I sat down to read your posts and am so sorry for your lost of your little furbaby.. I will keep you and your family in my prayers....God Bless..

Gina

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I am so sorry for your loss!! She was a lucky girl to have you!!!! My thoughts are with you.

Im so sorry to hear about your little girl, my heart goes out to you and your family!. god bless

I am soo sorry for your loss, how sad you must feel ! The only comfort you can feel , that where she is there is no pain ! hugs

I just read this entire thread and my heart is breaking for you losing your precious baby. As I read, I was expecting to find an explanation to what was wrong and then saw that you had lost her. I feel so sad for you and your family. I just wish there was something I could say to make you feel better. Just know that we all care and grieve with you. Hugs to you!

I wanted to thank you all again for your kind thoughts and all of the prayers, it really means the world to all of us. The incredible guilt felt right now, that I didn't do enough to help her, really is eating away at me. We just lost my granddad 2 months ago and she was such a bright light in getting us through all of that. She was an angel, truly, from beginning to end.

Our regular vet, who is Kelli's normal Dr, will be returning from Vacation on Monday and she wants to see Kelli's xrays from the EVH...so I'll post again if anything further is learned from them.

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Carrie....I am so sorry for your loss. But please do not feel guilty. I think you did everything you could for Kelli. I did go back and read some other posts about Kelli. I "think" Kelli may have been in conjestive heart failure when you adopted her...from her age and some of the symptoms you described. I think you gave her a wonderful and peaceful last few months......so please take comfort in that.....Please! Do not feel guilty for loving Kelli and giving her such a wonderful home her last few months. We find this is the case many times with adopted seniors.....they come with baggage....sometimes mental and sometimes real health issues.....our best hope is to make them comfortable and give them peace.....and that's exactly what you did for Kelli. I hope this helps you Carrie.
Go in peace Kelli.....with lots of love from your earth mommy....Carrie.
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I'm so sorry you lost your baby..sounds like you did everything you could and you are in my thoughts....Sherry

My thoughts and prayers are with you. I am so sorry for your loss.
Joy

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Our family is grieving with you. It is amazing how they touch our lives in such a short period of time.

you are such a sweet and compassionate person to help carrie not to feel guilty! Im sorry sometimes it is so hard for me to read all the details as they do upset me and I should have seen those feelings of guilt like you did. I too have a senior yorkie (since 8 weeks old) and she has cushings and I know it is just a matter of time when I will loose her, so when I read about these poor babies it really breaks my heart! Carrie again Im so sorry for your loss. :unlove:

I thank you so much for saying this. And what's really eye opening, is yesterday the Dr that treated Kelli at the EVH gave us the same reasoning...congestive heart failure is what he believes Kelli was going through. We took the xrays up to our regular vet and she'll hopefully review them first thing tomorrow morning when she returns from vacation.

All we wanted to do for Kel was to make her last few months as peaceful as possible, she deserved that after all she'd been through in previous homes...she deserved to be able to run and play, and have a good time, and she did. She got to go to grandma and grandpa's, and run all over there like she was the Queen there, too, lol. She just loved everyone and everything, and I'm happy that we could give that to her.

I miss her incredibly, but I know she's safer and even happier now...

Thank you all so much for your kind words, it's hard to believe she's been gone a couple days now...I can still hear her all over this house, her little feet clicking on the floor, her tags jingling (I'd started to call her jingle bells), her sweet little bark. She definitely was heaven sent.

It definately sounds like you did everything possible to help her, still I know it is hard not to feel guilt. Kelli felt the love you gave her before she passed. I am sure she was grateful for that after all she had been through in previous homes. So you can feel comfort in knowing that you gave her the best love and attention she felt in her whole little life. It just breaks my heart to read this post. I lost my 12 year old poodle in a similar way on December 22, 2001 and it was so hard right there at Christmas, so I understand your feelings. I just believe she was sent to you like you said because she was such a bright light to help get you through your ganddad's passing. Everything happens for a reason, she was your little Angel and touched your life in such a profound way. God bless you.

This whole story is so heartbreaking.

I do want to say thought that the vets probably did what was right.
You mentioned that she seemed uncomfortable - so, the vet probably gave her the pain medication to make her more comfortable ---even though he couldn't find out what might be causing any pain. Anal glands can be very painful, and if he found hers to be enlarged, he hoped that taking care of this would make her more comfortable also.

Dogs sometimes don't tolerate some medications well. I can't tolerate antibiotics or pain pills myself - they make me nauseated and I get sick to my stomach. But, sometimes I still have to take them.

I really don't know what else you could have done. You were very very concerned. You took her to different vets. You were on line frantically trying to help and some answers.

I think that what caused her to pass away was something that couldn't be treated. It would have happened with or without the care you gave her. And, the care you did give her and the love you gave her did make her more comfortable.

You shouldn't feel guilty. And, in time you won't. You are just so heartbroken and miss her so much right now that you want to blame someone, even if it's yourself. But no one is to blame. Heart failure and blood clots are serious problems. (I work in Cardiology - I am very familiar with both of these conditions.)

Blood clots ----- I know two dogs that died from blood clots. Both were seemingly perfectly well one minute (one had had surgery the day before), and gone the next minute.

Heart failure ---- is a terminal disease. It is not curable. Patient's can be treated and kept going for some time, but they do eventually die from it.

I think you did more for your little puppy than many people would have done.
I don't know what more you could have done.

You deserve love and hugs and a lot of respect.

Carol Jean

When I got to your post that Kelli was gone I almost fell on the floor. I'm so sorry for your loss. My thoughts and prayers are with you and your family. May Kelli rest in Peace

I am so sorry for your loss. Poor little Kelli. But she was a lucky girl to have you~ You sound like a wonderful person and did everything you could. She knew how much she was loved. Hugs to you... Keep your head up I know it is tough but remember the happy times. You will catch yourself smiling at times and then other times crying but I am sure she left a lot of fun and happy memories for you to keep forever.
You and your family are in our thoughts and prayers.
Melissa

Thank you all so, so much...I can't believe the amount of comfort I've found here. It's helped me more than I could put into words.

Kelli's regular vet, the one we just LOVE, called tonight. She was so, so sad and that broke my heart even more. She just adored Kelli. :( Kelli would go in and give her kisses (one thing that Kelli loved to do, was kiss toes, lol! If you had your toes out of your shoe or you were barefoot, and she liked/knew you, she was kissing 'em! -- one time, her vet had a broken foot and was in a cast...toes sticking out, the minute that Kelli got into the room she went right for her foot and gave her a quick kiss...we called it a drive by, lol) and she never once snapped at her.

She looked over Kelli's xrays, and she agrees with what the EVH Dr's found. Enlarged heart and enlarged liver. The Dr. called it arrhythmia...something, it was a long name. I don't mean to sound silly about it, but I honestly was crying just hearing how sad she was and I could barely understand. She said there was no fluid around the heart at all, and that is why she was sent home. Because sometimes these situations do clear up on their own. But, she also said that we did everything we could, and these things come on very quickly and there's really nothing that can be done. She was a little disturbed that we were not told until AFTER Kelli passed that she had an enlarged heart and liver (the EVH Dr. didn't tell us when we picked Kelli up, only after she'd already died), she said he could have been more honest with us about the xrays...but she made it a point that we did everything we could.

It still hurts alot, we miss her so much. But, I know she's pain free now and she's happy with all of her new furry friends, and she's seeing Grandpa again. And that makes missing her a little easier. Thank you guys, one more time, for helping me and my family so much through this.

Im so sorry to hear about your baby.

Your life was so much richer because God sent you a wonderful creature known as Kelli and the two of you made an awesome team. The love shared between the two of you is beyond description. We know you did all that any human could for her and now you must go on. Take baby steps at first til you are on solid ground. Then, along will come the right match for you again. But, healing from a loss and grieving for a loss needs to be worked thru. We are here for you when you need us..

So very very sorry
 

I feel so trerrible for you and your family. The best you can do in a time like this is remember the good things and the warm feeling she gave you.

So very sorry to read your story
 

I was so saddened to read your story about Kelli. She was a special dog and very lucky to have you and your family in her life. I understand your loss and grief... Yorkies have a way of filling your life and heart with so much love and when they are gone there is such a big void. I hope that the time that has passed has eased your pain.I apologize for such an untimely response but I just read your posts.

So sorry
 

I'm so sorry you lost your little baby. I had to have my doggie, Minnie, put down on Thanksgiving day. I know how you're feeling. Please know you are surrounded by people who will be here for you no matter what.

OMG! I just came back to this thread! What a complete shock! I'm so sorry about Kelly. You are in my thoughts and prayers.

shaking, hiding, etc.
 

I am sorry for what you and your baby are going thru. Please let me know how things are going? Just wanted you to know you are not alone with a few symptoms you described.
My baby has been shaking(off and on), walking/running low to the floor with tail down, and head pressing. he too eats off and on, but is constantly sniffing rear like he needs his anal glands emptied. But, we just had them emptyied 2 wks ago, thinking that is what was bothering him. He has never had difficulty walking or vomiting, though. He has seemed to feel better when he poops, but then few minutes later the symptoms begin again. They have suspected a liver shunt, but we are not having exploratory surgery to confirm this diagnosis. Usually he is sympton-free. You may want to research "Liver shunts" some are operable. Just thought I would give you alittle feedback regarding SOME of the same symptoms. Usually liver enzymes would be elevated on bloodwork b/c liver enzymes kind of become toxic in blood due to not being filtered from liver properly. I pray your baby is feeling better, but more over, I pray you find a Diagnosis!!!! Please keep us informed. God Bless you and your baby!

Hey guys...just checking in and wanted to say thank you again for all of your kind thoughts. It's been a week, and I still can't believe she's gone. I have my moments of tears and just absolute depression. Trying not to let it overtake me, but it's hard. We're sitting for my grandparents dog this winter, so that's helping some...but Spanky was Kelli's buddy, she loved playing with him and when we brought him to the house he just kept running from room to room, I guess looking for her. That was hard to watch. :( I\'m just afraid that I\'ll never feel happy again...she was the happy in this house. Plus, I bought new Christmas stockings for the pets and cried because I felt like I was leaving her out of everything. I almost got her one anyway...but really thought it\'d be too hard to hang it and see it every day without her here.

sherry, I thank you for your sweet words, unfortunately we lost Kelli on November 25th, just a couple days after she got sick. :( I hope that your baby gets better soon, I\'ll be thinking of you and your family.

A year later
 

I just read this thread about your loss of Kelli last year and had to go check out your other posts to see if you had gotten another pup.

I hope all is going well for you and your new baby. I pray that the pain is gone over your loss of Kelli and replaced with many sweet memories.

I know it must have been terrible for you but you did such a good thing by giving her such loving care in her last months.

im so sorry for your loss:( ive only just seen this post and as i was reading though it i thought it sounded like her heart. my sasha was a happy healthy dog one day and then the next we noticed she was breathing heavy so we took her to the vet, he listened to her heart and said it was fine but to leave her with him for a few hours as she was wobbley. we picked her up and he said an xray had showed a enlarged heart and gave her meds. he didnt explan anything, it was only that i looked on the internet and saw that it ment she had heart failure. one week later she had a heart attack and died but i gave her mouth to mouth and got her back so she then had different meds and then a week later she had another heart attack but this time i dicided not to give her mouth to mouth and to let her go as the vet had said they could do no more for her and when she had the heart attacks she was in so much pain, i thought she had taken her last breath but she started breathing again so i took her to the vets where she was pts in my arms:( trust me your baby wasnt in pain as if it went to her brain she would of just gone to sleep and she wouldnt of suffered. im so sorry you have lost your little girl:( but i understand you now have a new baby and i hope you have many happy years together.