I miss my Pupperface (Marley) 4 Attachment(s) I still miss her so much that it breaks me. I found her favorite little stuffed animal and Izzy saw it and got all excited and I couldn't let her play with it. It went up on a shelf so it wouldn't get any more torn. I walked into the living room holding it, and Scott looked up at me, and saw what was in my hand and I just burst into tears. The minute he saw what it was he knew and he just held me and told me he loved me until i stopped crying finally. It is more unfrequent but it's still just as heartbreaking. I still carry her service dog i.d in my wallet where my i.d should be... can't stand to put her away in some forgotten corner. I miss her little face so much. |
I am so sorry. . Your thread brought tears to my eyes. I lost my Guildenstern about a month ago. . It is really hard. . Sending you hugs and puppy kisses from Galen |
Thank you thank you thank you Your sweet email touched my heart. Yes, you have lost a beautiful member of your family. Grieving is normal, I promise it gets better. Maybe save that squeaky toy for better times and a new furry friend. So many Yorkist would love to spend the holidays with you and that squeaky toy my dear All the best, sending you a prayer |
Oh I feel so bad after reading your post. It sounds like what I did when I lost my little Keally. Time heals very slowly and you will always treasure those wonderful memories. Sending a hug your way . Susan |
I'm usually pretty rational, even when it came to grief and guilt all my life. Im really good at brushing it off , taking a deep breath and expelling the weighted emotions because they don't change anything and life must go on. Death is a given. Enjoy good things while it's your turn to experience them, and when the chapter ends you move on and make more memories. I used to have it down pat. I dealt with my grandfather, who I was extremely attached to, committing suicide when i was 6. My father doing the same when I was 7, and my boyfriend also ending his life when I was 15. countless deaths of friends, and euthanizing my 17 yr old pit bull soulmate... I've gotten good at death. But not this time. Marley's death has floored me emotionally and none of my rationalizations are getting through to my heart. |
I am so sorry for all the past loss you have had to deal with, and really really sorry for your loss of Marley. These little fur kids are more special than many people even realize, and to lose one way to soon as you did just rips your heart. It has been nearly 8 months since I lost my Meika, and not a day goes by that I don't think about her and wish I could have that one day to do over..... and still have her here. I understand your feelings all too well. Hugs. |
I think it's the tragic way you lost her. We give advise we ourselves sometimes can't follow. You will always love Marley and never forget her,and will always blame your self, I would be beating myself to death, but that will not bring her back. You have your lil boy, he will bring much happiness to you, and most important to lil Miss Izze. Handling human death is way different I have found then handling the death of a furbaby that is with us 24/7, that are solely dependent on us for all their needs, we put their needs before our own, we make sure they eat before we do. If we are out for several hours we rush to walk them or put them outside to potty before we even take our coats off. They always come first, they greet us with so much joy and love when we have to leave them home alone. Loosing one leaves a large void in your heart. I have lost more babies then I care to remember, it never gets easier, the pain never lessons, it get worse, more painful, I lost my mother when I was 11 y/o, that is manyyyyyy years ago, it was a hit and run, I was with her, the memory to this day is still very vivid in my mind. I had to put down my 17 y/o girl down one year ago, 3 weeks later still sick and grieving over her loss my son passed away in his sleep, heart attack, no history of a heart condition, to young to leave this world and he was my only child. His loss was just as over whelming as my little girls,his loss was a total shock just as my little girls was, but the pain in my heart was a different kind of pain. These little furbutts leave such an impact on us when we loose them, they affect our lives, thinking, our home is affected, there is an emptiness in it. The bond we have with them is very great, we watch them closer them most ppl watch their 2 yo babies. I have never lost a baby due to an accident it has to extremely over whelming and never forgotten. The loss of my little girl and my son I pour more love onto my lil unplanned for adopted boy. You have two beautiful lil furbutts love them every minute of every day. The memory lasts for ever, the pain eases over time. (((hugs))) |
I will get easier. I didn't believe it - but then one day it was true. I still won't let Ripley play with Presley's favorite toy - his Mr. Carrot. I just bought her one of her own. I know how you feel. I'm so sorry for your loss. |
dog Whatever you need to cling to that will help you grieve, do that. I must tell you I have the collars and tags from my Shadow, Tuffy and Chips hanging from my purse. I loved those dogs and that is my way of keeping their things close. I have pictures on the wall. It helps me. May you find comfort in the little things that our pets have had . All the good happy times and know in your heart that the Creator of all animals has called them home to Him. |
I am sorry you lost baby Marley. We never know how long we will have with these little ones. I pray that your heart will heal and you will not blame yourself for something that was an accident. Hugs and prayers going out to you. |
I am so very sorry. It sounds like you have been strong your whole life and this little baby got through. They do that don't they? I kept one of Shelby's toys just for me. It gives me comfort to hold it and close my eyes and imagine how funny she was. I don't know how you heal from such a tragedy, so many stories here on YT break my heart. These little critters just move so fast and want to be where the action is, everything is a danger. Don't beat yourself up, it was a horrible accident. You know sometimes we talk about food and training and diarrhea so much stories like yours get lost. I think there is such a lesson for all of us in your posts. I know I have become more aware of Ali's whereabouts from learning from you and I thank you for that. Wishing you a healing touch. |
Since my last post I've actually done ok. I was just focusing on Toby and Izzy and keeping a smile on my face. Until about 2 hours ago when we were driving back from the casino on the highway. My best friend lives right off the highway right past a certain exit and both Chewy ( my Pitt bull mix who lived to be 17 before I had to put him down last year) and Marley are both buried in her yard next to each other.. when we were about 30 seconds away from passing them I told Scott "to think happy thoughts for them and send love out cause we are passing by them right now" , and right when we passed uncontrollable silent tears just started falling . It's amazing how scary the world gets at 75mph through blurred and shiny vision from tears when you're the one driving. I just did my best to keep my eyes open and my breathing under control until I got home. It still seems ironic that I can handle every human in my aura dying with a good amount of grace, but I can't hold my composure for s**t at the thought of my precious creatures being gone. I just hope Chewy is watching over her like he would have if they were here. And maybe that's why she had to go so early... To keep chewy company since he was alone in heaven after 17 years of never leaving my side. Maybe he needed her more than I think I do. |
I am really sorry for your loss..you can come out from this anxiety.. How to handle Puppy Separation Anxiety? |
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