|   | yorkieluvr2 | 11-14-2006 07:07 AM |  
 dealing with the loss
 
 We just lost a 5 month old chihuahua terrier mix puppy to anesthisia last month.  It nearly devastated us.  I felt so terrible as I was the one to take her in to be spayed that morning and never felt the least bit apprehensive about it...after all vets do this type surgery everyday and all is well, so I thought.  What made it even worse was just a few days before this my son had asked me did she have to have the surgery he was afraid they would fall in love with his little Princess and want to keep her for themselves.  I just smiled and said, "No Hon, they won't keep your baby but yes, they will fall in love with her...she was a real sweet little girl and so easy to train.  She had a lot of qualities that any dog owner would love.  She was healthy as far as we knew and very active and full of life. For the first 3-4 weeks after her death I would relive the vets phone call each and every day...I just could not come to grips with the idea that our Princess was gone.  I was rushed the day I took her into the next town over to the most competent vet I know.  I had my elderly mother with me and I didn't spend a lot of time with her like I usually did each morning.  She was very co-operative as I checked her in leaving her crate and blanket and favorite toy with her so she would have a familiar scent.  Mom and I went shopping and when I returned home I received a phone call from the vet saying he had just given her the anesthetic when her heart stopped.  He tried everything he knew to revive her but couldn't.  We brought her home and buried her under her favorite tree.  It was so very hard ..I couldn't eat for several days and all I could think of was, "I killed her."  My mother was so attached to Princess that she too was sick for many days.  I still have a hard time dealing with her loss but have gotten past the point of blaming myself.  She will always hold a special place in our hearts.  Now we have Teddy, we got him the same month and it has helped a great deal. I am however, apprehensive, about having him neutered.  For us getting another puppy to care for has helped us to heal.  Sorry for the long post...it also helps to talk about it and share experiences with others.
 
 Teddy's Mom says....
 
 :yorkiesar
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