My heart is aching for you. I lost my baby April last week - to fish so emotional. I'm so blessed I found this website. Thank you God. Rosie is playing with my April. I'm hurting so much I can't talk about April ( yet). I should be getting her ashes in the afternoon. I don't know how I'm going to feel.

I am so sorry, I have tears in my eyes - prayers for Rosie & you

Sending hugs your way. It truly is one of the hardest things to get over and just takes time.

Thank you for sharing this last day with Rosie with us. She had a wonderful life with you and Tony and Luma.

I am SO sorry for your loss. That is terribly sad. :( My heart is broken for you, your fiance and Luma. (((HUGS))) RIP sweet Rosie.

Carmen I think about you often, I am so sad to hear how you are doing, but when you love like you do with every fiber of your body it hurts so much. Unfortunately not everyone outside of yorkie talk understands that losing a pet is often worse than loosing some human family members. Hopefully at work they are understanding because it will take you a while to be able to get through the day without crying, I know it must feel like you will never heal but each day will eventually get better. My mom has asked me several times why I keep getting a pet because eventually they will pass and I will be once again devastated and heartbroken, but then I think that the love and good times was so worth it that I know in spite of the pain that my life for what ever time I had with a beloved pet was so much fuller because of it. It will be harder with Rosie since she did not live out her full life but it sounds like she packed a hell of a lot into it and has left quite a legacy. I pray that each day you grow a little stronger.

I'm so sorry for your loss. She was beautiful. She will RIP in a beautiful meadow running and sniffing everything she could ever want. :(

I'm so sorry to hear of Rosie's passing. I can tell she was really loved and that she had a happy life with you and your family. She was a beautiful girl. She will always be in your hearts. Rest in peace sweet Rosie.

What we have once enjoyed
we can never lose;
All that we love deeply,
becomes a part of us.
-Helen Keller

I think of you so much, Carmen. Beautiful Rosie will forever be a soft spot in your heart. I am deeply sorry for your loss.

I can hardly believe today marks 2 weeks. Everything I look at reminds me of my baby. Tony seems like he's "moved on" and sometimes I get upset with him because I am quietly grieving and he's doing something else. He doesn't let it consume him like I tend to...But he says she's constantly on his mind too. I feel like sometimes he acts like she never existed. I know it's part of moving on, but I'm not 100% ready to. I feel like I've still been holding onto the same tiny shred of hope I had the night she got sick...that she'd come home and be okay.

The day after she died, for some idiot reason, I thought it'd be a good idea to bring Luma to the dogpark. Well...the second we got there a girl on the big dog side was yelling at her dog over and over...the dog's name was Rosie. I had to turn around and leave and we haven't been back since. Her food and water bowl still sit on the floor in our kitchen next to Luma's. Her miniscule size 1 Buddybelt still hangs on its hook by the door. I was cleaning my purse out at work and found her dog tags at the bottom. I went out with friends and kept accidentally saying "my dogs", "they", "them". I finally changed my yorkietalk signature...even THAT was emotionally draining. :\

I've cried every day for 2 weeks straight. At first it was big, complete emotional breakdowns. Then it was anytime I'd see something of hers. Now I miss her every second of the day but only let out a few tears. Today my ipod was on shuffle and the "One More Day" by Diamond Rio came on. I started crying, thinking how badly I wish I could hold her just *one more time*, but I know it'd never be enough. Then as if God knew I needed a sign "Already There" came on. It reminded me that even though I miss her so much, she's still around. Just listen to the lyrics of that song...that's how I think of Rosie now. All around me, in the sunshine, in the wind, in my heartbeat. I'm crying as I type but it's happy tears right now.

Everyone who has kept us in your prayers, they are working :love: and I appreciate it so much. Every day someone has checked up on me when I needed it most. I wish I could hug each one of yall. Love you.

P.S. Thank you to my sweet Luma for understanding me competely and putting up with the even-tighter-than-usual hugs, the constant crying, the lack of dog park, etc. She's been a BLESSING. I can't forget that while I lost one of my sweet girls I still thankfully have Luma. We have such a special connection, one that has helped me so much these past weeks. She's always there to lick my tears away and she's been extra nice to me lately. Likewise I am sure she appreciates the little bit of extra food in the bowl, the naps on the couch together, and the extra car rides she has gotten in return. :)

Oh dear Carmen, my heart aches for you. I know it is so hard and you have got a long way to go in the grieving process. Guys are wired differently that we are, so don't fault Tony too much for handling his grief inwardly and differently.

It just takes time, so let those tears flow, smile when you can, and keep lovin on sweet Luma, and letting her support you.

It has only been 2 weeks, and that is barely enough time to come out of the shock of it all.

It is 3 months since I lost Meika, and I still have things that trigger a big ole crying session, and some days that I can't think of anything else.

Hugs to you.

Grieving for April ( my yorkie)
 

Dear Carmen-

My is right there with you. I miss my April so much. It just beaks my heart. Audrey ( my other doggie) we can't seem to pull it together - we are trying everyday. There is not a day that goes by I miss my beloved April. I want to make sure pet owners are aware of "collapsed trachea" in small dogs! They must have harnesses.

I'm praying for us to heal. There I go crying again!

Thank you Yorkie Family! You are a blessings!
April and Audrey mommie!
Elsa

I'm so sorry Carmen. Reading this thread has really made the tears start welling up. I still remember your beautiful photos of Rosie and Luma at Texas A&M. It just seems so unfair to see her gone so young. :(

I went through some of the same feelings of guilt you did with Rosie. For a couple of months I'd always be thinking 'how could I not see it with Minnie'. And I'd beat myself up for noticing her athleticism and speed had dipped a bit. And then things came crashing down all at once like with Rosie (except it was kidney problems with Minnie). It just seems so natural that we have to have someone to blame when something bad happens, and who better to blame than ourselves? Well, that's garbage. We both loved our pups so dearly and both would have done anything for them. It's always so easy to know things once they're in the past.

It's definitely not good to hold in this kind of sorrow, so it's good you can cry and can come here and talk about Rosie. It just has to hurt this bad to lose someone you love so much. I wish I could tell you a way to dull the pain, but the only thing that works is time, where one can see the bigger picture and start to appreciate all the great times together.

Sending virtual hugs, Carmen, Tony, and Luma.

You know how when you dream you usually just know the people in the dream but you don't remember actually seeing their faces?

I woke up this morning crying and had to tell my fiance immediately. Rosie visited me in my dreams last night! In the dream, I was very aware that she was dead, but for some reason she had come to see me...I just held her, kissed and pet her, and I remember her face so clearly. I remember how soft and warm her hair was between my fingers. I remember her eyes looking right into mine. It was very, very real and vivid and perfect. This was my favorite dream I've ever had, hands down. :)