My dream with Minnie
 

I know you all are probably so tired of hearing/reading my sadness. and I don't mean to put sadness on your hearts. But it does make me feel so much better to be able to share.I still don't know how or if Ill ever feel better. this had been so hard. and I miss my little Min Min so very much.I hope and pray that some day all this sadness heartache will leave me and that I will only have the good memories of my baby girl Minnie.

Monday 2/2/09 My first dream about Minnie. 24 days after my loss.

I was in a line there stood a man. It was a line where people could hold their loss pets one more time. There was two ladies in line in front of me. one wore jeans the other gray sweets. I looked over at Minnie and I thought I heard her snoring, but the man said no these dogs are dead. when each lady got to the front of the line, they had to take off their jeans/sweets. I don't know why. I wore my jammies so I didn't have to take off mine. when I got to the front of the line was still behind the tied off rope, the man put a paper plate one on top of Minnie and one under her and then put her in my arms. not sure why the paper plates, my thoughts were so we wouldn't feel the coldness in their little body's. Once he put her in my arms, I was back in my living room. I saw my couch where I last held her. I walked over and laid down with her, the bottom plate fell off her and I removed the top plate. I laid her in my arms and I reached out to touch her, she was stiff and cold. I just looked at her and started praying, God please give me my min min back Please, I said this over and over. I felt her body begin to soften and felt the warmth return to her body, I watched as her chest and stomach raised to let in the breath of air. I looked at her little face as she opened her eyes and looked back at me. all of a sudden she jumped up. I kind of sit up and she stood up against my chest her front paws on me chest and her little stub wagging a mile a minute. she was licking my face my nose, I could feel the wetness with each lick. her fast soft gentle strokes kind of sloppy , oh how I remember those same licks, so different from any other dogs licks, she was so excited to see me and I was so so happy to see, feel her baby once again. I ran my hands through her hair and ruffled it all up while she just kept licking my face. I could even smell her.Oh I loved that feeling. I then looked up and shouted Thank you god Thanks you.I remember thinking in my dream that I must tell everyone, I must tell all the nonbelievers, for now they will all believe.I could not wait to call my daughters and my sister Patsy to share my happiness with them.to wait for my son and husband to wake up so they could see her.I was so happy my heart felt so light and so good. then I went to move and I woke up. I still had the biggest smile on my face. but I could feel it slowly fade. It was a dream, yet It felt so real. Ill never ever forget that feeling of my baby girl in my arms again, the excitement in her beautiful eyes, the feel of her beautiful silky soft hair, her smell.. if only for a few minutes. it Was the best dream I have ever had. now awake I'm so sad once again, my heart is broken and the tears return. but I still have that warm feeling of my baby in my arms and her tongue on my face, and I don't think ill ever forget that it was so very real. I don't know if dream means any thing or not, But I thank God above for giving me those few minutes with my Min Min .

I want to post... I just don't know what to say... :( I'm so so sorry. Your dream brought tears to my eyes. :hug:

Awww I know how your feeling sweetie , My heart is breaking for you, Iam going thru my loss of my beloved jasper, he went home to the angels the day after thanksgiving, I will always remember that day :cry: Its so so painful, I have my dreams to and they seem so real and its hard when you wake up and realize its a dream :( I put all his memories away, One day, I dont know when, and i dont know how, but i know our time will come when we can look and smile and not cry and feel so sad when we think of them, My thoughts and prayers are with you :heart to....:rose:

..........beautiful dream, you did get to hold her,and to kiss her one more time, perhaps He did answer your prayers..

I am glad your dream gave you a few minutes with Minnie. My heart goes out to you

It seems like little Min Min came back for one last visit. I love how those little kisses felt so real. I know that was sweet while it lasted. Please don't feel bad about talking about Minnie, I think it helps your healing to share your love with your little loved one with others. I appreciate your stories and your love for your baby. It makes me think of the love I still have for the ones I have lost and how after time has gone by, I still miss them but the memories are more of the happy times we had together. Just thinking of them brings a smile to my face now.

I still dream about my little guy...I never dreamed about anything or anybody in my life like I do about him. I really believe they are visiting us...letting us know they are okay. And please keep posting...we all know how much it helps...this is the place to do it..
God Bless You and your family...hugs to Mickey...I hope he is doing okay too.

Although Annie was not a Yorkie, there was a dream about a month after she died on 2/27/08. We laid Annie to rest because of spinal degenerative disease that can occur in shepard type dogs. Her last weeks she could not walk more than 10 feet without falling over or squat to go potty. In the dream she went bounding out the front door to say good bye to my wife's lady friends who were leaving after a visit. It was so vivid and clear. One last good bye to say that she was well and healthy again. I think of her and the two yorkie boys alot. Til we meet again kids.:sad:

This bought tears to my eyes.....I believe that when we dream of loved ones who have passed, it is their way of letting us know that they are ok on the other side. Sounds like little Min Min knows how much she is loved and missed - and was 'checking in' to make sure you're ok xxx xxx

I understand how you are feeling. It has been almost a year for me and I am still having a hard time. Sometimes I just can't stop the crying. I made a big album of all Teddy's pictures with little things like poems and sayings and locks of his hair. I have a heart locket that says "forever in my heart" and I put a lock of his hair in there and I wear it always. I also took all his pictures and made a movie. Just do whatever you need to do to give yourself some comfort. I know the movie took me forever to get just right but it was something that helped me to grieve. My heart just breaks for you, I wish I could give her back to you.

If you feel the need to talk about your Minnie, you go right ahead. We all understand. Most of us have felt this same kind of pain at one time or another. In time you WILL be able to just think of the happy memories of her and not so much the pain of losing her. God Bless you and i will keep you in my prayers for peace in your heart...:)

what sweet dream ..my heart is breaking for you. :(. Im so sorry for the loss of your little Minnie. I will continue to keep you and your family in my thoughts and prayers. ((hugs))

you have me crying here at work. i know how hard it is for me to read
these things and i tortue myself all the time.. im so sorry for your pain.
my heart just bleeds for you...

I, too, am crying as I read your post. My heart also breaks for you and your unimaginable pain.

All of the things I have heard that mesh with my beliefs say that when you have a dream that is so vivid and so real, and that you remember with such clarity, it is not a dream. It is an actual visit. Your Minnie may have visited you to show you she still has that same great love for you and that it will never go away, and that she is healthy and happy and not hurting at all now. She will be waiting for you and you will see her again one day. :littleang

I am sitting at work and I read your dream, it brought tears to my eyes. Min min was a special girl, that a really great dream but I can see how it can leave you feeling more sad when you woke up. Its like waking up to a nightmare after a dream like that. My first yorkie died suddenly also. He was not even 5 months old. I left for work, he was fine! I got home from work he was covered in pee and vomit. He was sick. I rushed him to the er vet immediately but it was too late. He died less than 20 mins after I got there. Come to find out at some point he ingested rat poison. I have NO idea how. It remains a mystery to this day to me. This was 3.5 years ago and I still have a hole in my heart. You keep coming back and keep letting out your grief. I pray that you find peace eventually in what happened. I am happy for you that you got those few peaceful moments in your sleep to say a proper goodbye and get a proper goodbye from your baby girl. (((HUGS)))

Please don't ever feel like we would get tired of hearing about your Minnie. I wish I had some words to help ease your pain. Everyone here can understand how devastated you are. You are among the people who truly understand your love for her.

I am crying as I read your post. I understand how you feel. It has been a year since I lost my baby, and the pain is just as real right now as it was one year ago. Find comfront in that dream, it was a few more minutes with Minnie.

But Thats what I dont understand, My dream seemed so real. Minnie felt so alive an real in my dream. If God did do that to help me feel better. then he had to know by taking her Id be so lost. She really was my world. I dont think Ill ever get over it. its been a few weeks and im not any better. all my thoughts 24/7 are of her. I had always thought I had it all with Mickey & Minnie and My Husband, kids and grandbabys. I might not of had material things, but I had this perfect family. and now its broken.My kids call me every day. they cant stand to come over and see me like I am.I havent watched the Grandbabys. there hasnt been one day that we all havent cried. My mom dosent understand. My sister does she lost her baby girl a spitz . so we have been there for each other.

My son got me a locket to It also reads For ever in my Heart and has Minnies picture in it, I wore it for a few days but I had broke out in hives from my nerves, I had to take it off. I have it hanging off the nobb of my cabnet. I also had a scupture made of Minnie from a member here, It looks just like her, she did a wonderful job, and Ill be sending after that soon.

I agree, I'm so sorry this happened to your Minnie. Sometimes it's just too hard. Why? why? why? You have to believe she came to you and maybe will continue to come to you again in your dreams. So you really didn't lose her in your heart at all. She knows this. Bless you

I'm so sorry about Minnie. Your dream has me with tears. It's so sad to lose a pet. They are more than a pet, they are family. I know what it feels like to lose one of your best friends in the whole world. A best friend that can't even talk, but it doesn't matter cause just their kisses and companionship speaks volumes. I lost my best friend when i was 9, but it still hurts the same today. And you dream about them and just wish you can see them one last time. I was young so i wrote letters to him and threw them out the window thinking he would get them...That dream was your goodbye for now but you will see her again. I know i will see mine again one day. I'm so sorry, you are in my thoughts. :love:

I will never be tired to hear you . You can talk about Minnie as much as you want , I'll be there .

To Min Min's Mum
 

Hello,
I am so sad for you and am still crying as I write to you, as it also brings back memories for me about my dear Nik who crossed the Bridge on 11/24/08. Like you I felt so empty and wanted her back so much. Nothing seemed worth doing any more and I felt I would never recover. But it is now over 2 months and I must say I am a lot better and can do things again. There is hope!:) However, it doesn't take much to set me off crying again and for that moment feel as if she had just left me.
Yesterday I plucked up enough courage to mount some of her things (photos/harness/pawprint-hair tress etc) in a frame as a memento. Perhaps you might be able to do the same later as it does seem to give some closure and have memories of her collected in one place.
I can well understand your dream being so real as I had a very vivid dream myself soon after Nik died. I too could not believe it was not true when I woke up and wanted to tell everyone. You at least were able to hold your little one again and that must show that she was with you again to comfort you. Now you are sad but I am sure when she was there you were happy in your dream world.
You will feel better before too long even though it feels now that you never will come to terms with her loss. We have to go through the grieving process and this takes time. It is true that others who are not pet lovers and have not experienced the loss DO NOT GET IT!!! But those who do understand are so comforting.
So I do know how you feel and am so sorry for your loss, but it will feel better in time. Min Min is happy and at peace now, and only we feel sad. You loved her when she was here and the lovely memories will in time replace the sadness.
(My dream for those who may wish to read it : I walked into my living room and there was my cleaning lady standing by a tall 'Scrooge' desk, and my boyfriend sitting on a dining chair at the other end of the room - holding my dear 'Nik'.(Or her clone!) My BF said he had paid the lady $1100 for the dog - by credit card. I carried 'Nik' outside and put her down for a pee on the grass as I usually did when she was alive. She immediately ran away fast and I was so mad with myself and told myself 'how could I do that as it was not my Nik but some image of her'. She then took off and flew away as a large white bird with a black head. I was so sad, but a man came by and said 'put your hand out with a treat in it and she will come back'. She did come back and changed back into 'Nik'. I then went back into the room and I gave the dog back to the lady and said I did not want the dog as it was not my Nik. I asked for a credit on the card also. And so the dream ended. What that meant I do not know, but the dream was so vivid and detailed I could not forget it. It seems I knew it was not my dog, so at least my subconscious must have accepted that she was gone. End of dream!)
Bye for now and keep coming to the site to let us know how you are doing.

Please know we are always here to share in your pain, and try our best to ease your pain.

i was reading your drem and it made me so sad i have tears in my eyes so sorry for your loss

ROOM IN YOUR HEART

Sorrow fills a barren space;
you close your eyes and see my face
and think of times I made you laugh,
the love we shared, the bond we had,
the special way I needed you -
the friendship shared by just we two.

The day's too quiet, the world seems older,
the wind blows now a little colder.
You gaze into the empty air
and look for me, but I'm not there -
I'm in heaven and I watch you,
and I see the world around you too.

I see little souls wearing fur,
souls who bark and souls who purr
born unwanted and unloved -
I see all this and more above -
I watch them suffer, I see them cry,
I see them lost, I watch them die.
I see unwanted thousands born -
and when they die, nobody mourns.

These little souls wearing fur
(Some who bark and some who purr)
are castaways who - unlike me -
will never know love or security.
A few short months they starve and roam,
Or caged in shelters - nobody takes home.
They're special too (furballs of pleasure),
filled with love and each one, a treasure.

My pain and suffering came to an end,
so don't cry for me, my person, my friend.
But think of the living -
those souls with fur
(some who bark and some who purr) -
And though our bond can't be broken apart,
make room for another in your home and
your heart.


--- Caro Schubert-James

Thank you thats Beautiful.

How happy we are when we dream of them. i only had one dream about my spike...i dream more about my border collie, bertie, who passed away last year... i want so badly to dream about my little yorkie man spike but it just only happened that once. i do get visited by people who have passed in my dreams all the time and i hang around with them and even one time i was so nervous to tell my friend Carol she was going to die...i didn't know how to tell her as we were laughing and having fun...she passed suddenly 3 years ago from an aneursym....she was my best friend and i dream of her often but i do think that when our pets and/or people we love die come into our dreams, they are telling us they are still alive somewhere, just not here, and they are just not of the physical world anymore....one day we will all be reunited with them..i can't wait to see spike again! jg -

I think your precious Min Min was really with you. Maybe in another realm that we can't see when we're awake.

I know your heart aches for her and you miss her so much. :hug:

Please know how terribly sorry I am for your loss :(