Quote:
Originally Posted by LunasMomma
(Post 3982241)
I am so very sorry for your heartbreaking loss. I went through a similar situation with my baby Starr. She was almost three years old, and 5 pounds of pure love. She got sick in the same way your Ace did, and it took 5 days of running her to the vet every day before they finally figured out that she had an obstruction. It was a bunch of wood mixed with hair (she'd chewed up a colored pencil that I later found under our bed :( ) The hair was from my daughter and me, we both had very long hair at the time and I guess she was eating it. They did the surgery and sent her home with us. Later that night, I was cooking dinner (still can't eat spaghetti much because of this) when my then 10 year old daughter ran into the kitchen and said Starr is making a weird noise and i'm scared. We now know that it was her last breath, the death rattle:cry: We rushed her to the ER vet anyway, where they confirmed that she had indeed died:unlove: They said that she bled internally, and the next day I was picking up her little bed and saw that it was soaked with blood.
I wanted to go after the vet that did the surgery as well, but was too heartbroken at the time to do anything. A few months later, I found out that they went out of business.
There are no more understanding folks in the world than right here at YT. A lot of us have lost a little one unexpectedly and know how you're feeling. It's horrible, and my husband and I literally just laid in our bed that night and bawled like little babies, not sleeping at all. The very next day, my hubby was on a mission to find another Yorkie baby to love, while I hated the idea. I was never going to have another dog, ever, my heart was raw. He had me looking for breeders online and that's when I stumbled upon YT and the wonderful people here:love: BEST thing that ever happened to me, and my two Yorkie girls that I've got now. We did end up with a pup (and then a second a couple of months later) and they helped our hearts heal so much. When you are ready to love again, you'll be amazed at how much that can lift your heart. You'll know when the time is right. My husband forced me into it, but I'm kind of glad that he did, because the new puppy (Luna) was sickly and it forced me to focus on keeping her alive, and not on my grief.
I hope that you are able to find some peace in time. You did everything you possibly could do for your baby. You trusted in your vet, as did I, after all they are supposed to be the professionals, right!? It took a long time (this was almost 6 years ago now) but we can now talk about Starr and laugh and smile at her memories. She taught us what real love is!
My heart goes out to you.
|
I'm very sorry this happened to your little baby. Our vet surgeon said Ace consumed a huge hairball all at once. My husband and I thought maybe he had been eating hair a little bit each time but our vet said it was all at once. This is what has my husband and I so confused, becasue we have no idea where he would've gotten a hairball that size. Did your little one eat the hair at once or was it something consumed gradually? I guess I have to trust in the surgeon becasue he specializes in small animal surgery and was one of the best. I know it something husband and I will never know 100 percent, and I think that is one of the toughest things.
My husband and I are getting a new puppy on 8/20/12. I think the only was I can try to get through this is by bringing some yorkie love into our life.
I'm the kind of person that needs to look after a loving little pup because the love they give back is unconditional, as we all know:) I tend to be a little insecure at times with everybody, except yorkie babies. They make me feel loved and safe, there is just something about these guys that is so special, I know I always need them in my life. :aimeeyork
I know nobody will ever replace Ace, and that's not what I'm looking for. Ace will always be my first baby and my pride and joy. I will always keep his memory alive.
We actually had been looking at different yorkies the past couple days, however none seemed to workout. Then, we stopped by a breeder to look at a little male yorkie. He's only 7 weeks old so he's still a baby, so cute. We weren't allowed to get Ace until 6 months because he had hypoglacemia, so seeing a little yorkie this young is very different. Husband and I thought he of course was adorable. But, the deciding factor was when we were on the back porch and my husband went inside to talk to the breeder. It was a beautiful sunny evening and I though of Ace, while I was holding the pup in my lap and hands. I breathed in feeling the need to explain about Ace and he just looked up at me. And I said, "I don't need to say anything, you already know." Then he rested his little head on my arm, and I knew he was the one. So to make a long story kinda short, we are getting him. Is it weird to feel like maybe Ace picked this little guy for us?
We have about a month to get to get everything puppy ready and finalize our Ace memorial. His memorial is in the living room, his favorite place. We are going to a candlelight memorial, on Aug 9, at a place called Animal Friends. It's a celebration of our fallen pets, in our case, baby because he wasn't a pet. The purpose is to celebrate thier life, talk about your favorite memories, and what make you smile thinking of them. Then we pass around pictures. Husband and I are working on a piece we have to read at the celebration about Ace. Everyone has to write something on what did your pet bring to your life. I have to honor Ace that way. Like I said before, Ace was my life. I'm trying to get through this but it is the hardest thing I've ever done. The waves of sadness, anger, loneliness, and disbelief wash over me. But, I have no other choice but to go on.
Our little angels in heaven know each other now, and I know my Ace is causing all kinds of mischief. He was such a young soul. Ace is an eternal flame burning ever so brightly.
Thank you for understanding and all your kind words!:)
