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Alot of you know how I'm dealing with Anxiety Attacks. I have been seeing a counsler and my doctor put me on Paxil but that crap was making me think weird, so he took me off of it and now I'm on Lexapro. I have been on it for about 2 weeks now and not had one attack thank god!

I have only told my husband, close family, counsler and my doctor this. But I think I know why I have these attacks and I really need your guys opinions on this cause it's driving me crazy.

When I was 11 years old, my girlfriend and I was baby sitting and after the kids were in bed, we were playing with a Ouija Board. And stupid me asked it when I was going to die. I swear the thing moved, both my friend and I were freaked out, but it told me 34. This has stuck with me since then. I'm 32 now and I think this is why I'm dealing with anxiety. I dont know what to do, I have such a fear of death, not really of me dying, cause I believe there is something better on the otherside, but my fear is leaving my husband and children. My husband and I have such a strong and loving bond, and I cant even imagine him being with another woman when I die. I hate the thought of my children having to go back to there real dad. So I think I have all this pinned up frustration and I dont know how to deal with it.

When I told my counsler this, she kinda skipped over it and did not address the issue. They are very christian people there, so I dont know if that is why she skipped over this.

I just dont know what to do or how to deal with it, but it's driving me crazy.

I can't believe that your couselor just skipped over it. If it was important enough to you for you to bring it up why wouldn't she take it seriously. christian or not, she isn't getting paid to be a Christian, she is getting paid to counsel.

My suggestion to you, if this is really bothering you, whether it is the reason for your anxiety attacks or not, is to pray for peace of mind about this, and for faith. The serenity pryaer has always been my Rock.

It is simple yet really says it all. I say it over and over until I feel a sort of peaceful feeling or "serenity" just wash over me.

God grant me the serenity
to accept the things I cannot change;
courage to change the things I can;
and wisdom to know the difference.

So sorry you're going through this! I've had this "feeling" that I'm going to die at the age of 37, by being bashed in the head some way or another. I've had this feeling since I was a child. I have 8 more years until I'm in my 37th year, but I imagine that year (and the year before) I will be filled with trepidation. It scares me now to even think about it!!!

If you can get help now for this issue, I highly suggest it. These panic attacks are the most aweful thing I have had to deal with. At times you feel so paralized, and you cant even take a deep breath.

I think we all have irrational thoughts at times. I get weird fears occasionally and to try to get myself out of the funk that can develop I sensationalize the fear. For instance...... if I was worried about dying and the board said 34, I would say, hmmmmm.....maybe that is in the year 2134, oh no I am gonna live to be over 150 years old? What will I look like, a walking prune? Will I still have hair, what about teeth? As that picture forms in my mind, I will likely think less about the dying prediction.
Or maybe it meant I will die while driving 34 MPH in front of 34 Main Street, at 3:40 in the afternoon......
Then I would realize the board does not know anything -- stupid board! It might take more self talk than that because irrational fears are .... well irrational. But you can do it. Keep in mind that the Ouiji board "told" me I was going to have 5 kids and marry my high school sweety -- neither of which came true (Thank You Lord!).

But I would make your counselor take this seriously or find another counselor. If this thought of imminent death is causing the anxiety attacks then the counselor needs to help you deal with it. Any kind of phobia can cause irrational fear. Logic does not always help -- the feeling itself has to be dealt with. Good luck to you!

Just a warning 0n the Lexapro. I use to take it and loved it. My breasts started producing and seeping milk while I was on it. My doctor said that can be a side effect for some women on it and had to take me off of it

A frind of mine was having these and she found out it was the cafine and sugar she stoped taking any thing with it and they stoped. No meds needed. I hope you get better soon.

Gosh, I'm sorry that you are dealing with this:( Your counselor needs to take what you tell them very seriously, and it sounds like this one does not. Maybe cuz you'll get cured then you won't be paying them anymore:laugh:

Ouija boards always cause so much trouble, stupid things! I bet that your friend moved it, we always did that to each other. Any way you can ASK this friend about it?

I know if I eat sugar in the evening, I feel all jittery, so I try my best to not eat any after 6pm, same with caffine.

Her and I have not spoke in so many years. But that is an idea.

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I am glad to hear you are better....your therapist is staring right at the root cause of your panic and can not see it...FEAR! Fear causes stress, stress causes panic.
Don't be ashamed of the fear..all humans have fears...

ONLY God knows the hour of our death..not Satan...He used the Ouija board to scare and deceive you...remember he is the master of deception..the Ouija board is deception not the word of God.

Ask God's Will be done in your life and remember.."Greater is HE that is in YOU, then he (Satan) that is in the world"....Trust God to always do what is in your best interest, because He is going to anyway..it is such freedom to trust God's judgement over mine...I have no clue when I will die, but when I do you better believe HE picked the day and not a Ouija board...

May want to look for another counselor. I can't believe that one just skipped right over this!

If you don't want to look for another one, tell this one again, that you REALLY DO need to talk about this. Your at a point in life where you should be enjoying it, not worrying about death. May take some counseling to get through this. Keep pushing your counselor to discuss it, and if he/she won't, find one that will.

I know when I was young, I kept having the feeling I wouldn't live past 25. Well, I'll be 50 in Feb, lol.

We had an ouija boards when I was young (geez, and I was raised Catholic) and my sister used to move that thingie when we used it. We also did "seonces" (sp) and caught one of the fellows that "said" he was going home hitting on the side of the house when we were trying to bring back the deceased. So I don't have much belief in either.

So glad to hear the Lexapro is working on your Anxiety attacks, thats wonderful news.

I'm sorry that you're going through this. :( I have a similiar story (true story) to share with you. My step-mom actually had this exact thing happen to her. She was playing with a friend of hers on the Ouija board when she was young and asked when she was going to die. The board said 36, so she asked how she was going to die. The board said in a car accident. Her friend completely denied moving it and her and her friend that was playing were so freaked out that they threw the Ouija board away. She's been terrified to drive ever since. In fact, she has only put 6,000 miles on her car in 3 years. My dad drives her around everywhere she needs to go. Well she's now 39 and still healthy with no fatal car accident. I think she is still paranoid about it, but she's definitely not as bad as the whole year when she was 36.

If your therapist just skipped over the issue of the Ouija board giving you an age, I think you need to find another therapist who would be more accepting and willing to discuss this with you. If you still remember that so vividly that you think it's what is causing your attacks - it probably is.

I hope you get it all sorted out so you don't have to worry about it anymore. :( Good luck my dear!

Ohh My.. Thank you so much everyone. I was so scared to share this, but everyone of you are right about it. And I agree, only god knows when are time is up.

I to believe that the Owija board is the devil, and your right, he did just what he wanted to me to make me scared, so far he is winning and I cant let that happen. I WONT LET IT HAPPEN! Thank you so so so much!!!!

I totally agree with her!!!! I know those Ouija boards can be scarey... But Satan Lies....So instead of 34 it was probably 104. Tell your self this. Satan wants you to believe this. I agree pray about it and I'm sure God will give you the comfort you need.

I know we all are afraid of dying at times. I have this anxiety when someone else is driving. I mean sometimes I feel totally overly freaked out like we are going to wreak. I want to be the one in control. When I feel like that I pray and its hard to get over. I tell my hubby I dont mean to do it, I just do. I dont take anything for it, but I hate driving out of town and on vacations. Its really terrible!!!

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You poor thing. I have had panic attacks/anxiety attacks in the past and know they are no fun. I believe we all have fears of how we will die, mine is that I'll drown in an accident (the car will fly off a bridge). Because of this, traveling over water in a car is always rough for me. It seems silly when I tell people this, but I now realize that the only folks who sympathize are the ones who have had an attack or two themselves. I've been able to identify when I feel an attack coming (it's usually when I have some life-changing event i.e. having a baby, moving to a new state, when my mother passed) and have worked hard on some calming techniques and reasoning. Still, it is very difficult when you are head-first into an attack, so I hope you can get these under control and some help.

Your counselor shouldn't skip over this. That is obvious. I think you should bring it up again and force him/her to talk about it. If they are still reluctant to talk about it, find another counselor.

I Have Never Had Panic Attacks Or Anxiety To The Point Of Losing It But While I Was Reading Your Post I Thought Of Many Things Besides Ust 34 Years Old. I Mean Maybe Its Year 2034 Maybe Its 34 Years After You Did The Board, Maybe Its When You Wear A Size 34, You Just Have To Tell Yourself These Things. Alot Of People Say We Are In Control Of Our Own Bodies And We Do It To Ourselves But Let Me Tell You I Have Had Many Things That I Never Wished For And Im Sure A Lot Of Other Yters On Here Can Say The Same, But We Are In Control Of Our Feelings And Thoughts And Sometimes We Need Help Deciphering What Feelings And Thought Make Our Bodies Do Weird Things. And Thats What A Counselor Or Phycologist Or Such Is Trained To Do And She Should Have Helped You With Your Feelings And With Your Thought. She Shouldnt Ave Brought Her Chrisianity Into It. You Are Her Patient And She Needs Her Attention On You And She Needs To Cater To You.

[QUOTE=DENISE517;909193]I totally agree with her!!!! I know those Ouija boards can be scarey... But Satan Lies....So instead of 34 it was probably 104. Tell your self this. Satan wants you to believe this. I agree pray about it and I'm sure God will give you the comfort you need.

I LOVE YOUR EXAMPLE, AND YES SATAN TELLS YOU CRAZY THINGS TO GET INSIDE OF YOUR HEAD, BUT MY HUSBAND ALWAYS SAYS HES NOTHING WHY DO YOU THINK WE WALK ALL OVER HIM EVERYDAY.

My girlfriend had something similar with the Ouijia board saying she would die at a certasin age back when we were like 10. SHe is way past that age, so try and tell yourself that it was just a game. I am glad the meds are helping, I am also on meds for PAnic attacks and it greatly improved my life.

I would definitely tell the therapist about this. Fears can be irrational - but there is usually a basis for them - although that basis can be very false. Talking about it should help you to understand the issues and how to solve them.

My daughter has anxiety attacks and she absolutely has to avoid all caffiene, even when off her meds - she just cannot tolerate it. Her anxiety seems to come and go, but is mostly triggered by stress.

I commend you for getting help and getting this straightened out! Good luck with everything