I feel like I'm coming apart here..
 

I just need advice and this is the only place I could think of.

Yesterday I was working and saw my coworker. He asked how I was doing and we started talking. I mentioned Lexi and I started crying AT WORK. I couldn't believe it. He felt bad, hugged me, and quickly changed the subject. He told me "When you love a dog, it becomes a person so of course it's going to hurt".

I really miss my Lexi. My boyfriend does too but I don't want to talk about it to him. I know he's hurting and I don't want to salt any wounds. Since losing her, I am constantly looking up Yorkies.. Reading about puppy mills, breeder's sites, Reviews on breeder's sites, AKC site, and breeders around Chicago.. I noticed people walking their yorkies now. I even calculated how much money per month I have to save to maybe get a male yorkie (no one will replace the girl she was). There's a hole in my heart and I feel so lost on how to fill it..

I guess what I'm trying to say is am I being a little "crazy" here? Should I try to occupy myself with things so I don't think about her as much as I do? Should I even be looking at other potential yorkies even though I've no money to get him? Is this helping me or hurting me? ~sigh~ Sorry.. Like the title, I really don't feel like myself..

I am very sorry for the loss of you little boy. The best advice I can give is be willing to talk about him (even with you bf)
I lost my DH 7 years ago and I remarried 1 year ago. My first husband and father to my 3 oldest children is a open topic in our home. Time helps heal but we never forget and should not try to IMO.
We can not dwell on the past (never forget it) but we must live for the future.

There is no right answer. Some people need time, others heal faster by opening their homes and hearts right away to another pet.

Have you considered rescuing a Yorkie that needs a home?

Awww, I am so sorry for your loss. I think the feelings you are going through are perfectly normal. I know you described perfectly well what I too felt when I experienced the loss of my little Maui. When it is time, and you are ready for another you will know it. If you are crazy for feeling this way, you are in good company with me! Hugs to you!!

She was the first dog I ever got to really meet and take care of. I think about her so much.. :( I just want to know if the stuff I'm doing now is helping or hurting me..

I've considered rescuing one but it's hard to find one in Chicago.. Plus I am so afraid if his/her vet bills are out of my range money-wise. I don't want to put her/him through more trouble.. :(

The only thing I talked about to my boyfriend was maybe getting a puppy when we start living together. You know, so it'll give us both some time and we can both be there for him.

I am so sorry for your loss. Since you are considering another yorkie, have you seen this post for a male needing to be rehomed?

http://www.yorkietalk.com/forums/yor...ie-bailey.html

Many people heal with another pet :)

Of course you will never forget your baby but it does help tremendously.

Good luck on your search!!

I'm afraid a thousand dollars is too much for me.. :( Plus I live so far away from him.

[QUOTE=Maximo;3144922]There is no right answer. Some people need time, others heal faster by opening their homes and hearts right away to another pet.

I agree.

When I lost Isabel (she has been gone for 13 months) I was completely lost. I had a hard time deciding whether or not to get another yorkie, because I knew i could never replace her. I brought Addyson home 3 months later and it was the best decision for me. Althought you can never replace another... the new one helped to fill the giant hole in my heart. I still pray everyday that a miracle will happen and Isabel will come home.

[quote=Jilleen;3144943]My brother's girlfriend suggested getting another.. She said when her pug was missing, she was prepared to get another. Her pug came back. For me, I feel bad.. Like it's wrong.. Maybe I should wait a little longer? Until me and my boyfriend are really ready? I want this to be mutual for me and my boyfriend. I want him to be ready too. I feel so conflicted.. I THINK I'm ready.. but maybe my boyfriend isn't.

[quote=nikkipoop;3144945]After he sees that cute lil' face he won't be able to say no. A good boyfriend thinks about you first.

I am so very sorry for your loss. Sending healing hugs and prayers your way. People grieve in different ways, some need to fill the hole immediately, others like me took a long time to heal enough to even think about getting another yorkie. I do suggest that you open up and talk with your bf about the loss -- if you posted the circumstance surrounding the loss, I missed it. You are 100% right, you will never ever be able to replace your little Lexi, but another bit of fluff-love and puppy kisses will help you to laugh and laughter will help heal the hole in your heart.

again.... :hug: and :hands: headed your way

[quote=TwoforFun;3144947]Believe me, Jon (bf) is the sweetest man in the world.. :love: But he's had Lexi for 8 years, I only had the opportunity of being with her for close to 2 years.. That's why I'm afraid he might not be ready to open his heart to another yorkie.. I would never want to rush Jon into something.


CONFLICTED!! :confused: :confused: :confused:

[quote=nikkipoop;3144958]I didn't know the story I'm sorry.
Well it was mainly his dog even if you were attach to her. Now it's time for you to get your dog and for him to get attach to him. I'm just typing away right now, lol.
On a serious note, I wouln't rush just browse around shelters. You will eventually meet up with your next pal even if it's not right now. If your not financially stable and want to close a gap why not volunteer at a shelter. Just to keep yourself occupied. Just ideas.