Trying to Find Comfort in Our Memories
 

Bella was helped across the Rainbow Bridge yesterday by a wonderful vet, Dr. Steven Schultz. He made an 1 hour 10 minute drive to our home so Bella would have no anxiety. It was a beautiful experience! Truly, brought me peace with my decision to say good-bye before she reached a severe crisis. She greeted Dr. Steve happily with her tail wagging and even give him a few nose kisses. We both held her as she fell asleep. She passed in about 10 calm, peaceful, panfry minutes. She left snuggled in Mike's arms with me petting and rubbing her ears telling her how much she meant to us. It wasn't as hard as I had prepared myself for because she was so relaxed. She even fell asleep in my lap as Dr. Steve explained the process and answered our questions. I know we did the right thing. I didn't want to see her continue to go downhill until we had to make the long trip into the emergency vet. I felt so much love in my heart as we said goodbye. She will be privately cremated and we will sprinkle her ashes in some of her favorite sniffing spots on the mile loop around our cottage community.
Good friends invited us to their home before Dr. Steven came, Bella loves their kitty so she had a well loved walk before we took her on her final beloved walk through the woods and along the lakeshore. She was exhausted when we got back home, the good kind. Our dear friends then called and said to come down when they needed us so we went down later and out to dinner. They loved Bella and understood our pain. Thanks to them, we had a quietly tearful afternoon and early evening.
We were not prepared for entering our home for the firs time without Bella greeting us. It hit me like a freight train. For the last 7 years she had ALWAYS been there, each and every day to greet us whenever we returned. When we are "at the lake" she goes with us everywhere and has never spent a night away from the cottage without us. So we immediately felt the horrible emptiness and stark reality. We both cried and realized it will hurt, and hurt painfully for awhile. We laid on our bed in the darkness and comforted one another. No sound of Bella's footsteps as she climbed up to join us and no soft, warm nose kisses to share her love. How tightly she had wrapped her paws around your hearts. She was our first and ONLY dog and we loved her with all of our hearts. I know we made the right decision and I know she knew how much we loved her until her loving heart became still. Oh the pain I feel now. I appreciate all of your messages of support. I know my husband and I will get through this and slowly find comfort in our memories. Thank you dear Yorkie lovers and friends. You are a wonderful support.
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I am so sorry for your loss, Smallmans.

Diana

I cried yesterday reading your post and now again this morning. It hurts so much to say goodbye.

Your post is very touching. Bella was clearly deeply loved by two wonderful people. I'm glad you have a wonderful vet who helped make Bella's final journey a peaceful one.

She will be missed. Praying that the happy memories of your time with her will comfort your hearts.

Rest in peace, sweet Bella.

Dearest Bella

Your loving mommy and daddy did the very best for you all through your life, and I know you know that. You gave them precious memories that will sustain them through this grieving process of your loss. Now you get to play without pain at rainbow bridge! I'm sure my Tigger was so excited to greet you. You will learn he was the sweetest orange tabby and he will tell you all about his yorkie friend Buddybear. Give him sweet kisses from his mommy and enjoy your new playmates.
Hugs,

So extremely sorry about your loss, but glad you were there to be part of her life and she in yours. Sometimes I think I see Miss Gracie walking by me in the house and she has been gone over a year now to the Rainbow Bridge. You never get over the ones you have lost and that is good because we can always carry them in our thoughts and hearts and it takes time before it gets easier. Take your time to grieve.

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Tears reading your post. I will pray for peace and comfort for your family. Bella will always be in your hearts.

So sad reading your post. As I type this I'm laying in bed cuddling my Alfie's jumper. Will it get easier. At least we all have each other here and we all know how each other feels. Xxx

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It's so hard to lose you loved ones. Bless you and Bella' s lovely little soul. It will get better with time, but your doggie will always hold a special place in your heart.

I m so sorry for your loss....... My beloved Bella also is in Dog's Heaven......I still miss her like crazy.......:(

Thank you for sharing your story. My little girl died a few days before Bella, and the last few weeks have been filled with tears, guilt and sweet memories. I have lost human family members and I was sad, but losing my fur baby has left a painful emptiness in my heart.
I feel your pain and hope you and your husband are hanging in the there.

I am so sorry for your loss. You will always treasure the memories and your baby will always be in your heart. My husband and I lost our dear Keally and the house was so quiet. We did go on and now have another little treasure , time flies she is 51/2 years old now. It is so hard to say goodbye to our dearest little fur babies we dread going through it again. Take a day at a time it will get better but you will never forget your baby. Susan