My Marley
 

My Marley was 7 months old, with one ear up and flopped forward. She was our first until we adopted her sister about a month and a half after getting her. She was the sweetest thing and my boyfriend and I loved her more than anything. We were rearranging my bedroom when I realized she wasn't there. We searched the house thoroughly we thought. We combed the streets with four of my friends. We cried and put out 150 flyers offering $200 reward . And we cried. But I had hope. And then 17 hours after she went missing I heard a faint yelp and whimper that didn't come from outside or from Izzy. I ran upstairs and lifted the bed and saw her laying there and I scooped her up into my arms and started screaming hysterically. But it was too late. She died right then. I wasn't willing to believe it and I ran into my vets office begging them to find a heartbeat and they couldn't. And losing her that way has to be the absolute hardest most heart breaking thing I've ever endured. And I have been through some s**t in my life. But that is by far the hardest. I was extremely suicidal for the first week. If it weren't for my boyfriend I don't know that I wouldn't still be. We loved her so much. So now we are overly attentive to every move Izzy makes and vow never to let that kind of thing happen again. But we both still cry over Marley all the time. For such a tiny little thing She made quite a big impression on our hearts .

So sorry for your lose. RIP Marley.

What a terrible thing for you to have to experience.....my ex husband ran over one of my adorable Chihuahuas.....I thought I would never live over that. I hate to say it, but if I could have swapped him for my precious little Rainey, I would have done it in a heartbeat. All we can do is take the terrible things we live through with our pets/kids/etc, and try to learn from them.....What doesnt kill us really does make us stronger....YOU are stronger and a more knowledgable person for what you experienced with this tragic event with your precious Marley...it has made a positive effect in your relationship with Izzy and you are a better momma to your furbaby. I am so sorry for your loss, I can only imagine how gut wrenching that was for you.....

You are absolutely right on every single count. And I'm fortunate to have a wonderful boyfriend who mourned and still mourns right along with me, and won't let me sink into a depression, but puts up with every effect this has had on me without a thought. It's rare to find a man like that. And he is so wonderful with izzy. And yes, I'd trade ten of my closest friends for Marley if that were possible.

You hang in there.....I know you dont think this agonizing pain that catches your very breath, could ever possibly be remotely tolerable, but it will dull with passage of time. You wont forget Marley, and you wont forget the circumstances which led you to this place, but the pain will dull and the raw edges will heal over and not hemorrhage everytime Marleys memory bathes your mind and memory. You just hang in there and lean on your boyfriend....I think you have a keeper....any man that is sensitive and compassionate and tolerant about his girlfriends emotional pain over the loss of a beloved pet, is a keeper. It will get better, I promise.

Wow. You certainly have a gift for wording things just right. Thank you. I'm pretty sure you're the only person I've come across that I feel actually understands what hell this is for me. Thank you .

I'm so very sorry for the loss of sweet little Marley. It's so hard to part with our furry family members, but it's even harder when it's due to a tragic accident like this. I lost my Tink due to an accident, and it took me a long time to stop beating myself up over it. Please know that you gave Marley a wonderful life, and she knew how much you loved her. You are in my thoughts and prayers. Rest in peace little Marley.

I am so so sorry for the loss of your sweet baby.

I am so sorry for the loss of Marley. I will send continued healing wishes your way. RIP Marley.

Truly sorry for the tragic loss of your little girl. Most of us here on YT has lost a precious loved furbaby, we all know and feel the pain you are going through, matters not how they left us, the pain is none the less. You are very fortunate to have a BF to help you through this painful time, one that will grieve with you, support you, and there for you to lean on. Many of us have had to endure this alone. This is a forum of love for a precious breed, when ones looses their beloved baby we all feel it. Stay strong, remember lil Izzy feeds off your emotions and must surely miss little sister, stay strong for Izzy, he needs you more then you know. I will keep you in my thoughts and prayers to help give you the strength to get through this. (((hugs)))

I am so sorry for your tragic loss. I hope things will be less painful for you in time, but I sure understand the heart ache you are feeling now over this horrible accident.

So sorry for your lose. RIP Marley

It'll be a month tomorrow since we lost Marley. And every time there's silence I cry. And we both cry. She seems to shadow everything still. Other people probably think it's a little weird that I am taking this so hard, but s**t, we loved that little girl ten times more than we do any actual person in our lives. So tomorrow will be extremely hard on us. I just hope it starts to get easier. Not that I deserve it to, really. But I'm just starting to lose any interest i had in anything and I don't want to feel like I'm bringing Scott down all the time. But God I just miss her and no matter how hard I cry it won't bring her back and I can't seem to get that through my head

I know exactly how you're feeling. It was four weeks ago that I lost my gorgeous Dilly and it still doesn't feel like it was her time, she should still be here. I know nothing I write will change anything for you so just wanted to send you a hug

Oh gosh my heart breaks for you and the loss of your baby Marley. I am so very sorry that you have had to face such a tragic accident. Like you, I had to face the hard and devastating truth that my little October had passed away from an accident as well. She left us on 4-14-13, and it was the hardest day, following months and year of my life. I had never experienced such grief until her loss. I had never cried so hard and for so long. Please know that this was not your fault. You were as careful as you could have been, its just that our babies are so small and sometimes accidents just happen...there is no explanation or reason, its just the sad sad part of life sometimes. I blamed myself for so long for my October passing away - I should have paid more attention, I should have been holding her, she shouldn't have been there....but still, none of my "what ifs" helped me cope with losing her. So I had to let go of the "what ifs" and start focusing on the fact that she was in no more pain, and that I would see her again. I also focused my attention on our other little ones, who also needed their mom. They missed me so during that terrible hour in my life, so please remember to focus on your darling, Izzy - as I know you have. I am so sorry for this loss! The pain will become bearable one day, even though from my own experience it feels like a lifetime away. I am so very sorry :(

Thank you very much. Today is my birthday and I've probably only cried three times so far. I'm doing good.we got a male pup, cause I figured if I got a female I would only expect her to live up to everything Marley was. So in order to avoid disappointment , I adopted my Sumo yorkie, Toby. He does have the same coloring as Marley , so she's never ever far from my thoughts. I don't know that I'll ever be able to forgive myself completely. It haunts me. I still cannot move my furniture around myself. I get paralyzed with fear at the thought. I have to take Izzy , and now Izzy and my Sumo Yorkie, out of the house completely or lock them outside in the enclosure I built for them so I know they are absolutely safe before someone can move anything remotely heavy more than two inches . Or I freak out and panic. I still carry her service dog I.d with me. Hell, I agreed to take Toby because he'd be a bit bigger and less likely to crawl into precarious spaces unnoticed. Most people aspire for the smallest and now I am just happy with my Sumo yorkie. I call him that because he's half her age and bigger than her already. I still slip up and call Izzy Marley sometimes. But I'm at least coming out of my fog enough to straighten my house up more often and don't spend all day in bed in the dark. Sometimes I open the windows now. And sometimes I actually get out of bed and leave the house now. So I guess I am getting better. But then sometimes I feel like the depression is part of my penance, and I feel guilty when I think I'm doing better. I don't know, I change emotions so often I can't tell where I am at real good. But I'm better than I was for sure. Thank you for thinking of me.

I hope that you had a wonderful birthday! Even though I know it was a hard day, I hope you were able to enjoy it. :)
And congratulations on your baby Toby! I understand not wanting to get another little girl, and it sounds as though he is fitting in perfectly! I know the feeling of being worried after an accident -- to this day I am still overly protective (somewhat paranoid) and I worry so much. I find myself checking and double checking my girls all the time. I guess its just part of being a furmom though LOL. When we adopted our Yorkie, Oli, I constantly called her October. And sometimes, I still slip up. They remind me of one another.

Don't feel bad for feeling better! You deserve to smile again and be happy! I know that Marley would also want you to be doing well. I am so glad to hear that you are doing better. Every day you'll continue to get better and it will be a little easier. Hugs to you!!! :)

dog
 

I am so sad your little Marley is not with you. Sure wish I knew why accidents have to happen and why our dear Yorkies are taken sometimes so soon. Every time I hand one of my precious dogs over to the Lord I cry for a long time. I am comforted knowing that He sees all and that not a bird falls to the ground that the Lord doesn't know about it. Marley is there with my Teddy who left us too soon. I will always tear up when I think of him. he was the neatest lil ball chaser and friend. I know I have to give back the gifts I am given in this life, my family, friends and pets. I also know the love I have been given from them will never go away and one day I will be heading to heaven and see them all again. My hope is strong, even though my heart is sad.