Originally Posted by leipshen
(Post 2010331)
I just read your post. I stopped and said a prayer for you. I know that there are no words to ease pain of your loss.
Rest today, allow yourself to cry, I understand your extreme fury at your brother's dog. Try hard not to allow this anger to permeate your heart. As justified as it is, it will only injure you further. right now you are experiencing so many different emotions. It is unbearable enough to suffer the pain of such a loss, yet, you are also feeling the undeniable hurt and guilt concerning the decision to set "Scooter" free from his pain. This type of decision is a private hell of it's own. Please allow yourself to be comforted by all of the wonderful people here on this site, who truly do KNOW that unique and inexplicably deep love that you have for your "Scooter". You will receive much genuine compassion and conformation, from so many of us who have lived your nightmare, that your decision to set "Scooter" free was ultimately the right one. Right, only in the sense that your other option would have meant much prolonged pain for "Scooter", with the great possibility that the outcome would have been the same.
I know how impossible this seems right now..however..try to realize that , although , you are feeling that your family is standing against you, and coldly taking the side of your brother and his dog, with no compassion for your pain, understand that this may not be the case all. Your father does not want you to hurt yourself further by losing control and killing the German Shepard. My father would have done the same thing, not as a rejection to the pain, but out of his own desperation to get through to me, and make me aware of how much worse I would be making it for myself. I know that you , deep down, must realize that even if you did have a chance to kill the killer, your heart would still be shattered and you would not receive any peace from the act.
I do completely agree with the others here, YOU MUST report the incident and the dog!! If this dog can jump an 8 foot fence , and your brother has so little sense as to train his dog to kill "ANYTHING", then this situation is completely out of contol. I know it also seems impossible right now...to feel compassion for the German Shepard, however maybe it will help you to heal from your anger, if you can realize that it was not his choice to become a killer.
Through it all, and with deep compassion for your hurting heart, try to remember that anger and resentment , breeds more anger and resentment. Try not to put your parents in the middle. This is an impossible position for them. Don't allow your relationship with your parents to be destroyed by this tragic event.
Again, I cry for your loss. Remember not to suffer this nightmare alone. You have many people here that will take your hand and help you along the road to healing.
God Bless You |