Just relit our candles. Praying for Cookie to come home!

we relit our candle

I lit a candle. I pray Gen's little boy follows the lights home x

Don't forget to re-light your candle for Cookie

Just relit.

Thank you all, I will be relighting a few candles from his furbrothers and sisters and us.
I dont know what God has planned for this. If he comes home before Christmas, you guys can only imagine how my house will be that day.If I get a call a year from now...I will still rush there in a heartbeat. I have been calmer and have been able to sleep now. I still feel a buildup of tears and then they go away. I think what gets me by is the thought that he is on a trip and I just dont know when he is due to return so its like I'm waiting.
At this moment I cant think that this is final. I wanted to be able to be with him until he took his last breath and even then I'm sure it would hurt like crazy. Writing this hurts so bad that I'm just crying my eyes out right now.
My prayer is that whoever has him will love him as much as I do. It's difficult to imagine anyone else loving your baby as much as you do.

Today the Christmas tree box is opened and on the floor. We will decorate it.
I dont know for the life of me what I should do with his Christmas Stocking. I have stockings for all our furbabies. I cant hang his up, its just the sight of it that will make me cry. For now all the furbabies stockings will stay in a box.
I havent had a breakdown like I am right now and I need to let it out.

Thank you all for the prayers and keeping us in your thoughts.


(((hugs))) to all your babies and your families


Gen

Gen, I don't know if this is a good idea or not, but when I read you post, I was thinking what if you hung the guys stockings but put Cookies down under theirs with his hook along with the others, representing "fallen but not forgotton". This way when Cookie comes home, you guys can then hang his stocking as his journey was completed. This has to be a hard decission at this time of the year, how to remember him but be able to live with the memory. I am so sorry you guys are going through this. Love sent your way, Sharon, Joey,Cabella and the six puppies.

We just lit 9 candles for you. Hopefully it will help you get through the decorating.

thanks for the reminders and keeping this on the first page. Keep them coming-every time I see a reminder I lite another-I think I have 3 going right now:D

We'll keep trying to find him Gen.

Just relit we keep praying for Cookie's safe return. God please bring cookie home

You know after all day thinking why did I breakdown so bad today?
I told my husband as we put the tree up today. I told him this felt like a punishment for me to put this tree up. But I know he was right that we need to put the tree up.
I just came back here to look for my post here. I posted at 2 pm today.
That was about the same time that I noticed Cookie was missing 4 Sundays ago :cry: So I guess even though I feel like I have made a huge improvement, I know I'm not there yet.

Gen

I lit another one. I can't believe that this much collective energy won't bring results. Stay strong.

relit a candle for remy and myself.still praying for his return
Eileen

We have 39 candle lit. Can we do some more?