Sophie passed away..
 

Today is the worst day of my life. My beautiful sweet angel has died. I feel lost and incomplete. It really feels like a nightmare and like this is all not real. I woke up, Sophie was sleeping in the bed with me. My mom was in her room sleeping but my grandma came. She woke me up and the dogs so i put the dogs down and they all ran to the living room. I was in the room still. Then my granma and mom were eating in the LR and i remember hearing the dogs in there walking around. Afterwards i was in the bathroom getting ready when i heard a squeel or whine. I immediately looked for all 3 dogs and saw Sophie was the one whining. She looked paniced and was walking around and looking disoriented. I immediately thought she was choking on something and started to panic. I was screaming, while my mom took her to see whats wrong but didnt succeed. I then just grabbed her and ran to get a taxi to the nearest vet. I really wanted to go to a better emergency vet but i went to this one near me cause of the state Sophie was in. Her gums and tongue were blue. She was limp and couldnt even stand up. I thought maybe some food dropped and she got some and ate it too fast. On the way there i was screaming cause the taxi couldnt go fast enough. I just wanted her to get better. The vet took her immedietly and after a while came out with the bad news. I am so devastated, my bf and i. We feel empty. She was the baby of the house, always happy and cheerful. She always made me smile. We asked to see her and took her body because we want to get her cremated and keep the ashes. Does anyone know where in NY i can get this done? I called the humane society and they said it's $25 to cremate but for the ashes it's a couple hundred. why is that? They are not even open now so idk what to do. She is here wrapped in a blanket and we let Teddy and London smell her to say goodbye. They seem confused though. They are pacing back and forth and London is barking at where her body is at. That was her wrestle mate. :( And the crazy thing is the other day, about 3 days ago i had a nightmare about Sophie. This is what makes the situation even worse. In my dream she has fallen out the window and i hoped and hoped she survived but when i looked down all i saw was a pool of blood. What does this symbolize? I've had nightmares of them before so i tried to let it go. I was even going to post about it here cause i was so scared about it but i didn't. So when we were in the waiting room i just knew cause of that dream the news wasn't going to be good. I'm seriously so lost, i lost my little baby, my angel. :cry:She was so precious to me..she was perfect this morning. I'm so confused and feel empty inside. I never thought i would lose any of them so early She was only 2. There's just no words to describe this feeling. That i will never be able to hold her again or see her run in circles in the grass like she does or lick my nose, or scratch my leg for me to pick her up. omg im just completely losing it. I want her back, i wasn't ready..:cry::cry::cry:

Oh my gosh, words can't even describe... I feel awful. I'm so so so incredibly sorry for your loss. I know words can't even help right now but I'm just sending my deepest condolences. No idea what happened?

I am so, so sorry.. there just are no words.. my heart breaks for you.

Ohhhhhhhh
 

I know this will mean very little to you, but I am soo soo soo devistated by your news. I pray that somehow, someway, the good Lord will comfort you. My deepest and most sincere sympathy to you and your family:(

Oh...my heart hurts for you. I am so sorry...

I am so very sorry. What a terrible tragedy. Do you have any idea what happened?

Sending :hug: and :hands: .

Oh Sarah.....I am so sorry! Please know that you are in my thoughts and prayers. RIP sweet baby Sophie. :hands::hands: HUGS.

I'm so sorry to hear about Sophie. Did they vet tell you what happened to her??

:cry8: I am so sorry..................

I'm very sorry.

Sending my most sincere prayers your way
 

Sweetie I am literally in tears right now from reading your post. I know how much you loved beautiful little Sophie and I know that you were a wonderful mother to her. And I know that Sophie felt loved and cherished during her entire life. I am just so very very very sorry for your lost. I just want to hug you through the computer screen. I am :hands: that the Lord send you and your entire family (and your other little babies) comfort during this time.

I'm sooo sorry!! I, too, am curious to know if they told you why she died??

:( OMG!! I am so so sorry to hear about your sweet baby Sophie! How awful and tragic! RIP sweet lil angel....

OMG! What a sad story!! i can't imagine the pain!! I am so sorry!!! :cry:
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I am soo very sorry for your loss!

I'm so sorry to hear about Sophie my thoughts and prayers are with you xo

Here is a link for pet crematoriums in New York hope it helps ...... we had our Rocky cremated in Feb. and it was quite pricey..... but he's home where he belongs.

Pet Cremation Service & Pet Crematories Directory

I am so very sorry.

I am just so sorry to hear this terrible news. Words seem so empty at a time like this. Just know that everyone here sympathizes deeply. This is something that we all fear happening. I pray that you and your family find strength to get through this terrible nightmare.

Oh gosh , I'm just so so sorry and am in tears reading this. My heart so breaks for you. I just can not imagine. I just don't know what to say :( Did the Vet ever say what happened? You will be in my thoughts..please take care.

So very sorry for your loss:cry:

Oh my gosh I am so sorry!!! You all will be in our prayers!!

I'm so sorry to hear of your loss. They mean so much to us and are such a part of our lives that our hearts are torn apart when we lose them.

Oh my.......life is just so unfair sometimes. I am so sorry and wish I could take your hurt away. But only time will slowly help them to subside.

RIP, sweeet Sophie.

i am so sorry to hear this and my heart hurt reading your story :(

RIP sweet sophie and i will ask that my gino look for you at the rainbow bridge :(

OMG Sarah NO!!!! :cry: Not sweet Sophie! OMG, I am just in a state of total and complete shock right now...I cannot believe that this has even happened. Girl, I am soooo sorry....I honestly cannot even find the words right now...I am just SO shocked :cry: I hate to even ask you this now, because of the state you're in, but I am just so confused....do you know what happened to her?? Or are you just completely clueless? :cry: It sounds like whatever it was must have happened so quickly....my God, this just BREAKS my heart :cry: I am so so so so SORRY Sarah....I wish I could take this pain away from you and I wish that there was some way to bring sweet Sophie back :cry: I know this is killing you inside right now....:cry: Please know that I am here anytime you need to talk girl. I love you...and I am sooo sooo sorry :cry:

R.I.P. Sweet angel Sophie....we love you, and we will never ever forget you baby girl :cry: :rbyorkie:

I'm so sorry for your loss. My heart and condolences go out to you and your family.

i'm so sorry hun. i know how much you loved Sophie. She was such a little cutie and bought you and your family so much happiness. She will be dearly missed. i know what you mean when you say you weren't ready. after reading that last line it brought tears to my eyes because it made me remember losing Mylie. its so hard to lose any pet but losing one so young for no apparent reason is the worst.

here is a link to Abbey Glen Abbey Glen Pet Memorial, Cremation and Burial Services Throughout New Jersey, New York and Pennsylvania - NJ, NY & PA this is the cremation place that all the vets in jersey that i worked for used. They did mylie for me and i have a perfect little box with her ashes in it. Unfortunately i do not know how much they typically cost.

Oh, no! My heart just breaks for you. I am so sorry..............

I am so sorry for your loss . You are in my thoughts .