Thank you
 

so much for taking the time to respond to my pain. We talked it out and everything is worked out. I woke up at 2:30 this morning crying again and reliving that last day but then Mickey came up and snuggled into my neck and he calmed me down. I thank God for sending him to me like he did. I know the pain will lessen one of these days and will become fun again.

Again I thank you for your response.

Sending you hugs and puppy kisses

So sorry for the loss of lil Dudley, but so very, very happy that you have a new baby in your life. I had to put down my 17 y/o girl Oct.1, 2013. It was sudden and unexpected. It felt like someone put a knife through my heart, the pain was so intense. I swore no more pups for me, in the past Ihad to put down several babies, loosing them never gets easy. I am getting older, loosing a baby is getting to over whelming. I was sick for 6 weeks, cried for 6 weeks, could not drive my car for 6 weeks, I was a hazard on the road. My mind would drift back to the day I received the call from my vet saying I have to come in and say my good byes, Matese has to be put down, I would see me holding my lil girl that was in much pain, I held her tight and whispered in her ear she was a good girl and momma loves her. The tech gave her the injection that ended her pain and her life. I would have to pull off the road because I would be crying and couldn't see the road, so I would have to come back home. The house felt so empty, my life was so empty. 6 weeks after having to put her down I received a call from my vet saying the just received a male surrender yorkie. I told her I didn't want a male, gave her all the reasons why I didn't want another dog. She said "just come to see him, there's something about him that reminds me of Matese" I asked what that was,she said his ears, Matese had the biggest,most beautiful ears. I didn't want another dog, but, I didn't want to hurt my vets feelings, she was thoughtful of thinking of me when she saw this lil boy. I knew I would never have a male dog, and felt it was sage to "just go see this dog" Well I went, I saw, I adopted, he came home with me that day. He has helped me cope with the loss of my lil girl, on days when I cry for her he feels my pain, he jumps on my lap and gives me yorkie kisses and puts the smile back on my face. There are no 2 yorkies alike, they all have their own silly quirks and personality. Bringing Cody home has made my house a home again, put love back into my empty heart. I have NEVER compared one yorkie to a past baby. This lil boy rescued me, not me hm. He is a true blessing. Your new baby will do the same for you, I am so very, very happy you took this new baby into your life. I know what bringing Cody into my life has done for me, and I know what this lil baby will do for you.

A lot of times we just don't know what to say when a friend is dealing with such grief. I'm sure I have said dumb things like that and I have had them said to me too.

Can you tell us some more about Dudley? What's the one thing you love most about him? What was his favorite thing to do? Did he have a favorite spot to hang out? Was he a barker or a love-bug? Or both? Can you tell us a funny story about him?

He wa a little
 

3 pound ball of fire. He had the greatest personality I ever saw. He would want to play ball with you and then after you threw the ball he would look at you as if to say Well go get it. He wasn't much of a barker at all. He would bark if someone came to the house but then he was quiet. He loved everyone but not so much other dogs. He loved Mitchell, his poodle brother, and would give him kisses, which Mitchell did NOT appreciate. He would lay on my lap all morning and nap but all afternoon and evening he was on the go, a mile a minute until bed time. He was such a lover to me and when he was sick he would come over to me and look at me as if to say, Fix it Mommy. He had some trouble with his esophagus and I would have to squirt water down his throat to clear the obstruction and then he would be fine. He never failed to come to me so I could see he was in trouble. He would only play with yellow toys. I would buy him really cute toys but if they weren't yellow, don't even bother. He would only eat rolled food from Natural Balance and nothing else. Even when he was dying he would eat that and nothing else. He was clear down to 2 3/4 pounds when he passed away in my arms. I lost my best friend that day. That is part of what I remember. He made me laugh every day with his little antics. I see a lot of that same personality in my puppy Mickey so I pray he will be mine for a long while longer. Thank you for asking. His favorite place to hang out was in the sunny corner of my patio. I put his little stone marker there to remember him lying there.

Yellow toys? Oh wow, that is hilarious! Beautiful that you put a marker in Dudley's spot. I buried Minnie in her favorite spot she liked to dig for grubs to eat. Minnie had a spot on top of the couch she always hung out in, and for the longest time I'd go just look at her little indentation she left there from always hanging out there. It's weird, Cook likes the edges of the top of the couch while Minnie always wanted the center.

It is almost 6 months since I lost my baby. I still miss him and cry sometimes because I can remember something that he did. I hope he is resting in peace. Lord knows he had a lot of pain here....

It'll take some time. Take all the time you need. I occasionally think about Duke, a lab, passed about 18 years ago. I was lucky to have him for about a decade. Memories of his antics or achievements always bring a smile to my face.

I am just seeing this and I can relate to the pain of your loss. Like others have said, it will take time and that time is not easy but try to keep the happy thoughts that made you laugh then and make you smile now.

RIP Dudley.:aimeeyork