Thank you, for your kind words. I long for the day, when I am with my sweet girls again.

They are in my thoughts every day.

Sheila

Thank you, Kathy.

When Sydney died, I crawled into bed for two months. I couldn't do anything but cry, or sleep through the pain. And every Thursday for the 1st year, the depression began all over again. It was the 1st day she refused to eat. And I was in bed for 4 days.

Then, it finally went down to one weekend a month.

But I still break down over Sydney.

Kia was also grieving. She didn't remember a life without Sydney.

So, the two of us, clung to each other.

And now, I am back in that same deep, dark hole of depression.

You are so right, there is no "getting over" losing our Yorkies.

I still don't leave the house, except to go to the doctor or hospital for tests.

My MS progressed again, when my little Kia died.

I think, in time, I will find another little girl to love.

My heart, "beats Yorkie".

People say, "Dogs need us", but I believe, we need them.

Thank you for understanding, so well, what I am feeling, Kathy.

Hugs,
Sheila

I am just so sorry. Have tears running down my face. I know I will have a broken heart in the near future since my Rosie is going downhill. These little tiny creatures add so much to our lives but take so much away when they leave. Blessings. ~Joanne~

Thank you so much. Kia was truly a beautiful little girl. Inside and out. And the pain of losing both, Sydney & Kia has devastated me.
I am so sorry that you have also lost a fur-baby.
I feel like my life has been destroyed.

It does help to know that so many people understand how I feel.

Thank you for praying for me.

I hope one day, I will find another little girl to love, and she will have her own place in my heart.

Hugs,
Sheila

I know your babies must have helped you through some tough times. The beauty of it is that they almost certainly were helped through tough times from your love too. I think it's every bit as good for them as it for us, and that's saying a lot since our sweethearts bring us so much love and companionship. The pain of losing them is the price I guess we have to pay to love someone so much. I think we both came out ahead even though the loss is so deeply hurtful though. Thank you Sydney and Kia and also thank you Sheila for bringing joy to this Earth.

Joanne,

Thank you. I pray that your Rosie will live a lot longer. These beautiful little angels do not live long enough.

I am so lost without my little Kia.

Hugs,
Sheila

Thank you, Susan. I think it may be a long time before I am ready for another puppy. I am up and down with my grief. I know I will never love another Yorkie the way I loved my Sydney and my Kia. 17 years is a long time. But I know if and when the day comes, I will love another, just differently.

I am so glad that you have Kinder.

It's only been 3 months on the 28th, and it took me two years to be able to look at pictures of Sydney.

Sheila

Yes, my babies truly did help me through some very tough times. My Sydney always knew when my MS nerve pain was really bad, and she'd press her little body against my spine. And Kia slept on my pillow, and when I woke in the night, in pain, she would give me tiny Yorkie Kisses.

Losing them is a high price to pay. But you are right, it is the price we have to pay, when we love someone so much.

Yes, we both came out ahead even though the loss is so extremely painful.

Thank you for your very kind words.

Sheila

Sheila, my dear friend,
I think about you so often. You know how special you are to me and I am so sorry you are grieving so. It just isn't fair to loose both of your babies in that manner.

Your are one of the best Yorkie moms I have ever met and it would be a tragedy if you never owned another one.

You know from experience that one doesn't replace another but another one will expand the love in your heart. When you are ready, when it is time, you will know.

Hugs sweet lady! I miss seeing you on FB

Lou

Oh Sheila,
So sorry to hear about your loss. You are so right - Yorkie love is the key!
When I lost my Puddin' it ripped my heart out and I said never again - 4 months later Cali came into my life and and it was like life had been renewed ! Find a little girl to love when you are ready to give all your love again.

Best
Jay

I am so very sorry for your loss...
 

My heart aches for you. I am so sorry for your loss. I know exactly how you feel. I lost my precious October in April. It was an accident and happened suddenly. I've never felt so much pain in my whole life. I have never experienced such sadness, grief and sorrow. She was my angel. I have three Chihuahuas, but October was my precious baby girl.

She was with me day and night. I only work 2 days a week, but when I do, she was always with me. On vacations - she was there. Everywhere I was, October was also. So learning to live life without her is devastating and SO hard. I can't even explain how painful it is. The only thing that has gotten me through is the strength the Lord has given me.

I am so sorry that you lost your precious little one. I cannot say how sorry I am. I feel your heart ache and your loss. I am just so very sorry.

Hi, Lou, my sweet friend,

I think of you very often, too.

No, it really isn't fair that I lost both my sweet girls that way, and with Kia, it needn't have happened. My Vet let her down, when she needed him most.

Thank you, my girls brought out the best in me.

I hope someday, to find another baby to love, but my girls are a tough act to follow.

Yesterday, it was 3 months, since I held my tiny Kia in my hands, and she took her final breathe.

I miss you on Facebook, too-watch for a "Friend Request" ;)

(((HUGS)))
Sheila

Thank you for your heartfelt words. I am so sorry that you lost your precious little October.

When we lose them so suddenly, the grief is unbearable.

My Kia was a "Mama's Baby", like your October. She slept on my pillow, and one of her little beds was in my bathroom, because I couldn't even shower without her wanting to be in the bathroom.

I am still not adjusted to living without her, or Sydney.

The house is so quiet & empty.

I do understand your pain, because I am living it.

We bought our travel trailer, so our girls could go everywhere with us.

Now, we are selling it, because the mere thought of a trip, brings on too many memories.

I don't think we ever get over the pain, we just learn to live with it.

You are not alone
 

Sheila,

I am so very sorry, I know completely and fully how you feel. My October couldn't bear the thoughts of being without me either, so she was always in my bathroom as I got ready each day. She would lay right on my robe and anxiously await as I stepped out of the tub every morning. Often, I would peek around the shower curtain just to see what she was up to while she waited. And every time...she was there. She was everywhere her mommy was. And my love for her was so deep as was her love for me. The bond we have with our angels is absolutely amazing and one words cannot accurately describe.

It is so hard, and indescribable, when we lose our precious babies. I had a melt down last night (as I do often still) and I simply prayed and asked God to be my strength, because my strength is always insufficient. And I take it moment by moment. Trying to face it day by day is too draining for me, so I take it little by little.

The re-adjusting to losing our babies is one of the hardest things to try and do (I still can't believe I am saying this, because I still can't believe October is not here with me as I type this). Our home is not the same without our baby girl - my husband and I talked about this (for the millionth time) again last night. Her portrait (we had painted of her and our other babies) still hangs over our sofa in our living room and I will never take it down.

Life will never be the same without precious October and precious Kia, or sweet Sydney - never - so trying to live without them leaves a void. Life will always be different from this point on, and it is so hard. So you are right, the pain does not go away and the loss does not go away - and
learning to live with it is the most difficult thing. It is, in fact, the hardest thing I have ever had to face.

It is so real, so painful and unbearable. Its as though you feel there is a weight and it is SO heavy on your shoulders and it will not leave. At times, it takes your breath away. And a piece of you is missing. It is so hard.

I have a video that I'd like to share with you, it really helped me. I'm getting ready to leave to take my baby Oli to drop her off at the vet for her dental (nervous wreck) but when I get back I will send you a link. It was comforting to me, so maybe it will be to you as well.

I will pray for you today.

I am just so sorry for your loss. Know I am right there with you and you are not alone.

So sorry for you loss................

Hope for those who have lost loved ones
 

Sheila,

Here is the message I was referring to earlier this morning. It truly helped me in the beginning and continues to help me still. I encourage you to listen to it. It is a sermon by Greg Laurie after he lost his 33 year old son in a car accident.

To some people it is crazy, but when we lose our fur kids, it is losing a family member - so I feel this message is appropriate.

There is also a part 2 to this message and you can find it on Harvest.org or I can send you a link if you'd like.

This message gives perspective to those of us who have lost those whom we have truly loved. I hope that it brings comfort to you.

"Hope for Those Who Have Lost Loved Ones -- I" ::: A New Beginning Radio ::: Harvest Ministries

Thank you, Jay.

My heart feels absolutely shattered. I feel that I have lost my purpose in life. I get up in the morning, and I don't know what I am supposed to do with myself.

I'm so glad Cali came into your life.

I hope a little girl will come into my life again.

Life without a Yorkie to love, is no life, at all.

Sheila

Thank you for posting the link to the sermon by Greg Laurie.

I know that many people think we are crazy, when we grieve so deeply when we lose our Yorkie-children. But, my girls truly were my children, and
I really needed them.

People say that dogs need us, but I believe, we need them.

My husband & I were so blessed when we lost Sydney. Our former Pastor at our church, spent a great deal of time with us, and our girls, and he understood our grief, and reassured me that I would see my sweet girl again, in Heaven.

I am so sorry for your loss, can imagine the pain you feel ):

You are right, we will see them again!
 

It is such a deep, painful hurt. One that cannot be described. Dogs are wonderful gifts from the Lord. They reflect perfectly His love for us. They love us no matter what, they miss us when we are away (even if only for a moment), they forgive us immediately and they are always always there for us. A perfect reflection of God's love.

And that constant love that we receive from them makes it that much harder when we lose them. Because that love that they gave to us so freely is no longer there. And it hurts so desperately.

My husband and I don't have children, so our furbabies are our kids. And like your precious Kia and Sydney - my October was my most precious little girl. I visited her grave today for the first time since her burial. I cried and prayed, and prayed some more. I wish I could have just dove down in there to get her and then I realize only her body is there. Her spirit is with her Creator in heaven.

All through the Bible we find God's love for His creation and all of His creation was created not for only a short time, but for His eternal purpose. Knowing I will see my sweet October again gives me a peace in which I don't understand. Revelation 5:13 speaks of heaven when it says, "Then I heard every creature in heaven and on earth and under the earth and on the sea, and all that is in them, saying: "To him who sits on the throne and to the Lamb be praise and honor and glory and power, for ever and ever!" Every creature! How comforting.

Shortly after October went to be with the Lord, I saw a rainbow over our home. I remember thinking, "I wonder if October sees that rainbow?" Then, the very next day I read these verses in Genesis 9:8-17:

Then God said to Noah and to his sons with him: “I now establish my covenant with you and with your descendants after you and with every living creature that was with you—the birds, the livestock and all the wild animals, all those that came out of the ark with you—every living creature on earth. I establish my covenant with you: Never again will all life be destroyed by the waters of a flood; never again will there be a flood to destroy the earth.”

And God said, “This is the sign of the covenant I am making between me and you and every living creature with you, a covenant for all generations to come: I have set my rainbow in the clouds, and it will be the sign of the covenant between me and the earth. Whenever I bring clouds over the earth and the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will remember my covenant between me and you and all living creatures of every kind. Never again will the waters become a flood to destroy all life. Whenever the rainbow appears in the clouds, I will see it and remember the everlasting covenant between God and all living creatures of every kind on the earth.”

So God said to Noah, “This is the sign of the covenant I have established between me and all life on the earth.”

Amazing! Over and over we hear the Lord God speak of His covenant not only with the human race, but with all living creatures! That means our precious babies! I've read those verses over and over in the past, but never did they speak to me like they did when I lost October. To know that the Lord also made a covenant with them as well. Truly a magnificent truth. It has comforted me.

There is one more thing I'd like to share with you that also brought me comfort; it is about a 15 minute youtube video. It is so wonderful about explaining God's love for His animals. You can watch it here if you ever have a spare moment, it is so good - I will warn you, I had to have multiple tissues at the time.

It is interesting you mentioned your former pastor being there for you and your husband at your time of loss. My former pastor (before we moved and when I was younger) has also been there for me and my husband. He has a Yorkie (senior boy) and he's always had precious pets. He too believes they will be in heaven. And truthfully, one cannot read and believe God's Word and NOT believe they will be there! They will be there and they will praise Him with us! And we will be so happy to be reunited and praise the Lord together. Seems so far away, but its not really - life is so short. I realize that now more than ever.

I am sorry this post is so long, but I just want you to know that I feel your unbelievable pain and sorrow. The greiving process is one that is not easy, its one that is not easily explicable and its one that has no time table. Please know I am right here with you in this great time of sadness and hurt and pain. I am just so sorry.

Thank you, Stephanie. Ever since Kia died, I wake up around 3:00 a.m. every morning so depressed.

Sheila

Your post is so beautiful, and so very true. Our precious Yorkies will truly be in Heaven, when we die.

Our Heavenly Father created them to be our companions.

He loves us so! Can you imagine, that He, would not allow us to be with our babies?

Life truly is short. I remember in elementary school, the Sisters of Nazareth, compared life on earth to a vacation, compared to Eternity.

(((HUGS)))
Sheila

Thank you so much...for such a tiny girl, she has left a huge void in my life.

Sheila

You are so right, Sheila. He would never allow us to love something so deeply if their lives here on earth were all there is to it. They have an eternal purpose. All good and perfect things (especially love) are from God. So I know that we will see our baby Yorkies again. If there is any peace that can be found - that is one I cling to. Why in the world wouldn't they be there? He made them and He loves them. It makes heaven a lot sweeter to know they are there with the One who created them and where they will never again feel sadness or pain - and that we will see them again, sooner than we know.

Its just another reason that we have to look forward to being in heaven, to see those who we loved so dearly that went before us - and that most certainly includes our precious babies. It makes us want to be in heaven more because we have an investment there.

Like you, I've not been sleeping well at all. I wake up almost every hour on the dot and find it difficult to fall back asleep. Then when I do finally wake up fully for the day, the pain in my heart and the pain in my stomach is unreal. So I pray some more.

It is so hard to face this, but I am glad we don't have to face it alone.

Prayers and hugs to you, Sheila.

My former Pastor, and very dear friend, assured me that I willbe with my sweet girls in Heaven.

He told me that dogs have souls, but they are not like human souls.

I believe, they have perfect souls, because they would never treat a human, the way so any so-called human beings treat them, so inhumanely.

I am so sorry that you are also having trouble sleeping.

My MS is progressing due to the loss of my Kia. But, I would rather have my MS and still have my sweet girls with me.

No, thankfully, we don't have to face it alone. God carries us, at this time, when we cannot carry ourselves.

And there are so many members here in YT, that feel the same way that we feel.

You are also in my prayers.

(((HUGS)))
Sheila

Amen
 

Thankful for those wonderful godly men (and women) who truly read God's Word and know what He says about His creation. Grateful for your former pastor and those like him who give comfort to those who hurt. I agree with you 100% on the souls of our precious babies.

God has sure carried me - and He still does daily. It is just the most difficult thing I have ever experienced.

A dear friend of mine has MS, so while I can't fully understand how that makes you feel, I am familiar with how debiliating it can be. I will surely keep you in my prayers for that as well.

I would give anything if I could have my October back so I know how you feel about your precious angel girls. Maybe (if and when your heart is ready) you can give another sweet girl (or boy) a loving home. I know it may be too soon to even suggest and no little one will ever ever take Kia or Sydney's place, ever - but giving the same love to another Yorkie may be healing for you in some ways. I don't mean to say anything to upset you in regards to getting a new baby, but I know that you have so much love in your heart to give.

YT is a wonderful place where we can share one another's joys and sorrows. It is just so extraordinarily sad when it is the sorrows.

Prayed for you earlier and will continue to do so. Lots of love to you.

I agree, my husband & I thank God for our priests, that believe & teach God's Word.

This is my favorite poem.
The Official Footprints In The Sand Page

I'm very sorry that your friend has MS. It has changed our lives, completely.
Thank you for your prayers.

I hope to find another little girl. No, she won't take Sydney or Kia's place. But, she will have her own place in my heart.

Yes, YT is a wonderful place. Before I lost Sydney, I posted often.

But, it is sad, when there are so many heartbreaks.

Thank you for praying for me. I will continue to pray that your heart, heals.

I am so sorry for your loss

Sheila,

I also love that poem - it is so fitting. My mother-in-law gave me a matted and framed version after we lost October. I have it on our buffet so I can look at it daily. It is so true, that poem.

I am so glad you are open to finding another little girl - I know she will be loved beyond measure. I know some people may have thought it was too soon, but we adopted another little girl this month. I just could not bear the thought of not having a Yorkie in our home, even though I knew it would not be October. I was scared that I would compare her to October in every way. And in so many ways she does remind me of her, her little personality and small things she does - but she is so different too, but she is absolutely perfect and the Lord knew she was just what we needed. She is a little cuddle bug, just like my October.

I searched and searched and prayed God would allow us to have the one He had chosen. And after lots of visits with many different Yorkies (and just not feeling a connection with any of them, though they were so sweet), He finally answered our prayers (rather quickly) and our new girl came to us all the way from Colorado! We live in NC, and the lady flew her all the way here just so we could have her (she flew with her in cabin), so I know it was God's plan for us. And I am so thankful.

She is not October, and it does not make me miss October any less, but it is healing to have her new little Yorkie personality in our lives and in our home. In fact, it seems as though I miss October more every day. But our new little girl is so sweet and she needed a loving home and we are blessed to have her. She helps me and I am thankful God saw that it would be good for us to have her.

I did not post October's memorial here at YT, I wasn't sure if I could handle reading everyone's condolences. So as of yet I have not done so, I just don't think I am ready. Everyone is different I guess in how they handle grief and when they feel ready to take a new step. It is so hard.

I want to thank you for your prayers as well - praying is the best thing we can do for one another. I am sorry I've written so much, I know you probably don't feel like reading all of my long posts. But I hope you know I will keep praying for you. Love, hugs and prayers to you.

Michele