Robin Lodal | 11-21-2011 05:48 PM | Sweet Dreams my sweet Ginger 4 Attachment(s) My lil sweet Gingy passed away on November 1. She somehow found a way to get out of our fenced in back yard (we still don't know how and have searched almost daily) and was hit by a car. We do not believe that she suffered because within literally seconds, we knew she was gone. I held her in my arms for hours, rocking her, kissing her, and singing to her. That day really was one of the hardest in my 27 years of life. My husband came home from work and took the day off. He was wonderful because he encouraged me to grieve however I needed to. He was my voice of reason when I begged to sleep with her that night, just to have one last night with her cuddled next to me. I insisted on getting blankets so I could stay warm (in the garage) with her. Just thinking of the desperation that I had that night tears me now. That wound is still so fresh. I stayed home for days, not talking to anyone but loving on the babies that I still have at home. Hubby told a few close friends and family because I was not able to talk about it within anyone for about a week. I just couldn't do it. I still cry because I want my baby back. We decided to get her cremated so that I could still have a sense that she is still with me. I miss her lil bark, her morning stretches and cute lil yawns after a nap. Her crazy hair after pulling out a pony tail, her tail that wagged so hard that her body went to and fro... and her expressive ears that made me giggle and her chasing me around the house while I clean and I know she is there because I feel tons of tiny wet licks on the back of my calves. The house is so different now, so much quieter. The dynamics have changed tremendously and hubby suggested adding another puppy to the mix to help cheer everyone in the house up.
Ginger will never be replaced. She is truly something special. She and my other babies have helped me through some dark times and I know that I haven't lost her, I know where she is. She will always be one of my babies. I am so blessed that God chose me to be her Mommy.
Sweet dreams my lil Gingy. Mommy and Daddy love you so much. Please visit me in my dreams lil girl. :aimeeyork |