I am so sorry. I've been there. It is so gut wrenchingly hard.

Bless your heart...I was in your position last year with my 14 year old yorkie..It broke my heart...but I knew I was doing the right thing for her..you will feel some guilt..I know I did...but you will also feel relief..she will be sleeping and be in no more pain or discomfort.
I got my Pixie 4 months later and she brought the sunshine back into my life again...Heidi will alway be special to me as she was my first yorkie and I was still a teenager when I got her (i'm now in my 30's) maybe in time you will be ready and able to love and care for another...we will all be here for you...we UNDERSTAND!!! Most of us have been there at some point...please feel free to PM me anytime...warm regards & big hugs to you right now. Kerry.

I have checked back since you originally came here about your Mackenzie. You and your precious baby have been on my mine and I was hoping you would keep us updated. Please know that you have found awesome people here at YT and we will all be there for you when you decide to make the final decision out of your love for Mackenzie.

If you would like to PM me as well, I would be more than willing to support you in any way I can.

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We are all here and praying for you and Mckenzie! This must be so hard for you, I can't imagine!!

Hugs and kisses coming your way, and ofcourse prayers too:hands::hands::hands::hands::hands:

I'm so sorry you have to make this decision
 

I have a poem that help me durning a hard time I went through recently. It was so touching... I research who the Author was, so that I could learn as to why it was written. I wanted to share with you, and I hope it helps you with this very hard decision you must make for your baby, Mackenzie.

My :hands: prayers :hands: with be with you, and Mackenzie! ((Hugs)) Diana


The Greatest Gift

I always knew this time would come,
From the very instant our eyes first met.
How I loved you then! How I love you now!
I made a promise then, and I keep that promise now...
You will not suffer from a pain that will not heal;
You will not know the loss of a life remembered, now gone.

It is for me alone to make this decision,
The price for the bright joy and pure laughter
You brought me during the time we shared.
I am the only one who can decide when it is time.
When my hope dies, and my fears ride high,
Just when I need you most, I must let you go.

It is for you alone to tell me when you are ready
For without your guidance, I will not know
When to lay my grief, my guilt, my anger,
My sorrow and my selfish heart aside
And give you this last gift, this greatest gift.
Your eyes will speak to mine, and I will know.

The pain of this moment is excruciating.
Tears stream down my face in a river of sorrow.
And my heart drowns in a pool of grief.
For you have spoken and I have listened,
And unlike other decisions I have made
This one brings no relief...no comfort...no peace.

For if there's one thing you've taught me,
If there's only one thing I've learned...
Unconditional love has a condition after all,
I must be willing to let you go, when you speak to me
I must be willing to help you go, if you cannot go alone.
And I must accept my pain so you can be free of yours.

Go easily now, go quickly now,
Do not linger here, it is time for you to leave.
Go find your strength, go find your youth.
Go find the ones who've gone before you.
You are free to leave me now, free to let your spirit soar
Rest easy now, your pain will soon be gone.

I pray I will find comfort in my memories...
In the dark and lonely days ahead,
I cannot say I will not miss you, I cannot say I will not cry.
For only my tears can heal my broken heart.
But, I promise you this: as long as I live,
You will live, alive in my mind, forever in my heart.

So I give you this last gift, all I have left to give,
And this will be my greatest gift...sending you away.
It is the measure of my unconditional love...
For only the greatest love can say,
"Good-bye, go find the bridge, we'll meet again,
Loving you has been the greatest gift of all."


Author: Karla Bertram
Written for "Tiara" (a Standard Poodle) in 1994
and for "Topaz", a wonderful cat who died in 1996

thank you for all of your sweet messages. the poem was beautiful and very fitting. i just put mackenzie down this morning, it was heart wrenching but i know that i did the right thing. it's one of the most difficult things i've ever gone through so i'm going to take the rest of the summer to recover. thank you again for your words and advice, without them i probably would not have made the decision i made and mackenzie would have continued to suffer.

So sorry. Hugs from Zoeybear and Baby Chloe.

Sixteen sounds like a nice long life for a yorkie.

I know you are heartbroken. The most loving decision is also the most difficult. When we accept the love and companisonship of a pet...it also means..mostly likely we have to accept the eventual heartbreak too.

Mackenzie knows she was loved very much.

Take care ~

I'm so sorry you had to go through this. I really wish they could live longer but that said you had your baby for a long time in dogs years. I'm sure you'll miss her dearly.

Very well put.

We are here if you need a friend

Perhaps when you are able to do it, you could make a scrapbook for all of your wonderful memories - if you haven't done so already. I'm really sorry for what you're feeling. I went through it with Muffin three years ago. Oh! I still cry!:(

i have nothing to say besides im sorry u went thru this. remember that she is not suffering anymore and take all the time u need to heal. hugs to u

My heart aches for you..I remember the feeling only too well...BIG (((hugs)))

You did the very best you could..Please come back often and let us know how you are..there is a great support group on here if you need us;)

YT'ers Will Always Be Here For You!
 

Your welcome for the Poem (The Greatest Gift) and I know Mackenzie thanks you, for making such a hard decision for her. She is now running and playing with all those, who went before her. Her tummy is always full and her treat container is aways open. There is always cool water in her dish and warm sky's outside (not to hot - not to cold). She will be there waiting on you, for when it is your time to leave this material life. There is no pain, no sorrow, no fighting or sadness. All she feels now, is what a happy and fulfilled life you gave to her. She will always be watching :angelyork over you, no mater where you are. No mater what you are doing. She will always come and visit you in your dreams, and she will always be, pain free.

No mater what time of the day it is, there will always be someone here on YT, :secret: for you to talk to. Once a YT'er always a YT'er! We are all family, throughout all the good and all the bad time we might have. I send you many tight :love-hug1 (((HUGS))) :justahug: to you my dear, as I know you would send them to me... if I needed.

My husband and I wish we could take your pain away and we send our deepest condolences.

Diana & Frank