You have been such a comfort here to people who have lost their babies. I have felt your presence here a great deal, and I know your words are healing to those who experience loss. You have such love for your little ones, and it's always heartwarming to read your posts. Not many people truly understand how much our little ones touch us, but I know coming here that people do. When I learned that Ashley had an enlarged heart, I thought for sure we would lose her as we did her sister Kiwi six month earlier to congestive heart failure. Ashley was a healthy little girl except for her heart and trachea issues. My vet encouraged me not to give up hope with her, and she remained very active and mostly healthy until a couple of days before she passed away. Just the week before her doctor remarked how strong her heart and lungs sounded. I'm glad Ashley's story is able to encourage your grandmother. I pray that both she and Ellie remain happy and healthy for a long time to come. It is amazing what you can overcome when love is involved. I hope for you that time will erase the painful memories or at least dull them significantly. I have things that haunt me also but I try to focus on the bond and love that lasts well beyond a lifetime. Your baby knew how much you love her and that you would have done anything to protect her from harm. As much as we try, we can't protect our loved ones from everything. I hope you feel comforted in knowing that you would go to the ends of the earth for your babies. You are doing everything in your power to help Zowi now as you did for Nika. I really admire you, and I hope you always can smile when you think of your little girl. I have thought of purple and pink roses since Tuesday. What a beautiful expression of love for your beautiful baby.