I really hope you two can fit it. Marriage counseling?

2 days w.o talking to my BF, altough he did call my work today, but when i came to the phone he was talking to someone else, and he didn't call back!!! I tried to cancel the mountain trip, but they will only refund my money if someone reserves my spot!!?? I don't know what I am going to do..

i really dont want to fix it

Mandee God I hate that you are going though this I know it is really hard to deal with on all levels.

Thats not a good attitude. Does he want to fix it?

i don't know. he is more concerned about work. i dont think he really cares.

and honestly, i don't think you can "fix" the problems we have. it's not about our disagreements and stuff like that. we are just 2 different people...way too different.

Its your relationship, you just have to do what you feel like you need to do.

i know. i just never thought i would be in this situation. but since we have been together, i just have never been able to be myself. i really don't even know who i am anymore. and i dont like the person i have become. i really just need to be single.

me, my daughter, and my dogs...that's all i need.

They would love you unconditionally !!

i know. it's amazing!!!!
they are prime examples of true love....they love you through it all...and you love them just the same. you never can love each other too much. and there's nothing in the world you wouldn't do for each other.

the bible says you should love your spouse more than your children. i was SHOCKED when i read that and went to my pastor and asked all kinds of questions about it., but you know...it almost makes sense. your children...they will grow up, have families of their own, their own lives, possibly move away. and who are you left with dealing with day after day after day...until the day one of you die...your spouse.

i don't love my spouse more than my child...or more than my dogs...or more than my friends. i care about him. i love him...but it isn't the kind of love you have for someone you are going to spend the rest of your life with. it is the kind of love you develop because you know the person intimately and you don't want to see anything bad happen.

it's not the kind of love a marriage needs. i don't like him. at all.

i guess i am just glad i realize these things now...before we had kids together, before we looked at 10 years down the drain.

now, i just have to figure out what to do.....

i think i am going to go soak in the tub for a bit. and just try to relax. then go to bed.

I will talk to you ladies tomorrow :)

huggles!!!!!!!!!!

Good evening!! Hi Mandee..

well, that was NOT what I had in mind. I got in the tub and all he could do was beat on the door. i guess the water running was too loud and he couldn't hear the tv??? i kept saying "yes...come in" but he wouldn't. a few minutes later...banging on the door again.

so i just got out...he is in bed now...and i think i am just going to sleep on the couch. me and maggie :) i'm ok with that....it's a nice couch and she is a good cuddle bug :)

Hi :) :wavey: :wavey: