My mom passed away... I made a post a few months ago asking for prayers for my mom who was fighting ovarian cancer. Things got bad really fast and my family was called in today and she passed within 6 hours of us being there. She apparently wasn't in any pain (I have my doubts, the noises she was making were scary) and it was definitely her time. The cancer had spread to her bowels and the chemo wasn't working anymore for her... This is the hardest thing I have ever had to do...I have never seen a body after it was dead or heard the noises they can make during...I think I am actually traumatized. I keep picturing her lying there and it keeps hitting me that she is never coming back and I will never be able to sit around and laugh with her again. She was my best friend - the person that I called first when something good or bad happened to me, I keep wishing I would just wake up and this is just a bad dream.. But it isn't and we have to go to the funeral home in the morning...I can't do this and my husband keeps telling me I will get through this, but right now I feel like I am never going to be able to handle this. I just want her back, I miss her so much already. |
I'm so sorry for your tragic loss. Prayers for you and your family. |
I'm so, so sorry for your loss. I know your Mom wouldn't want you to be overwhelmed by the tragedy. Sending strength. |
I am so sorry for your loss. Losing ones Mother is one of the hardest things to go through in life. Hugs |
I am so very sorry for your loss. There is no love like that between a daughter and her mother. I know how lost and sad you must feel. She will always be in your heart and you will always hear her words of love and advice when you need it most. May she rest in peace. |
Please, please don't focus on the scary, disturbing things..she wouldn't want you to remember her that way...please stay strong for your mama, and for your family, and yourself, remember good things and try to focus on small tasks even if it seems like an insult to her memory. Don't cry because she's gone...smile because she lived. |
Sending Prayers your way, and gentle hugs, so sorry your mom passed, my deepest condolences.. hugs, |
I am so sorry for your loss:( I can only imagine the depth of your grief. I will keep you in my prayers. |
Oh honey, I am so sorry for your loss. I know it is really really hard right now. But you will get through it and you will always have the love of your mom with you forever. I don't know what your beliefs are but I have always managed to deal with it by knowing that they are in a better place. Prayer to you for strength. Hugs. :hug: |
So very sorry to hear of your loss. Our thoughts and prayers will be with you. |
I am so very sorry for the loss of your Mom. I know what you are going through. I lost my Mom to cancer 19 years ago. Please know you and your family will be in my thoughts and prayers. Sending you gentle hug's. |
I'm so very sorry for the loss of your dear mother. Sending prayers for strength and comfort in your days ahead. Bless you and your family. |
I am so sorry for your loss. The pain you feel can't be described. I lost my dad 3 years ago, and I miss him so much. I will be praying for you and your family, praying for comfort, peace, and strength. When you go to the funeral home, keep in your mind that you and your family can celebrate your mom's life and share your love for her. This is such a hard time for you, so very sorry for your loss. Praying, Jan |
You are in my prayers. You will have wonderful memories of your mom. Remember her when she was alive and healthy. I lost my mom to ovarian cancer when I was 5, I cherish the few memories I still have of her. Your family and friends will help you with your grief. Surround your self with others that loved her also. |
Thanks everyone. I am so lost right now, but I know this is what was best for her...she was in so much pain and hadn't been able to eat real food since before Christmas. My husband has taken the week off of work to be with me so that I don't have to drive to the funeral home/my dad's house on my own this week. It just doesn't feel real yet. My phone will ring and my stomach will jump like it used to when my mom was in the hospital because I was always afraid of getting the phone call I got this morning. Now that it has happened, the phone rings and I panic, then remember it has already happened and then just break down again. I told my husband that for the last few months I was constantly worried about my mom, was always worried about the what ifs? and getting frustrated when she wasn't getting better...and as much as I hated that worry, I almost wish I could worry. I feel guilty for all of the times I got frustrated and questioned if she really felt as bad as she did...I know I can't go back and change anything, I just feel horrible that I used to complain about having to go there all the time and watch the dogs when a nurse came over. I feel guilty that the last night she was at the house (beginning of January) I left early because I wanted to go home and sleep (I hadn't slept all night) and she was really tired and was going to go to sleep. I really hope that she never thought for once I didn't care about her...I quit my job a year ago to take care of her and her last night at the house, I left early because I was tired and my dad came home. My husband keeps telling me I shouldn't feel guilty because I spent so much time with her that me leaving that night wasn't something that she would hold against me, I went and saw her as often as I could when she was in the hospital. I just feel so guilty about it and I just want one more day with her. Sorry for the rambling, I am alone with my thoughts right now and my mind is racing. |
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