I'm ready to talk...

[yorkiemom1970]

and this was my rio....my darling, precious girl. and the last pic is of what she has given to me, her 4 babies nestled in with courtney's two babies. courtney's are the 2 bigger one's as they are a bit older, so it's easy to tell who are rio's babies. my love for these puppies is un-real.

[Annadoodle]

Robbie......I'm out of words....

A very touching tribute...I'm also in tears~

We love you....and all the yorkies at Butterfly Yorkies*

[yorkieusa]

She was a beautiful girl. Annadoodle is right, though, those little one's are her legacy and that is something that not every little yorkie that was loved so much was able to leave behind...

[red98vett]

Originally Posted by yorkiemom1970

villette, you are so thoughtful and caring. thank you for posting sophie girl...i thought that i would post my bridgit, who is sophie's sister....as a tribute to rio and her beautiful children....i see her mother in her eyes every time i look at her. she has been clinging to me for days now. she knows something is wrong...here she is, my beautiful "butterfly's bridgit jones" my darling rio's daughter.

There is NO DOUBT about who their sweet mom is - Rio's babies are a beautiful tribute to her ...She is beautiful as Melissa's little
Sophie.... and you can see how much Rio brought to this world by looking into their eyes...

[yorkiemom1970]

Originally Posted by Julz

Robbie, I am so saddened for your pain and your loss. Thank God you have Courtney. Seriously. It would be almost impossible to feed the babies every two hours in your condition. I know that heart wrenching physical and emotional pain you are feeling. I know if feels as though you lost a child or a beloved family member....because you did. You loved her THAT much. How wonderful that YOU were chosen to have her. Your grief will go on for a very long time. However, after a period of time, it will start to lessen .... when this starts to happen, please don't fight it and feel guilty that it is starting to lessen. Hug and kiss your other Yorkies, you will see in their eyes how much they care. It will make you cry even more, but trust me, one of them will do something to make you smile or laugh even as tears stream down your face. It is so awsome that the babies will live. You are not to blame....it did sound like everything was perfect. I am sure that you are the ONLY one blaming yourself....PLEASE stop. When we love something and then it is gone, we always tend to try to find a reason to blame ourselves. Accept that this isn't your fault. I will pray that each new day eases your pain more and more.

your post really touched me. and i know you are right. it will lessen in time, and i am going to feel the guilt again. why does this have to hurt so much....i've lost loved one's in my life, my father in 2000 who was only 47 passed due to lupus. i thought i would never feel a pain as bad as that again until now. my dad was a huge animal lover, dogs and raised horses...he would understand this more than anyone. i know my girl is with him now. but i never thought i would feel a pain as bad as that again. this is no different to me...she was my heart.

[Sugar's Mom]

Originally Posted by yorkiemom1970

hello everyone,

I have not been on yt much at all since dec. 2. i have suffered the greatest tradgedy of my life other than when i lost my father. my two girls courtney and rio were pregnant as some of you know, and courtney had a rough time, and is now doing great. on the other hand, the love of my life, my rio wasn't so lucky. everything went terribly wrong. i am in tears as i type this so bare with any mis spells...rio deliverd 5 beautiful pups on nov. 29. 3 girls and 2 boys. it was a text book delivery. no problems what so ever. on dec 1st I noticed she had vomited twice. a greenish clear liquid with a bit of her food. i immediately call my vet because i call my vet when my dog's sneeze. well she told me it was probably where she had eaten so many placentas and it had made her sick, (ph call at 8 pm on dec 1) and to bring her in first thing next morn to be safe. well i did just that. she seemed lethargic by the time we arrived. so fast. i cannot express how fast this happened. after a going over, my vet palpated which i had done also and said that something just wasnt "right". they immediately opened her up and there was a tiny re-tained puppy inside her. it was unclear if it was male or female by this time. as they were removing it i felt a sense of relief. then suddenly when she was cut off from anethesia, she didnt wake up. nothing saved her. nothing. every thing was tried. she never woke up. i have lost it. i dont remember driving home with her, i dont remember speaking to several of my friends on the 2nd. i said things to my husband that didnt make sense. i cried until my eyes all but swelled shut. i have just lost my precious girl that i loved with all my heart and i had 4 orphaned babies. (forgot to mention her smallest boy didnt make it on day one) my gift from God was my Courtney who has taken these orphans in as her own. her babies are one week older. if only i had had my girl x rayed. maybe we would have seen the 6th spine and known she didnt pass them all. if only i had done that. i do sometimes, when i have a concern, but i didnt this time. i had no concerns. i am in shock, having hard ti me speaking to people at the moement and am having a hard time leaving my home for anything. these two litters have left me heart broken. i am completely heart broken. i cannot sleep, i cannot eat. i cannot think of anything but how empty i feel at the loss of my girl. she was truly my sidekick. my home is missing something so precious. our lives have been disrupted and we are grief stricken. this all happened so very fast that i do think i went into a mild shock. there were no signs of trouble for 3 days. there was no odor. there was nothing that i felt any concern over. i had no idea anythign was wrong. none at all. she was acting like a proud mommy, she was active. i have always done the very best i could concerning my yorkies. i have now faced the one thing that i prayed for so long that i would never have to face. i happen to love my dogs as my pets even though i am a hobby breeder. the things that we breeders face and go through at times is un-imaginable to some people. my mother said the sweetest thing to me today, she said: "your work involves love, so you have an attachment and most people wouldn't be strong enough to do it with the care you put into and to be able to keep going on with your responsibilites after you have your heart broke. most people dont realize what you can and do go through to have these pups for other people to love" she is right too. it is going to take me years to get over losing her. i am filled with guilt. i have her beautiful daugther from her past litter, my little "bridgit" and the look in her eyes is her mothers. she has been sticking close to me. she knows something's wrong. i now have these 4 precious babies that will never remember their beautiful mother that are like gold to me right now. they are like GOLD. they are more precious to me than any amount of money. they are what is keeping me going and getting me through this. my husband built a resting place for her and she has been placed in my favorite bed of daylilies. i cant believe i'm even typing this right now. i didnt know how i was going to be able to even talk about it. i have had a wonderful person who is my dear dear friend and a blessing to me from God help me through these last 2 days. my dear friend melissa, "annadoodle" has been my rock, my shoulder, my strength.
i had asked her to please not mention this until i was strong enough and ready to talk about it. i had all but decided that i was giving up on my dream, my passion as of 2 days ago. i said no more. then i realized tonight that i cant give up. that i must keep on keeping on and learn from every single thing that happens to me how big or small. the attachment and love that i feel for my yorkies is why i do this in the first place...to give other's the same kind of love i have and that they to desire to have in a yorkie of their own. may you rest in peace my darling girl, mama loves you rio. oh God, somebody please tell me how to take this pain away. i am hurting so bad and i'm confused and i just dont know what to do. i feel like everything is my fault. i want to crawl in a hole but i have to stay strong for my babies. my courtney is my angel sent from heaven. she has taken the babies and is loving them as her own. it is amazing and there is no doubt in my mind that is is a blessing from God for her to have had her babies near the same time. my life will never be the same. sorry this was so long, but i am just ready to let it all out or i'm going to lose it again. she's everywhere i go. every room of my home, there's something of hers, or a place she napped by me or a hair in a brush or something. i'm truly heart broken and i ask you all to pray for me to ease my pain. i have never hurt so bad in my life.

I am so sorry and feel your pain as I read. I will be praying for you and your family.

[sshaw]

Robbie,

I am so sorry for you. I cried through the whole post knowing and understanding how grief stricken you are. You are such a remarkable woman to have so masterfully written that heart-wrenching story. I can only share your grief as I too have lost my most precious of angels, she to is everywhere and I can’t find peace.

I will pray that we both find some peace. Again I am so terribly sorry for you loss.

Love to you,

Sue

[yorkiemom1970]

Originally Posted by sshaw

Robbie,

I am so sorry for you. I cried through the whole post knowing and understanding how grief stricken you are. You are such a remarkable woman to have so masterfully written that heart-wrenching story. I can only share your grief as I too have lost my most precious of angels, she to is everywhere and I can’t find peace.

I will pray that we both find some peace. Again I am so terribly sorry for you loss.

Love to you,

Sue

thank you so much

[velobabe]

Robbie ~ My heart aches so much for you. I can't imagine the pain you are feeling in your heart but I am glad you are now able to turn to everyone here at YT. We will all be here for you through this worst of times. Please know that your in my heart, thoughts, and prayers.

Hugs to you sweet lady,

Tammy

[Fran42478]

Please know you have my condolences I am so so sorry for your tremendous loss

You are in my thoughts and prayers

Lots of love and hugs
Fran and Sammi

[yorkiemom1970]

thank you tammy and fran...it means so much to have you all here

[yorkiemom1970]

and mone't....thank you for the beautiful e-card. how touching...you are my friend as well and you are a sweet lady....thanks so very much

[red98vett]

Originally Posted by yorkiemom1970

and mone't....thank you for the beautiful e-card. how touching...you are my friend as well and you are a sweet lady....thanks so very much

Mone't ...that WAS a really nice thing to do.... and I agree - you ARE a sweet lady hugs are ALL around here -

Robbie - you are on lots of minds...Hang in there.... and keep us posted on those little babies please ?

[PlatinumYorkies]

Originally Posted by yorkiemom1970

and mone't....thank you for the beautiful e-card. how touching...you are my friend as well and you are a sweet lady....thanks so very much

You are quite welcome. You are a very wonderful person. Once again I am so sorry.

[yorkiemom1970]

Originally Posted by red98vett

Mone't ...that WAS a really nice thing to do.... and I agree - you ARE a sweet lady hugs are ALL around here -

Robbie - you are on lots of minds...Hang in there.... and keep us posted on those little babies please ?

thanks villette, i will do just that. melissa and i were just chatting and she suggested i document their growth on here...which i plan to do as a tribute to their precious mommy. if she only knew how many people across our country were praying for me and for her babies....she would be so happy. at first, i was planning to keep them all to myself, not share. i was not thinking clearly for 2 days, please realize...but now, i plan to document everything for ALL OF YOU each and every one who were so very thoughtful and compassionate towards me in my time of grief to share in this with me, for rio and for them...they have no clue how many folks already love them and this is something i want to do.