These lonely four walls were closing in on me hard this afternoon, so I went for a drive. Kept driving until I realized I was close to the place where I bought Cody from 12.8 years ago (about 40 miles from my house). The man and wife were in their late 50's back then and only sold dogs a few times. I wanted to stop and see if they were around anymore. I knocked on the door and a older man came out, I asked if he had ever sold any Yorkies, and boom right thru my legs came a 1 yr old Yorkie. He jumped up and down and was excited to greet me. Well the tears came back again. They had bought this new dog a few months ago. I found out that all of Cody's relatives had passed on. I tearfully expained to them who I was and who Cody was. I gave them a picture of Cody and thanked them for giving me the happiest 12+ years of my life. They were happy that Cody lived with people who cared for him as they did with theirs.

Back to the lonely walls and this wonderfull forum.
thanks everyone.

Dave I am so sorry for your loss of Cody:(

Very well said. You did what was right and unselfish of you. I have been there. As hard as it is..for us, it is what you have to do. I believe they thank us for it.. and watch over us while we suffer with our decision.
I'm so sorry for your loss and pain over your beloved boy, but know you did the right thing. They have a way of letting us know it's time.. and he let you know. :( RIP Cody ~

Oh this post is making me cry.. but you'll find another love.. it takes time.

Cody's in heaven with my Fabio...
 

:animal-pa Dear Dave, I know what you're going thru, on June 7, I had to do the same to the love of my life, my little Fabio....he would have been 5 years old on July 6. He suffered from a congential defect that first appeared at 2 years old.....a collapsing trachea that usually only sounded horrible when he was excited or going for a walk....he honked like a goose...

I was advised by several vets that the operation to correct this has a very low success rate and eventually another part of the trachea breaks down...

It ended up as 'extensive cervical tracheal collapse' with him gasping for air....

He's now resting in peace in the back yard and no longer suffering:animal-pa :animal-pa :animal-pa :animal-pa

Dave, I was just wondering how you're doing today. You were on my mind last night and today.
check in.. K?!

I am very sorry for your loss.

that was a beautiful story....sad but beautiful.

I'm so deeply sorry Dave, my heart goes out to you and I feel your pain. I wish I had some words of comfort, but please know that you did the best for Cody, now he is not in anymore pain.

I hope someday you can find it in your heart to love a new yorkie, they are just the most precious babies on earth!

Hugs to you,
Missy

ohhh that's so sad,
but I'm glad you were able to talk to the breeder.

Dave iam so very sorry for your loss, you are in my thoughts and prayers

dave, im so so sorry for your loss,, my heart goes out to you..
you have me in tears... god bless you... we are all here for you, just
remember that.

How am I doing? Thats a good question. I did get some sleep last night. I woke up this morning and looked down at Cody's bed, and it was still empty. I want to go to the door and let Cody outside, but.... Red98vett is helping me get a picture made up with those great words "Always in my heart". I'm going to get a picture frame today to get out of the house again. I will be OK but the hole in my heart is big and I need lots of time to heal.

Yep, it does. It will heal..it will always hurt but eventually the good memories will out weigh the bad. ;)

Oh Dave...I am so sorry about your loss of your beloved Cody! And you are right, they take a huge piece of our heart with them when they go. I have been in your shoes and wondered how in the world the pain will ever lessen and how tomorrow will come without your precious friend...but it does. I sat in the floor and sobbed as I held my Hank and he took his last breath...my heart shattered then and there. But I knew that the right decision had been made and that Hank was in peace and no longer suffering. Grief is not for the ones we lose but for the ones left here to go on without them. You will have good days and you will have very bad days, but you will go on. The best thing you can do is find another baby to love...it will never be the same and a new pup would never replace Cody, but it would be something to share all the love you have inside with. I promise each day will be a little easier...you will never forget him but you will love again! Keep your chin up!!! The folks here at Yorkie Talk will be your best therapy!

I'm so sorry to read about your loss. It has been just two weeks since I lost my Little Duke. I still miss him so much. It seems sometimes it is still so unreal. I have gotten another yorkie you I know will never be Duke, but I love also. I needed someone to hold while I cried.

I will pray for your healing daily. RIP little one.

I have removed all of Cody's toys, bowls, petfood, bacon strip treats (he love them). I'm keeping his favorite blanket and leave it on the floor where his bed was in my bedroom. I'm talking to that spot every morning when I wake up. I got a frame for a nice picture of Cody yesterday (I included that picture in this post). Going to find a nice wall to hang it on. Before leaving yesterday to go to town, I stopped by where I buried Cody in my yard, and asked Cody if he wanted to go for a ride and told him to get in the car. He liked going for a ride.

I have no idea when the pain will stop or lessen, but I will keep moving. I feel so guilty for this new freedom of not having to help him outside, not sharing my food with him, not leaving the car run while I run into the store. I sat down in a restaurant yesterday and ate with alot of guilty feels thinking Cody was still in the car. We mostly ate in the car with Cody. So many changes I must make now that he's gone.

I want to thank everyone here for all the love you have given to Cody and me. You didn't know Cody or me, but you made us feel better. I hope to come here more often with a better feeling than I have now and maybe with time I can help others a little bit with what I went thru/going thru.

Thank you very much Red98vett for helping me with this picture of Cody.

What a nice picture and a beautiful boy.
You could use that pic for your avatar on here. ;)

you're so welcome Dave ...You did an outstanding job with his beautiful frame.....it's very special and thank you for letting us see it too.....

This post really made me stop to think about all the little things we take for granted ....thank YOU for doing that....I hope with each day his memory stays strong and your tears get weak...these little guys grab our hearts and don't let go that's for sure. Sending you a hug and thank you for sharing Cody with us....he was a lucky boy to have such a loving dad.

I'm so sorry for your loss. The loss of a furbaby it is hard and painful. No words will make you feel better right now, but I'm sure that you know most of us understand your pain. This forum is great.

Dave,
We are all praying for you and Cody. Please take care of yourself at this time, it would be what Cody wanted.

Oh Dave, I am feeling your pain now, as it wasnt that long ago that I was walking the same road. I can only offer your my sympathy and tell you that it is hard, but with time it will get better. Just know that we are all here for you. Just a thought, but where I buried Hollly I planted a packet of Forget me nots and it helped me some with my healing.

I'm so sorry
 

soooo sorry for your lost. I lost mine almost 4 months ago and can't stop thinking about her.. It hurts alot....makes me cry every time I think about her........that means I cry everyday...c:cry: :cry: :cry:

I hope that with each passing day you will feel better, and dwell on the good times you had with your baby.

I'm still trudging slowly forward. The thoughts of being at the Vets last Tuesday, of the Vet walking into the room and feeling Cody shaking more and more as the Vets prepared the needle still echoes in my mind vividly. Having the guilt feelings of "I should have waited for a little longer" before going to the Vet with Cody, also echoes in my mind. And having no-one understand how much I loved my little guy was really putting me in a very dark place. But with this forum's understanding of what I was going thru with Cody has helped me immensely. I was completely on the darkside and now I see light again. I THANK this forum very very much for your understanding, love, prayers, and advice. I am starting down a new road, by myself, without my best friend. I think of him every moment, and I talk to him too. I am not shedding the tears so much now, but every once in a while one does leak out.

Taking some advice from this forum, I talked to someone about some good memories of Cody, finally. It was hard to think of good things about Cody with all the guilt I've been feeling. But I'm trying to push over that hump. It did make me feel a little better talking about him. But advice I wont be taking is "get a new dog". Not yet. I am not ready emotionally for a long while.

I have been trying to think of ways to mark Cody's grave in my yard. Flowers, engraved pet stone marker, ect. Anyone want to share ideas on this?

Again, THANKS so much everyone. I needed a mountain of love and understanding and prayers this week and I got all of that from your posts. Your kindness has really helped me.

Dave54

Dave, about the guilt..

Please try to stop second-guessing yourself. I hesitate to share a story on this thread, afterall this thread is about you and your loss. However, I think this applies.

Years ago my first pet began to enter the last stages of his life. He went downhill rather quickly, and when I couldn't stand to see him in pain, I made the hardest decision I have ever made in my life. I had brought Fritz home as a pup when I was just 12 years old. So, you could say we grew up together. Anyway, as you can imagine, his death was incredibly hard on me (I'm crying as I write this and its been 15 years).

For years I worried that I took him to be pts too soon. If only I'd waited, if only I'd seen another vet, the if onlys were hard on me.

I can't say that I dwelled on that, but the thoughts were there.

Eventually, Shelby's time came. Poor thing. After second guessing my decision about Fritz for years, I so wanted to wait as long as I could. I know now that I waited too long. She was incredibly dear to me and I could not face the guilt of putting her down too soon. Dave, the wisdom of hindsight has taught me that the best decision, the decision that was for the furbaby I loved so much, was the decision that I made for Fritz. Poor Shelby hung on longer than she should of, and that, I did for me. Finally, one Saturday, I realized that enough was enough, called my vet, and we took her on the hardest 15 minute drive of my life.

Dave, please stop questioning your decision. I know in my heart, that you would not have made it if it wasn't the best thing you could have done for him.

I'm sure he is frolicing happily at the rainbow bridge. Perhaps with Fritz and Shelby. You need to grieve, but you need to give yourself a break and let the guilt go.

I hope this helps.

My heart aches for you. Only time will heal you, but you are moving forward.
Good for you. Cody is with a lot of friends over The Rainbow Bridge and is no longer suffering.

The marker for his grave is a wonderful idea. What do you think you'd like to see when you look at it? You can put whatever you want.

Oh dave i feel for you i really do...i was in that place myself just 7 weeks ago.
I had to have my 14 yr old Yorkie girl PTS....i can promise you that it does get better...my pain has eased somewhat and i can remember her and talk about her without becoming a mess.
Everyone on here was so lovely to me it really helped with the grieving process. I hope you stick around..you will find alot of support here.
Love n hugs...Kerry. x

Hey guys. Just thought I'ld let you know that I'm feeling a little better, now that some time has passed. July 3rd was a rough dark day. I'm still not over my loss of Cody and I see others feel just like me in the R.I.P. forums too.

I come to the YT forums almost everyday and read. Sometimes I peek at the puppies for sale threads (and see pictures) and get a smile and remember how small Cody use to be and how he looked as a puppy.

I'm going out to Denver next week for a little R&R. When I get back I hope to post more. Hopefully if some newbie reads this thread they will understand there is much love and understanding here about "yorkie loss". And maybe they too won't feel so all alone.

Thanks everyone.
Dave54