Robbie~

I am in tears after reading your post....I don't know what to say....i cannot imagine your pain and grief and I wish there was something I could do or say to help. Please do not blame yourself. It was an accident and we all know how much you love and care for all of your babies. I am so sorry. Be strong ...the babies need you even more now.

I am so terribly sorry. You must be hurting so badly. I don't know what to say to you. If this happened to me I am not sure what anyone could say to ease the pain. Life gives us some hard kicks and sometimes you don't know how you will get through it. One day at a time is the only way. You loved that girl and she loved you. You gave her a good life and she will always be with you. You must feel her around you and that is what she wants. Hang on to that feeling because with out it there is such emptyness. She is that angel on your shoulder. :tinyheart

I am so sorry Robbie - noone deserves such a hard time!
I am thinking of you! :hug:

oh my gosh :( i am sooo sorry for your loss....please know that i am here for you anytime that you need to talk about anything and i am sure that everyone else will be here for you too.

thank you thank you thank you to everyone. you all have actually made me feel a little better. i'll never get over it, but its so nice to have you all thinking of me. i'm just so heart broken. and i cant sleep. thats the hardest thing last two days is trying to fall into a peaceful sleep. i'm afraid to go to sleep, i think. i'm afraid something will happen to the babies. i dont know, my mind isnt clear at the moment. i'm an emotional wreck. thank you all for being there.

YorkieMom - I know exactly how you feel.

I lost the love of my life a couple months ago - and I thought my heart was going to break. Like you, I cried until my eyes were swollen shut. I missed almost a week of work and then cried all the way to work, cried at work, and cried all the way home and after I got home for the next week.

I wondered if I would ever get over it. One day about three weeks after I lost her, I realized I had my first day without crying. But, of course, I cried the next day after that. Now two months later, I am doing so much better. But I still love her and will miss her every day of my life.

It is a terrible pain....the most awful pain in the world. But, I can promise you that time will help you heal.

PS: And, like you, I had a lot of guilt.....I promise that time will help with that too.

Just hold on to your heart (and all the other darling little pups you have) and let time go by.

Carol Jean

thank you carol jean....you are so right, its the most awful pain in the world. and my guilt is just un-bearable at times. i've got to be strong for my other babies. they need me and i need them more than ever now. well, i'm off to try to get a couple hours sleep. i took my friends advice and got some pain reliever with a sleep aid in it. i have to get right back up at 6:20 for my daughter to head off to school anyway, and let my yorkies go potty and check on my babies (which by having them right beside my bed as i do at night is also making me more restless because i'm finding myself constantly waking up just to look down at them...,) so it shouldnt be too hard to wake up being that i cant sleep peacefully as it is.... thanks for your kind words.

so sorry to here of your lose my heart goes out to you

Robbie - me again (Carol Jean)

I'm glad you got something to help you sleep - I had trouble sleeping too.

I lost my two cats and the one dog I was telling you about within six months of one another. Then I got the first bird I had ever had in my life, and I was scared to death that something was going to happen to it. I was relieved every morning when I got up and it was still alive.

And three weeks ago, I got my first little Yorkie pup. He isn't real small. I think he is 4 or 5 pounds at three and one-half months. But, nevertheless, he seems very fragile to me (except for the fact that he is hell on wheels), and I'm afraid now that something might happened to him. My own experience with Dutchess, your story, and the many other sad stories on YT continue to remind me of all the things that can happen to our dear little pets.

It just hurts so much to lose them. There is something so unfair about it all.

Remember -- We feel pain because of the happiness that preceded it.

I hope you feel better soon - Keep loving those little puppies to pieces - as I know you will. It is a special blessing that you have your other little mother there.

Carol Jean

Robbie,

Oh, no. OMG. I am so sorry about Rio. What a loss! I am in shock myself. I am here for you. I can't imagine how you must feel, but I can only try to and it makes me feel so sad.

You will definitely be in my thoughts and prayers. Just remember that General Patton is closeby and sends you lots of puppy kisses(he is such a lush with kisses all the time)

Take care,

I am so so sorry.

My thoughts and prayers are with you. :cry:

Robbie ... I am so sorry for your loss. Please know that you and your babies are in our prayers!

Heartfelt hugs
 

Robbie...Bless your heart....I'm so happy you posted here.
You will have so much support and also your sharing something very special with other breeders~
Our Rio was so very special...I fell in love with Rio...way before my Sophie came along~
Huge, Huge hugs my friend.
You stay here..you post often....much love to you and those yorkies~

Robbie, I am so saddened for your pain and your loss. Thank God you have Courtney. Seriously. It would be almost impossible to feed the babies every two hours in your condition. I know that heart wrenching physical and emotional pain you are feeling. I know if feels as though you lost a child or a beloved family member....because you did. You loved her THAT much. How wonderful that YOU were chosen to have her. Your grief will go on for a very long time. However, after a period of time, it will start to lessen .... when this starts to happen, please don't fight it and feel guilty that it is starting to lessen. Hug and kiss your other Yorkies, you will see in their eyes how much they care. It will make you cry even more, but trust me, one of them will do something to make you smile or laugh even as tears stream down your face. It is so awsome that the babies will live. You are not to blame....it did sound like everything was perfect. I am sure that you are the ONLY one blaming yourself....PLEASE stop. When we love something and then it is gone, we always tend to try to find a reason to blame ourselves. Accept that this isn't your fault. I will pray that each new day eases your pain more and more.

I'm so so sorry to hear about your Rio ....I've always known I could never breed for the fear of losing mine and my heart goes out to you - You will smile again one day when you think of your best friend..... but it's going to take a long time ....Bless your heart - I feel your pain in every word you posted....

I hope the babies are going to be ok - they are a precious precious gift from their mom to you and she layed down her life to give them to you .....What a tragedy and I'm so very sorry about your loss....Hugs to you and Rest in Peace Precious Rio....

so sorry.....