Weird and Bittersweet day....
 

Today is so odd. I don't know how to feel today. I think Im drinking too much coffee and its making me jittery.... my emotions are HIGH today. Here is what I have been through since last night and this morning

1. Lost my $100 sunglasses :( I can't afford to replace them

2. Then found out someone I went to HS with passed away this past weekend, she was only 28. She is about the 5th or 6th person from HS since HS to pass away. It makes me sooo sad :(

3. I started my period (hence the revved up emotions)

4. School starts today, Im working full time and taking 3 night classes. I just saw my assignments and syllabus and wow... I feel overwhelmed already.

5. I got into work to an email that 52 co-workers got laid off today. Luckily I was not one, and I saw this coming from a mile away but it still hits like a ton of bricks. The sad thing is, there is usually NEVER just one round of layoffs, so I wonder if/when the second one will come and if I'll escape that one too. Im a higher paid salary worker in my company so it definately makes me nervous. (I have a plan though as long as I can hang in here until Dec/Jan)

6. My mom and her hubby are flying in today. Im sooo thrilled that she'll be here, but I have class tonight and won't get to see her. Then I have so much homework already that I don't think I'll be able to spend a lot of time with her while she is here.

Please send me some good vibes. Although nothing horrible affected me I feel for all those directly effected by some of these things. It weighs on my mind. :(

Wow you do have a lot on your plate. The hormones just amplify everything..but while it is going on..it IS real!

Just keep your chin up and know that you are preparing for a better future with school! Its gonna be hard but so worth it in the end!

Sending you a big hug and 1million Smella Bella kisses!!:kiss3:

I am so sorry you are having such a blah day.
I agree-school is overwhelming. I had to take this semester off-getting overwhelmed.
That really sucks about your sunglasses-I lost a diamond ring over the labor day weekend AT THE LAKE-totally sucks!!
I truly hope the layoffs will not be an issue for you-that you will be secure.
And-I hate to hear about people that are young dying-especially that I knew. Very sad. I always just figured that God has the upperhand and it was their time. They must have completed what they were put here to complete.
Just keep your head up-we are here for ya! Gonna just have to plan late nights this week to study so you can spend more time with your mom.
:)

Oh, girl - that is a LOT. Any one of those things could put your day on the wrong track - but you have all of them at once - and I can say my personal internal volume would be turned way up if this were me.

I'm sending you good vibes, girlfriend hugs, and some deeeeeep breaths.......ahhhhhhhhhhh :)

I know some of those things are silly, like my sunglasses... but STILL... I loved those glasses! And I definately cannot afford to replace them right now. :( There is a chance though that they could be found. I know where I lost them and who was around so I just gotta call around to see if anyone picked them up and took them home by mistake. I hope hope hope so! And my period... well thats every month... but compiled it makes it 10x worse.

Thanks ladies! I appreciate your words! Im glad you don't think Im overreacting!

Best suggestion...go into your room, sit on the floor with your back against your bed, legs crossed and breath in and out, very deeply for about 5 solid minutes. Don't get up right away, just sit there for another couple of minutes and stretch in position. Trust me, you will feel a whole lot calmer and less stressed. Hope your day gets better!:)

Wow. No wonder you feel rough. A lot of 'stuff' in a short period of time. Hang in there...we'll be here if you need us.

I wish I could do that. Im stuck at work in a very negative environment today with all the layoffs, morale is very low, people are laying low, not talking, not walking around. Its very sad. The company I work for has been around for over 100 years. They WERE a family owned and operated local newspaper that was such a great place to work. Great benefits, great growth and potential for personal growth as well, when I took the job. A year later we got bought by a corporation and the economy going downhill, they took away soooo many benefits, let good people walk away, just basically has gone downhill from the day we got bought. Now layoffs. We were told they had a STRICT no layoff policy, but you could see this coming. Its just very sad. Most people here have been here 20-30 years (some are only in their 30s and have been here 20 years). The people laid off do not know how to be in the job market or probaby do not even have a resume. I have been laid off 3x in my life. To me, its survivable. Sometimes even necessary to help people kickstart themselves into a better life/job for them. Its the not same company it was for over 100 years and that has disheartened so many who have given this place their life, their whole working career. Its very sad! :(

I leave here at 5pm and have exactly enough time to get to my college for my 6pm class that goes until 9pm. Wednesdays are a tough day for me.

HUGE hugs are going out to you! I'm so sorry this is all being thrown at you at once. :( You'll be in my thoughts. :love:

Oh wow, you do have a lot on your mind. I'll be thinking about you and hope your day gets better soon.

I'm sorry you're having such a rough time! If it makes you feel any better, I know you can handle the school and work thing...take it from someone who did! Last year I was teaching full-time (a brand-new grade no less) and taking 3 night classes in a completely unrelated field. It took me an hour to get to class each night so I was gone from 7:30am to 9pm. I'm entering my 2nd year of grad school and I know you can do it! PM me for support any time if you need!