My Felix Hi Everyone, I am trying to power through each day right now, after losing my Felix, my "Bubs". He fought an excellent fight, but my husband and I had to put him down Saturday morning. My heart has been in my throat for weeks, anticipating life without him. We found out his liver was failing after he started having seizures. The vet said he might have 1-2 weeks left when we met with him on Thursday, Oct 23rd. We thought we might have one last weekend with him, but his health took a turn for the worse, so we made the decision to euthanize him on Saturday morning. He took his last breath around 10am, while cuddled up with me. Our vet was wonderful. From bladder stones, to arthritis, to autoammune(sp) problems, to liver failure, Felix has been through it all. He was the happiest dog in the world though, just the most lovely friend to me. We spoiled him in every way, and loved to be part of his life. He had such a zest for life. He loved to bark at the deer and chase squirrels. His tail would wag so fast when he was excited, we could hardly see it, LOL. Felix was my first dog, and my best friend. I just wanted to take a moment to tell people who relate to the weight of this loss. Fellow doggy lovers, who let their lives revolve around their pets. Felix brought out my tenderest side, and he was my absolute best weakness. I feel so lucky to have shared 9 years with Felix. He went to work with me, worked out with me, traveled with me, slept with me, ate with me. I am happy to say that he did not have one moment in his life when he felt unloved or alone. He knew he had us wrapped around his paw from moment one. I hope this intense sadness wears down, but I also am so afraid of forgetting his little details. How he smelled, how his bark sounded, how he walked, how he would hop around in the snow, how he would tap on the door to be let out, how he would give me a deep impatient sigh when he was waiting to be fed. He had so many little things that made me love him. Hug your Yorkie extra long today for me, and throw the ball just one more time. |
Hugs to you......very toughing. RIP Felix <3 |
What a beautiful memorial to your Felix! Your pup lived an awesome life and obviously he loved you both so much in return. You did a wonderful job of taking care of this pup, and I am so happy you were able to be with him until the end! Soon your sadness will give way to the awesome memories your pup left behind, I promise. Thank you for sharing Felix's story with "me", I loved reading about him....I will say a prayer for you and your husband and that your pain subsides soon... |
by the way, I promise you will forget nothing and sometimes something will instantly bring his scent to your nose, the feeling that his toy is underfoot when you step on something, a certain sound will make you jerk your head, you will remember everything about him....I've had many pups, big and small and I could go on for a lifetime about them each with their own little quirks and personalities! They leave permanent footprints on our souls, I promise you that! |
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I am so sorry for your loss. . . They leave such paw prints on out hearts. . . May he rest in peace |
Sorry for your loss. My your heart find peace. |
I'm just seeing this and I'm so very sorry for your loss of Felix. You will forget nothing. Those memories will be pictures in your mind forever. |
I am so sorry for your loss of sweet little Felix. He was one lucky little guy to have you for a mommy. Your tribute is so touching. Thanks for sharing his story. |
I am so sorry for the loss of Felix. Felix knew he was well cared for and very much loved. Take care of and take a day at a time. Susan |
Thank you everyone, It has been a week and 4 days since we had Felix put down. The day I met Felix, my whole life changed. I was so excited to tell my husband about him, I literally threw my husband in my car and headed to go pick Felix up. He was the last dog left of the litter. My husband was shocked I wanted a dog. He asked me "will you die without him?" and my answer was a strong "yes". I feel like he was my doggy soul mate, and he awoke a deep love and compassion in me from the instant we met. I would not trade having him for anything, even though I am sad now. Time is helping, along with the relief of not watching him suffer and worrying about him every moment. I don't have to re-remind myself that he is no longer alive when I wake up in the morning, which was horrible. I am starting to get used to my new life, without him. I have been keeping myself very busy and am waiting to get Felix back from the crematorium, I want him home, but I am tried to not act like a wack-job when I was told I wouldn't get him yesterday. I didn't even call today, I have tried to convince myself it doesn't matter that much, as it will just be an urn. I actually think that might be true, that it doesn't matter that much. I keep hoping his spirit might remain in our home, not sure how that works. I got the guts up to go through my photos of him today, and got a good chuckle over the fact that almost all of the photo's I took in the past 9 years have been of Felix, hahaha. It is as though nothing else has happened in my life!! I have been so charmed by him, that I guess I wanted to capture everything he did, LOL. Now I am thankful for that. I am starting to feel better, a little less separated from the world. I started taking my other dog to training classes, so she can play with other dogs and learn some stuff too. She seems pretty sad, she is only two, and she loved her big brother Felix. I read that it was a good idea to have your other dog present when you put a dog to sleep, so I did. they can smell that a dog has passed on, which is apparently healthy, but the trainer thinks it has given her anxiety that every time I take her someone, she wonders if she is walking the green mile. I never considered that. Now I am trying to take her everywhere, just so some of her confidence returns about her safety. Thanks for listening, and making me feel less alone. =) |
I am so sorry for your loss. I so understand how a little dog can change your whole life Buster did that for me. I would not worry about your other baby being anxious I think she is also adjusting to life without her big brother. I am sure the love she will receive and give will help you all adjust to the loss. My deepest sympathies. I am sure Felix is watching over his family. |
I am so sorry for your loss. You and Felix were so blessed to have had a life together, even though it ended too soon. Our little furkids take a chunk of our hearts with them when they pass on, and the pain seems almost unbearable at times. Many of us know this all too well from our own losses. Time will help heal your sad heart, and you will always have the cherished memories of Felix forever. |
It's true - you don't forget them. Every day you will be reminded of something they did. My Presley has been gone 11 months now. Every day I remember him. I think about all his cute antics, his barking at the squirrels on my deck. For a long time, while asleep I would wake up and think I could hear him bark to be let off the bed (he was blind the last year of his life) and I would wake up and look for him. I think he was just visiting me in my dreams letting me know he was still near. Every once in a while it still happens. They will come to you in so many ways. I still feel sad, but it does make me smile to remember. You will get there too. I am deeply sorry for your loss - it can be devastating. Sending you healing prayers.. |
very very sorry for your loss and may he RIP. |
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