Today as I was getting the stockings out...
 

I came across Peanut's stocking :( Peanut will be gone 1 year on January 2 and even though I have 2 beautiful little girls, they cannot take his place in my heart.
Peanut came to us as a stray. He was a scruffy looking frail little guy the day he arrived, but it didn't take him long to become one of the most beautiful yorkies (in my eyes) that I've ever seen. He was so grateful to have a loving home, food and a warm bed.

Peanut was not neutered when he arrived, yet he never lifted his leg in our house, ever. He didn't even have accidents. He didn't bark or beg for food. He was always just happy to be loved and seemed content no matter what.

Oh how I wish I could go back and redo that whole day all over again, because maybe my Peanut would still be with me. I miss him so much.

I don't know what to do with his stocking. Abby and Daisy have their own stockings and besides, I would never give his to them.

Little Peanut, Mommy misses you so much. If I could change what happened I would. I loved you with all my heart little guy and I always will. I hope you are playing with Chloe and all your friends at the Rainbow Bridge. I will be there with you someday.

You are forever in my heart. Thank You for everything Peanut :hug:

Love,
Mama

Aww hon I am not sure what to tell you. Keep his little memory alive and enjoy those moments that you did share with him. It's very hard at the holiday's when we think of the ones we have lost.

Tammy~

I am so very sorry for the loss of Peanut! :( We become so attached to these little guys because of how much joy they bring to us. How wonderful that Peanut had a loving home like yours and that he knew that kind of kindness. Would it be too difficult to go ahead and hang his stocking with your other fur kids....just as a way to honor him??

Hugs to you!!
Tam

I'm sorry you're sad about Peanut. Maybe next Christmas will be a little easier. Try to just think of the good times. God bless you, and Merry Christmas!

Oh I understand completely....the Christmas after Trace died...I was getting out my Christmas things and there was his picture with Santa. My sweet boy. I displayed it any way and have every year since.

I'd hang that stocking up if it were me.

I'm very sorry about Peanut...

Thank You ladies :hug:
I did just that, I hung Peanut's stocking between Abby and Daisy's stockings.
It's a bone shaped stocking that says, "My Puppy" and has a place for his picture. I need to slip the picture back in there.

He was such a precious little soul. Honestly, I feel that he was one in a million. He was so tiny, yet he was mighty.

I would give so much to have him back or to be able to hold him one more time. I just wish I knew, that he knew how sorry I am and how much I miss him.

When he first died, I used to cry myself to sleep everynight and pray for the Lord to let him know how I felt about him. I just couldn't understand why he was taken from me like that. Now I feel as though Peanut taught me life long lessons that I needed to learn. I just wish I could have learned them some other way.

Finding his stocking today was a jolt, but I was able to think about the good times. I think about him all the time anyway. It was just seeing something so tangible that was so hard. We buried all his toys and clothes with him, so I don't have a lot of reminders around the house. Sometimes I wish I'd hung on to somethings, but I wanted them to be with him.
The day he died was so cold and I couldn't bear the thought of putting him in the cold ground, but we had to, so I wrapped him in my robe and his blanket. He loved to lay on my robe. I think he would have liked that.

I'm sorry to go on and on. It just seems I can never get this out of my system. I appreciate everyone who took the time to read this and reply. Thank You.

I think he was my little Yorkie Angel.

bchgirl, I'm sorry about Trace :( I so wish they could stay with us longer.
:hug:

Below are some of the last pictures I took of Peanut before he died.

That's a cute reindeer.

I didn't say I don't cry when I find Trace's picture every year, but I do.

Trace was much loved here on earth and he loved us. I am certain Peanut knew too.

I do thank God for Trace though...cause without Trace...there'd be no Ramsey, Reese, or Reggie.

:( This thread brought tears to my eyes.
Mahina's my first dog, but I can't imagine if anything happened to her.

My cat passed away 3.5 years ago. I cried for a long time after he passed. And I still cry to this day and I miss him very much. I always remember the good things about him and those last moments we shared.

I knew we had to take him to the vet and I knew we would have to put him down. So I went on the porch with him and I told him I loved him very much and he just gave me a lick on my had and sat with me. We didn't make it to the vet though, he died on the way there.

It's so hard to lose a cat or dog or any animal, but they know we love them and always think about them.

Deb,
Is Trace the father of your babies? I have to feel the same, because if it weren't for Peanut, I wouldn't have Abby and Daisy. He's in no way related to them but, he was my first Yorkie and it was only by chance that he became mine. After Peanut, I was hooked.
Not only have I become a yorkie lover, I'm a dyed in the wool animal lover now and it's all because of him.
I always liked dogs and cats and have always had them, but I had a special bond with Peanut. Before Peanut, we had a dog for 16 yrs, that I never had a bond with like I did Peanut. I can't explain it, it just happened.
Now I feel that same bond with Abby and Daisy, same but different..
I'm so cautious with them, to point of almost being paranoid, but I can't go through that again.
I will probably hang Peanuts Stocking up every year from now on. His pictures are still on a shelf over my couch. My sister in law said it's a shrine. :rolleyes: whatever..

I guess we'll cry together at Christmas when we're getting our things out.
:hug:

Tammy

I'm so sorry about your kitty. My daughter's cat died this year after 12 years and it broke my heart. Fuzz and I went through a lot together. He was a sick boy from the time he was a kitten and had multiple surgeries and hospitalizations. When my daughter moved out and took him, I never dreamed it would be the last time I saw him. I cried my eyes out when she called to tell me he had passed. Fortunately, he just went to sleep and didn't wake up. I am grateful for that.

:hug: Thank You for your kind words.

Aww Tammy, hugs to you for your bittersweet reminder of Peanut. I know how you feel as we just passed the one year mark in late November of losing our good ole Alfie. Not a yorkie, but loved for 14 years. Glad to hear that you hung Peanut's stocking along with the girls'.

i am so sorry for your loss. I went thru the same thing last week with my Christmas stockings. My little mini-poo, Sugar, had her own stocking and she also always had a wrapped gift under the tree which she always opened by herself. She loved the bows. it is a sad time of the year for me as well.

I never look at this section because it makes me sad. But something made me look at it today. I am so very sorry for your loss, I have had a few dogs and can't stand that they are gone. It is too sad for me. Their loss really does something to you. I will say a prayer for you and your beloved baby. It really just goes to show that life is too short. Enjoy your babies this Christmas. Hope Santa brings them what they want. Bless you.
:aimeeyorkCOCO :aimeeyorkPEBBLES :aimeeyorkTRIXIE

I'm sorry:unlove: I just had the same kind of thing yesterday, as we finally got the Christmas stuff down from the attic:cry: My Starr's stocking is hung right here by her memorial board in my office. It's been over two years now that she's been gone, and the second Christmas, and it still hurts so much:( She was so special, and it sounds like Peanut was the ultimate!:love:

BIG hugs to you:girl_hug:

Thank You everyone :hug:
It sounds like so many of us have lost our beloved pets. It's good to be someplace where others understand what a huge loss it really is.
Yesterday wasn't a good day. I found myself crying again last night while I was going to sleep, but today is better and I will try to enjoy the memories and my darling little girls.

Thanks again for understanding :)

I hope everyone has a wonderful holiday!

I'm sorry about Peanut and this is one of the most difficult times of year. We're all getting ready for the holidays but that one thing is not here. The happy little yorkie who made our lives so complete. I'm afraid to go in the attic into the christmas bin as i know his stocking is in there. I have 3 dogs now. they all have "paw" stockings with their names on it. I can't bring myself to go up and take those stockings out as i cannot handle it. I cry as i write this. I lost spike just over a month ago. everday i live that dreaded day at the vet when spike was diagnosed with cancer in one day and couldn't breathe anymore. i had no idea there was anything wrong with him till i saw the xray with a huge tumor in his chest and heart. we were eating pizza the nite before (he loved pizza). i remember how he kissed my nose when they administered that terrible fluid into him to end his life. as he drifted away from me, i held my face against his so i felt he could take me with him as he left. i then held his lifeless body for another half hour before they took him away.

It's nice to read these other posts. it's nice that you buried peanut with his things as that is what made him comfortable in life...he took those with him in his next life....Peanut was your yorkie angel and he'll be waiting for you with that robe!
i've attached last year's photo of my pooches. spike is sitting next to santa on the left. Jenny - Spike's mom :aimeeyork

No, he wasn't. He was much like your Peanut. I got Ramsey probably within a month of Trace dying. Reese was a gift from a member here who I've become close friends with...and Reg...just cause. ;) So I have three and it's all because of Trace.

I have friends who loved Trace as much as I...and every Christmas..his picture is displayed at their house too.

Jenny...that is a wonderful picture.

You did what any loving animal lover does when the time comes. The most unselfish act of all. All of us here...at some time... who accepted the love and companionship of a pet...also has to accept the eventual heartache.

I'm very sorry for your loss.

Tammy I'm so sorry you are having a difficult time right now. I know you understand it's because you loved little Peanut so much that you struggle now.

My poodle Indy will be gone for two years Christmas Day. I think of him often and his picture is in a silver frame on my lamp table in the living room.

I put his stocking out last year and again this year right next to Tinkerbelle's. I got him a present too and put it in his little stocking. His present is a donation to the county shelter where I got him as a 10 wk old puppy. I love my little Tinkerbelle very much but Indy was my soul-doggy and there will never be another like him.

Don't worry; Peanut knows you loved him and that you are sad at how he went over the rainbow bridge. He's happy htere. :)

Oh Tammy, I am so sorry about your sweet Peanut. I wish I had better words of comfort.... I know he will always be in your heart and you gave him such a happy life. It is so hard at this time of year - I miss my Tinkerbell, too. Just wanted you to know that we are sending hugs.

Tammy, I'm sorry that your heart is so sad. Peanut was so blessed to have you as his mommy. I believe that that is what this time of year is for, to count our blessings and recall good memories with those who are not with us anymore.
My avitar is our Saint when I was 7 and sis was 4. We found pictures of him this year and have shed more tears remembering him & missing him than we did as children.
When Jack, my Maltese, passed 5 years ago I kept his Christmas stocking. A year ago when Sunnie had her last litter, my granddaughter saw the little male being born and named him BlackJack. We fell in love and kept him & his name. When we were putting up decorations I found my dear Jack's sock....and hung it up for BlackJack. It gave new life, new meaning, to an old treasure and brought some healing to my broken heart.
Prayers for a wonderful Holiday Season. Hugs. jeanie

OMGod, I am so sorry :( Your post made me cry for you and Spike. He looked like such a sweet little guy. Maybe he and Peanut are playing together at the Rainbow Bridge. I'd like to think that anyway. Please take care and again, I'm very sorry.
:hug:
Tammy

Thank you so much sweetie :hug: What you said means so much to me.
I didn't know you lost Indy on Christmas day :( What a horrible thing to happen anytime, but on Christmas, that's terrible.

Hugs,
Tammy

Lisa,
I didn't know you had a Tinkerbell. Was she a Yorkie too? I'm sorry for your loss.
You know how much I treasure Abby and Daisy, so this post I hope doesn't take anything away from them. As I said before, if it weren't for Peanut, I probably wouldn't have my baby girls.

Thank You Lisa :hug: and Merry Christmas to you and your family.


Thank You Jeanie. It's so hard to lose them, but they bring us so much joy while they are here. I try hard to hang on to that.
Hugs,
Tammy

Tammy.. I am so sorry for your loss. Peanut is blessed to have you as his Mom. My heart goes out to you. I think of Grizzley Bear everyday and always shed a tear. It has been a year and two months. I find comfort knowing that him and Peanut are at the Rainbow Bridge loving life and watching over us. Sending big warm hugs to you. I will be thinking about you. Take care.

Hugs,
Mary

Dear Tammy,
I just wrote the following poem especially for you in rememberance of Peanut.
I know how hard it is, we too had to give back our precious Cassie, how very Blessed we are to have God's most loving gift, these precious furbabies, even when we must give them back to HIM, they are forever in our hearts.
Hugs and with our love, Patti and Jack and our girls.
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Missing our "kids"
 

It will be hard at our house this year too. Not only our two yorkie boys who died this Jan., our Annie girl who was with us from our first anniversary in '93 will be missing this year. Their memories and presence live on in our hearts and we cherish the time they were with us. Like you, there are two more yorkie boys in our lives to help us get through this first holiday w/o our other "kids". Bob

oh my, where were you when I was trying to put all my feelings on paper 5 years ago when the vet killed my pooh..thanks for doing this patti.. how wonderful of you...

Honey I know how your feeling... our first three yorkies were recues and they too were just happy souls glad to be loved and fed and to sleep with us we never imagined when we took in our first one.. how life would take us into the yorkie world.. our first I had not even known what a yorkie was...we have lost 4 and I have three urn's.. for first lost one.. our friends buried her with their dog that died the week before.. I miss them all the time.. and I so love the babies I have but those memories will not fade until I do... sending you hugs.. I felt so alone back then, feeling no one understood how I felt.. what losing a furbutt would me to me.. I sure wish I had this place and such wonderful people back then...
Put Peanuts picture in the stocking and keep it near you over christmas.. for I know his little feet or still close by you ... you just cannot see them.. but I know they are there...
anne

Dear Patti,
I don't even know what to say. This is the best Christmas gift anyone could have given me and it comforted me more than I can express.
Thank You Patti, from the bottom of my heart.
Love, Tammy

Thank You Anne :hug:
You are very dear to me. I appreciate your words to me here.
Love, Tammy