Picking Up My New Yorkie - And Feeling Extremely Neurotic
 

I don't know how or where to begin with this. My sweet little Princess Sassypants, my Nibblet, crossed the Rainbow Bridge on May 1st. I was absolutely heartbroken (still am!). I didn't think I would get another Yorkie, but the house was so empty that I kind of/sort of started looking and found a breeder. I get to pick up my new yorkie this coming weekend. I feel confident about the breeder (KNOCK WOOD!); she has good references, answers all my questions, and has been very responsive.

So here's the neurotic part. I still blame myself for my sweet little girl crossing the Rainbow Bridge (She died in my arms suddenly at home.) She had problems with collapsing trachea since she was 8 y.o., but it was being managed (we did have a couple of scares), and she had just gotten testing for suspected Cushings and Addison's disease the week before. The vet (who had known her for years) said I shouldn't blame myself and that I did everything I could for her, but... I guess I have survivor's guilt. I keep going over things, trying to find out what I missed. She was 12, which I know is part of the life span, but still... It all happened so suddenly and on my watch, and I blame myself for it. If I was doing everything right, then why did she die?

It's been 12 years since I've had a puppy in the house, and I'm finding myself... Obsessing, I guess? Hyper-Careful? I'm a ball of nerves. Plus I feel like I'm being disloyal to my little buddy. She was my constant companion for so long! I've been watching all the YouTube videos, Googling Yorkie care, etc.

I guess this is more unloading than anything else. I just want to make sure I'm a good Yorkie mom. I want to make sure I do it right.

Congrats on your soon to be new baby. Your Nibblet will be in your heart, memories, thoughts forever, never to be forgotten. A new puppy will help you heal your loss. A new baby is always soooo exciting, don't forget to puppy proof your home. Get all wire and cables off the floor where baby can't reach them. And remember, if you can't see the baby, it's off making mischief some where lol.

Wishing you all the best