i got the number

Yaaaaaay!!!!

What Is going on??? I get a PM that she can't take her??? I am scared and worried. What do I tell Bill anD Buddy (SD)?

I want to try and explain
 

I didnt sleep at all last night. Thoughts of Gwen was with me all night long. Hubby came in and I told him all about YT railroad train and what all of you were doing for Gwen and me. I dont want you all to think My hubby's a meanie, because hes not hes the most sweetest caring person and imso Lucky to have him. Any ways he started asking me if I was sure I could be there 100% for Gwen, He said he knows she needs a good Loving home and we do have that, Me may not have a lot of money but Love we do have, and we love all animals. He said With me watching my Grandbaby 12 days and tending to Mickey and Minnie and a new baby on the way. That he thought I was putting to much on my plate.Ive lost 15 lbs and my back and arm is very bad and wanted me to really think about what I was doing, because If I couldnt be there for Gwen 100% then I shouldnt take her.and if this little girl needed medical care could we aford it? and what if Mickey and Minnie didnt want to share their mommy and we would have to once again rehome Gwen, He said for me to think about all that, He said to tell you how I feel Is I too would love to give her a home our home. But are you willing to put her thru it all again if it dont work out, and He said I doubt very much that Mickey and Minnie will be happy about her because their so jealous if anyone even gets by you. I cryed Happy tears last night and Sad tears today. I knew he was right so I called Suzanne and canceled the whole thing, then got on here trying to see if someone else wanted this little girl and trying to find Chachi phone number and all. I cryed and Hubby said if its going to hurt you that much then call her back and take her, He said he would help with what he could, So I called Suzanne back. then I really had to clear my head and think what is best for Gwen, Hubby was right..... So I talked to Suzanne again and I feel so bad for her She was crying and its all upset her bad, Its my fault. I know that. And all she asked was for me to say a prayer for her Little Gwen to find a good loving home, Neither of us could talk much after that so we hung up. I do know hubby would do any thing for me and is for anything that makes me Happy, and I know hes so right where would I find the time.and how could he help he works so many hrs now. I wish he would of been home last night so we could of talked before I posted the Railroad Help. Im sorry I let everyone here down, I really didnt mean too. I feel so bad and dont know if I can even show my face around here again. But I knew I had to come on and explain to all of you who put so much time and Prayers in on this whole Thing. and Most of all I want to say Im so sorry Gwen, I feel so bad. I never got to see you but I love you so much. I hope you all can forgive me.

Hugs Hun juts hugs.
 

I'm crying as I read this trust me the little ones with special needs are hard. trust me as we speak Mr J is in ICU at my vet do to having a grand mal last night. and again this morning.


Hugs and prayers for you and Gwen. Bless you and God hold you both close. Tyty

im SO sorry it didnt work out for you:(:(

It is okay. I think the wonderful thing about all of this is that we were able to pull together and find a way to make it happen. I do believe
Gwen may need some extra Vet care because of her legs and whoever adopts her needs to be prepared for that. I asked My Husband again about adopting her but he feels our home with a 6 yr old daughter in the home and other kids often in the house isnt an apropriate home for her. Someoone without kids and some resources to care for her will come along and adopt her.

I know you are heartsick.....
 

What a tough situation......I am sorry things did not work out.......maybe they will....

I'm so sorry, you really tried and had nothing but the best at heart. Maybe there is someone else in our midst that could take her, I sure hope so.

I'm just now seeing this whole thread & WOW!! WOW!! WOW!! You people on here are awesome!!.... Then I see she must decline Gwen, that's so sad.:cry: They say things work out for a reason..........I pray Gwen finds some one else that will adore & take care of her.

:ghug: :thumbup: For everyone here....I just know all your work & dedication won't be for nothing .:)

Debbie - your heart was in the right place - and this actually was a really good test in case we DO need to do a train in the future - I know Gwen will find a great home and everyone is here to make sure of that - I saw so many people jump in to help and just want to say the whole thing was just touching. I'm sorry it didn't work out but she WILL find a great home !!

It wouldn;t be fair to either of you to take her if you didn't feel 100% right about it. Please do not be afraid to show your face we would all miss you. You have nothing to be embarrassed about. I am a firm believer in going with your gut reaction. I will keep the stuff I was going to send and send it to whoever takes her on YT.

I talked to Bill he was really happy to do this and him or my step dad will help out if we need them again. maybe more notice next time.

Things do work out the way they do for a reason, and I am sure that the perfect person will find Gwen. Don't beat up on yourself, this was a hard decision you made, us women think with our heart a lot first before we rationalize things, be glad your husband was there to help you really think about it. It was a wonderful thing seeing how much people on here from all over this big world pulled together for someone in need. This forum has a bunch of caring people on it, and I am so glad I found it. A big thankyou to everyone that was willing to help Gwen out in what ever way they could.

Debbie, please don't feel badly for making a good decision! It shows much more love for one of these little ones to say no than to take them home and not be able to fulfill the committment to them. I know it hurts your heart but I believe you made a very wise decision for Gwen and when you married your wonderful, understanding husband! We love you here so don't you dare feel bad! ;)