It's been 4 years today
 

Heidi it's been 4 yrs today and my heart is still breaking. You were my soul mate and companion and I miss you so very much. You loved me through the good times and bad and never once judged me and I miss you so much. I looked for a puppy for two years before I found you and when I saw you it was instant love. At 7 weeks you were so tiny and beautiful and you laid your little head on my shoulder for the long drive home. I remember you started squirming right before I got home and I knew you had to potty but I thought you could make it the few last miles. Poor little girl you peed all over my shirt but I didn't care you already had my heart. You slept right beside me every night of your life and if I would have stayed in bed all day long so would you. And remember when we would slow dance around the room. And oh my goodness how many miles during those almost eighteen years have I rocked you -- too many to count. It was an honor to be your mama for all those years and I thank God that he lent you to me for that long. You were my love and my life and there will never be another that could take your place. Sometimes I feel so guilty because I do love Elsy, Izzie and McKenzie but it's a different kind of love. I just don't have the same kind of bond with them that you and I had.
You still sleep beside the bed in your little urn wrapped in your favorite blanket and you will go with me when my time comes and I know one of these days we will be together again at last. Until then be with your special dad until I come for you. I love you my Angel.

it is really hard to lose those special fur babies

Wow. What a moving post! It's filled with so much love it moved me to tears. Sounds like you were both lucky to have each other.

Crying here too for your love and loss, sending Hugs your way...

What a lovely tribute to your sweet Hedi. I smiled picturing you slow dancing together. They truly are gifts to our hearts.

That is so sweet. What a gift to have had each other.

Thanks so much for everyone's comments and understanding. It's so comforting to know there are others out there that love there babies as much as I do.

Your love for her shines through your words. You've given her a beautiful memorium.

What a beautiful note to your girl. I can totally relate as I lost my heart dog back in 2006 and I still cry all the time from missing her.

You were so blessed to have that love and bond in your life. As you have proven in your letter to her, she is always with you. In your memories and in your heart. Hold onto that. Hugs!

Just to say my heart breaks with you as I read your loving memories of your little one. I lost my little one in June and I find my self reaching in the night still over and over for her and the tears begin. The Lord is good he entrusted me with her little 3 pd self. So full of tenacity and kisses. I weep with you and the Lord knows how our heart crys. He does bring others with precious ways,not replacing but soothing the painful times with thier faces and sounds, all his handiworks too! He brought me my little boy Tosh full of tenderness and kisses. He comforted me from the very day he came he seem to know my heart was crying. No words could tell him but he knew. Be blessed dear friend the Lord is sending comfort.

What sweet memories. We got a new puppy, Ripley, soon after we lost our Presley. I sometimes feel guilty for wanting to love her as much as I did Presley.

Thinking of you Ann you are such a wonderful loving person..I feel so blessed to have you own my little Elsy, big hugs to you both

Such beautiful words. In reading them I could feel how much you loved your baby, and still do. We always miss our babies that have gone on. Time doesn't take away the pain, and sometimes it doesn't make things any easier but it does make things different. It will be one year in April that I lost my precious Yorkie, October. It is still difficult, and I miss her everyday, but I know I will see her again just as you will see your sweet Heidi. Hugs to you!

Wow I am in tears reading this and what a great love you had for your baby.I lost my Keally January 26,2010 and still have her in my mind and heart everyday.We will never forget are fur babe kids and I always say I will see Keally again.Sending a big hug your way and a lick across your cheek from my Kinder.Susan

That is so touching. I'm happy that you had many beautiful years with your little Angel.