little Kahlua there. You need each other.
She'll keep bringing you joy through any storm.
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06stiman, I have a hard time coming to this section....I think all of us can never envision having to start a thread here.......You are not alone in your hurt.....sadly, I can say I understand.......I understand the unbearable hurt, the pain, the guilt, the depression, and the over whelming sadness your going though from losing your precious Bruin......

Your hurting, and it's taking all your energy just to hold back the tears.....Sadly we are never going to get an explanation for some of the tragedies we must face in life.......Sometimes all we can do is to try and stop rehearsing, rehashing and dwelling on the loss and put our time and focus on what we still have......Like your wife, daughter and Kahlua.....They still here and they are hurting too...

It's been nine months since I lost my precious Joey, I still think of him often and I probably always will.....It took a couple of months before I could talk about him without breaking down...I can at least do that now......

I know sometimes life just is not fair, hang in there, and I wish you well.....:wilted_ro

My heart truly aches for you and your family. I am so sorry for your loss. I still remember all my yorkies who are now in heaven every single day. It does get easier but they will always be a great part of my life and I don't think we ever forget them.

I praying that time will ease your pain. Hugs to you during this time of you loss.

Bruin
 

Hello:
Oh how I know how you feel! Having lost my little one 4 months ago I understand the terrible hole it leaves in ones heart and life. It is like the oxygen has been taken out of the air and nothing in life is worth doing any more. Every little thing one sees or does reminded me of her - she was EVERYWHERE; in the house, yard, car, streets etc etc. I too thought I would feel this acute pain for ever, but now I am much better and can face life again. She still appears now and again when a memory is jogged and the tears flow again and the sadness comes over me, but that passes and I move along.
So it is quite normal to feel as you do now, let the mourning happen, but trust me, it will get better with time.
With deepest condolences and empathy. RIP little Bruin.

I am deeply sorry for the loss of your Bruin. I pray that you find strength to get through each day and take care of your family too. Try to remember that Bruin wouldn't want you to feel sad--as impossible as that sounds for you to do. My heart goes out to you and your family.