Sometimes we are given more than we think we can bear, but somehow we stumble through the rough times even though we feel a little battered and bruised in the end. Brenda, my thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Brenda girl....it's now Wednesday - checking in on you - How are you feeling ?

Hi, and thanks again for all the prayers and thoughts- I can't not even begin to explain how bad things are around here, this last death has turned the family upside down (it was a suicide, he was 47) people are refusing to go to the service (his own uncles, aunts, cousins ect) it is terrible.

I have always been the picture taker in the family... well, I have 3 computer with pictures on them, and I can get to them on each computer, but can't print, (I have one newer printer) either because the comp has no cd drive (too old) can't hook them up to cable internet (way before that time) the computer won't realize the printer ect... it is sad.

We had a birth in the family two nights ago (my cousin) and the brother to the one that just passed is expecting his first baby saturday (he is 48) (sat is also the burial)

I appreciate all the kind words, support and thoughts.... with all the deaths this year, this one is so much harder... for one, the way he passed, and because we are morning all the losses with this one it seems.... tomorrow I feel that it will be a very, very hard day for many of us.

Good by to the family I have lost recently... hello to my new little cousin... (he was born a blue baby, but he is doing just fine now, whew).. awaiting the arrival of another cousin.

Thanks again, I will be back to reading and posting next week, we have to make all the arrangements for this funeral, the pictures, the food ect- so we are so busy.... but it is easier that way.

Brenda...Congratulations on the birth of your new little cousin...That must give the family some balance...even in a time or sorrow.... sometimes something good comes up and you just have to celebrate that new life....even while coping with a tragic death.

I hope the rest of the family comes around and will pay their respects...losing someone to suicide should have no bearing on attending his funeral. For someone that young to take their life he must have just felt it was the only way for him.... and to tell you the truth - maybe NOW the family should rally together and give him a nice goodbye....How sad for you. Are you coping ok ? I feel so bad for you - more hugs and hang in there.

ps...wish I could get my hands on your computers - I BET I could get your printer working...maybe I can help off the site somehow - I have had at one time - 3 printers on my computer and was able to get them all working properly....I might be able to step you thru some things via instant chat...

Brenda,
Even though I don't know you, I can certianly feel for you. We just had 2 deaths in our family, 16 hours apart, my grandmother & her oldest son, my uncle. And I can say that was enough I cant even imagine what you are going through.
Our thoughts & prayers are with you, now, go give that new baby a hug & a kiss. Its amazing how a new baby can really help those left behind.
Hugs,
Desiree

Desiree...you also have my condolences...I'm so sorry to hear about your family's loss also...Life sure can be sad...that was so nice of you to write when you're going thru something similar....

I am so sorry for what has been happining to you and your family. I will keep you in thought and prayer.

V, you are one special person. I am so glad to have known you even if it only though the net. I like to think there are poeple out there who really care, and do what they can even if it's kind word. Kind words go a long way for those who are in need of them! I just love this site! It is full of the sweetest and caring people. And I love that I can turn to you all for support and comfort. A big thanks to you all!!!!!!!!!

Your welcome Vilette. Sometimes it helps to hear others are going through the same type of things. Unfortunately we don't have the blessings of new babies in our family. I still remember several years ago when my maternal grandmother passed & her sister was at the funeral and came up to me & questioned me on our upcoming adoption she said "you know for every death there is a birth" only to find out months later that my daughter was born the day before my grandmothers passing.
Those babies were sent to this family, at this time, for a reason. They breathe new life into this grieving family & give them something to rejoice about.
Huggs,
Desiree

Im so sorry for your losses my prayers are with you and your family.

You will be in my thoughts and prayers.

I too am so sorry for your losses. How incredibly tragic that you and your families are going through these very hard trials. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers. May God give you all the strength you need to sustain you over these next coming weeks and months and may your mourning turn into rejoicing.

You have our prayers and wishes for peace and healing.

Brenda, I'm so sorry! Please know that all of us at YT are thinking of you and your family and praying for you.

(((((((Brenda & Family)))))))

You Are In Our Thoughts & Prayers

Brenda 3 years ago there was a suicide in my family,and I cant tell you the utter devestation that my family especially my children went through.Ive had alot of grief in my life but nothing compared to this.It was a terrible terrible time in our lives and god forbid I hope I never ever have to go through this again.My heart really goes out to you and your family.Im so so sorry you are going through this.

My thoughts and prayers go out to you at this very difficult time. I faced a similar situation several years ago and really did not think I would make it thru. But it is true that "What does not kill us makes us stronger". Just take it one day at a time.........there is a light at the end of this darkness, sometimes it just takes a while to get there.

Peace and Love

How terribly sad for all of you. Vilette, it was very kind of you to start this thread. suicides are difficult types of deaths to handle. we went thru this also a few years back so I do know what kind of torment you are going thru. hang in there. You have a lot of prayers and hugs floating around this place.

God will not give you anything that you can't handle. It will be a rough journey, but you will come out a stronger person because of all that you have been going through. I hope that those family members choose to help relieve some of the pain by attending his funeral. Congratulations on the new family members! I will be keeping you and your family in my thoughts and prayers during this bittersweet time.
Sarah

Brenda, my heart goes out to you and your family. I am so sorry you are going through so much right now but please know you have a lot of friends praying for you and sending hugs of comfort and friendship. I will keep you close to heart and in my prayers. We'll be here when you get back for a shoulder to lean on.

God Saw You...
by Unknown

God saw you getting tired,
When a cure was not to be.
So He wrapped his arms around you,
and whispered, "Come to me".
You didn't deserve what you went through,
So He gave you rest.
God's garden must be beautiful,
He only takes the best
And when I saw you sleeping,
So peaceful and free from pain
I could not wish you back
To suffer that again.

I just wanted to let you know that I have been thinking and praying for you today.
Joy

Thank you all very much for the posts- it is sad to know that others have dealt with suicide (this is the second one we have had, the first one was 19yrs ago, when he was 18)...

It was a beautiful service, since his girlfriend was from the Objibua tribe (sorry for the spelling on that) she had some of her tribe come, and a "medicine man" they did a ceremony on the drums, and he explained what every song ment - four songs for the four directions (north, south, east and west) (we are all white, including my uncle who passed, and had no idea- and it was so nice of him to explain) for them they believe that the soul has a 4 day journey, and each time someone cries, they stop and turn around to look- everyone tried hard to stop their tears, but it was too difficult.

Some family did not come, because they feel the family is disgraced... it was their loss, and I will not be able to look at them the same way again.

then we had a pastor do a service, and I loved it because he stated many areas in the bible where biblical (sp) people did wrong, but still went to heaven.... but he also stated "no one can judge (uncle) for what he did, until we have walked in his shoes, we have no way of knowing what he was going through" and went on to say that "his god would never turn away from someone who is in the state of mind a person is when they take their own life" .... " it is the lowest point of dispair a person could be in"

Hopefully the message got through to those who have been so judging and talking so bad about (uncle) that has caused a lot more grief for the family.

I learned a lot about the indian way also, and that whole drum things was so peaceful, and I smiled knowing that at least (uncle) was finding some spirituality before he passed away.

He was going to get an indian name when he got married..... (he is white)

now please don't take any of this post to be about religion, or race... it isn't, the only reason race was brought up was to explain why we didn't know indian ways.... and religion was only brought up, because it was part of the ceremony yesterday..... it isn't to discuss which way is right or wrong, because yesterday, two different ways of life were brought into one, it was beautiful... and what (uncle) would of wanted.

(uncle)- replaces my uncles name that passed, I don't feel right about sharing it for personal reasons.

Sat. is the burial, the ending to this week, plus.. long journey, hopefully people will start to open their eyes and give (uncle) the respect he deserves, and be there for the burial.

I can't thank you all enough for the support and posts, and for sharing difficult things also on this thread.... it does give a person peace to know that people know what you are going through.... thank you all from the bottom of my heart... my family thanks you also.

We're thinking of you Brenda and you and your family are in my prayers