When all you have left is memories and pictures...
 

I just lost my 4 yr. old baby Ace last Thursday on 7/19/21012. He passed away suddenly and unexpectedly. He had an obstruction and did not survive after his surgery. He ate a hairball half the size of a fist. I woke up today and the waves of loneliness washed over me again.
When I go downstairs, I see his little memorial we made for him and I think how unfair and cruel life can be. When you have the love of the best and most beautiful noble creature in the world and then it's ripped out from you, it's the worst. All I can see is his face looking so sad when we picked him up from the first vet then rushed him to the ER. He was looking at me from in side the cage, so sad. Hubby said he was disoriented from the morphine but I can't help but feel he think we left him. The idea of my baby being and pain and thinking we left him is unbearable.
On the way to the ER we told him how much we loved him and I kissed him. I didn't want him to think I was giving up on him so I didn't say goodbye and I didn't kiss him as much as I should have. I told him a big german shepard was moving down the street and he needed to get better to protect me,lol. Ace hated big dogs, was fearless. I wished I would've kissed him harder and more while I had the chance. If only i knew and could go back.
The emptiness in the house is bad. All we have left are memories and pictures, and videos which I can't yet look at. I know Ace is at peace but he didn't deserve any pain. If I could I would've taken his pain. I will show you guys more pictures of Ace when I get more familiar with this site. You will see how beautiful he was, well is.

Awesome...I'm sorry you lost your sweet little dog....bless your heart.

I am so sorry for your loss. I have had to put down 2 of my dogs in the last year so I know what you are going through

I am so sorry for the untimely loss of your Ace. Grieving is very difficult. Just know you did everything you could for him. One day you will be able to look at his pictures and videos and remember the good days. Hugs

I'm sure that little Ace knew how much you loved him. My thoughts and prayers are with you and you family and I'm so sorry that you lost your baby. Rest in peace sweet little baby.

It takes lots of time. The memories and videos help. I lost my precious Lexi a year ago June and her picture hangs over the fireplace. I talk to her lots and miss her so much. But am grateful for all the memories and the time I did have with her. It was way to short.
Sending prayers and hugs

I'm so very sorry for your loss. Ace knew how much you loved him and he loved you with all of his heart. Rest in peace, little one.

I'm so sorry for your loss. He will always be in your heart.:aimeeyork

I'm so sorry for your loss. You did everything you could, and your pup knew you were there for him. Here's hoping years of memories will help fill the hole in your heart.

So very sorry for your loss! It is obvious how loved your little one was! Give it time...you will come to a point that all your memories and pictures will become treasures to you and not be just a source of pain...

Im terribly sorry for your loss and your pain.

I posted on your other thread about the similar circumstances in which my Starr passed away. It really just takes time for the pain to lessen, and that time is different for everyone. She was the center of our universe as it sounds like Ace was in yours:love:

Again, I am so very sorry for your loss and pain:unlove: We surely understand!

I can feel your deep pain in your words. I'm so very sorry for your loss. We do understand.