sorta sad
 

I just need to vent and get this off my chest.

I have been soooooo sad since I came back from Idaho. I just miss Andrew soooooo badly. Most nights I cry myself to sleep. Right now neither of us are in a position to where we can move to be with each other (we're both broke).

I graduate in a couple weeks and I don't have any job offers. The jobs I've applied for, I'm not even getting called for interviews. When I bought the jeep all my savings went to making the down payment on it. Now I have montly payments and I can't afford to move even to Clemson.

Right now I'm listing as much of my stuff as possible on eBay, including my treasured Teddy Ruxpin collection. I wll also be downsizing Slades massive wardrobe (so look for a sale in the next few days ;) )

I'll probably end up bustng my butt at two or three part time jobs this summer just to save up money to move somewhere else. This town doesn't have hardly any good jobs open. And I'm so worried that Andrew will find someone else while I'm not there :( Right now we don't even know if we are going to be able to visit each other any this summer. With plane tickets at $500+ to fly cross country, its just too much.

why did i have to fall in love with someone that lives on the other side of the US? :(:(:(:(

aww hon, I feel so bad for you. I wish I was closer because I would give you a big 'ole hug like it sounds you desperatly need. Life isn't supposed to be easy! Keep in mind, even though it's hard, if you two are meant to be, he will wait for you.

:hug:

Thanks. I know he'll wait if its meant to be.. but i just worry. I know I'll walk by a cute guy and think "oh even though i love Andrew wouldn't it be sooo much easier to date someone in GA" and i'm sure he probably does the same thing when he sees a cute girl.

I'm sure he probably does say the same thing...but the fact that neither of you are acting on that impulse says something big!

Before I started dating Blake, I had a long distance relationship that lasted a little over 4 years. Talking on the phone as often as possible, chatting on the computer, sending little "hey, whatcha doing" texts or emails throughout the day go a long way in making sure you are on his mind;)

why not move to Idaho? Is that not possible?:confused: I hope it works out soon.. sending hugs...

Ah, I am sorry you are going through this. I have not had any job offers either, some call backs but its all for commisioned Financial work and I simply wont do commission. I am bummed too. I hope everything works out for. Ill buy some stuff from you for Armani to support your move :) Sometimes, taking high risks affords bigger rewards, why not just plunge forward and move? :)

I am soory, I know it must suck. Have you put in applications close to him??

Angie

We used to text almost 24/7 but when he lost his job he had to get his cell cut off b/c he couldn't afford the bill. Now that he has a new job hopefully he'll get it turned back on soon. And he doesn't have a computer either, so my only way to contact him is by calling the house, I try to do that at least every other day, but b/c of the time difference its hard. But he's always home when I call, which eases my mind just a bit.

I would move to Idaho IF I had the money. But right now I have less than $300 in the bank, and bills due in a couple wks. It cost at least $1,000 to drive there and then I would need money for an apartment once I got there. My family would help me out, but they aren't well off either.

I would if I had the money to move there.

I did talk w/ one lady about a job at a lodge up that way, its pet friendly so I could take Slade and room and board is free. I could fly there and they have a shuttle to Boise (its aobut 4 hrs away) during the busy season so I could at least visit him every so often on my days off. But I haven't heard anything back from her, so I think she probably hired someone else.

Theres another resort type place thats near him thats hiring, but they don't allow pets and room and board there is $400/mnth plus a $300 deposit.

I hope you get a job and can find away to be together.

Let me know when you post your stuff for sale. I'll help you out any way I can. PM me with your ebay username so I can find your stuff on there too. :D

I heard back from the one lodge that was pet friendly and they've filled all their positions for this summer. :(


Right now I think I'm going to try get enough money to pay half the price for him to come visit here for a week this summer.. it'd be cheaper for me to go their, but I want him to see my hometown. I'll bust my butt working and hopefully have enough saved by summers end to move up there (if I can't convince him to move here :p)

I'll probably have all the clothes posted by tomorrow. I cleaned slades closet out and only kept the 5 shirts he wears the most (but w/ summer coming he won't be wearing those much). He had over 30 shirts and jackets :eek: (i had no idea he had that much stuff) and most of its only been worn once, some of its never been worn.


My eBay name is "the_barking_tiger"

The majority of my stuff has watchers. One stamp set I have up is already bit up to $40 and it has 20 ppl watching it! :eek:

It sounds like you are willing to work hard - while it may seem like a long road, that type of spirit will be rewarded. What is your degree in?

Business Management. It should be easy to get a job, just nowhere around here is hiring. Plus I don't have much relevant work experience. I've worked pretty much everyday since I turned 16, but all my jobs have been working with kids (nanny, daycare, church nursery etc)... not much business experience.

I hope things start falling into place for you and your guy! Hugs to you!

have you had an internship? Or have you tried to find one for the summer? While I realize internships don't always pay the best, a summer internship may turn into a well paying job with that company or another company

I's sorry you're going thru such a hard time....

I have a little help to offer - if you really have to sell your things - try Craigslist - then you don't have to worry about shipping and can get what you ask for most of the time. After my husband died 6 months ago :(...I had to sell everything I could just to survive ....

I pretty much sold everything I listed - I kept my nice furniture etc - but sold anything I could put a price tag on - I HAD to downsize for an apartment - but I downsized SO much that there was a few things I wish I DIDN'T sell - so pick and choose carefully -

GOOD LUCK !!

Thanks for all the suggestions, hugs, and support.

I still don't know what i'm going to do, it would be sooooo much easier if I didn't have a darn car payment every month!

I drove around in the country for 30 mins tonight just crying about the situation. I don't know that it really helped me any, but it made me feel a bit better...

gosh I miss him sooo much.

Driving around in the country is very theraputic! I do it all the time when I need to get away and think.

My hubby Kevin and I had a "long distance relationship" before we got married. We have now been married for 30 years. Just thought I'd tell you this to give you hope:)

Hang in there, I know it's hard, but this too shall pass.

Sheilagh

I'm sorry:( I hope things work out for you and you raise enough money to move to Idaho. Long distance relationships are hard, but if it's meant to be it will def. work out for the best. I hope you can get a job in no time

Im sorry. But i have been in your shoes, I was in a long distance relationship for almost 2 years, so I know exactually where you are coming from. All my advice is if you think its worth it, it will work out. Long distance relationships can work then there will be a time that you will be able to move when its right for the both of you. Good luck. If you ever want to talk about it you can PM me.

any updates??? Hope things are looking up.

We're still together.. but thats pretty much it. :rolleyes:

I'm planning on maybe visiting again in the fall, then maybe move there in January.. but I really don't know.

LDR are hard to maintain. And then if you move there and it does not work out (heaven forbid), you are stuck.

See if he will move to be by you, then you are not taking such a risk.
I know it is hard to be away from the one you care about.

I really wish you the best.

Hang in there. What is meant to be, is meant to be. I was in a LDR and I am now married to the man of my LDR. Mine was so far it isn't funny. I was from Malaysia and he from Canada so talk about the distance. It was hard and even after I moved here, there are still lots of hurdle to clear and I miss my parents back home very much...Sometimes I wished I have married nearer but in circumstances like this, I believe what is meant to be, is meant to be. To add to it, I have met him while I was in university 8 years ago and we have been attracted to each other but our relationship didn't start back then simply because I was still in school and who would ever imagine moving so far. I know I didn't back then.