I'm devastated.
 

I have been a member here for more than 10 years and I have been able to gain so much information from this great group of people. I have not been active here in many years. Today I am here to report the loss of my baby, Cookie. She was fine but acting a bit strange at bedtime on Saturday. She was up and down all night but I didn't think anything of it because our other little one was also acting strange and it was getting ready to storm. When we got up Sunday morning we found vomit everywhere. There was so much. I immediately starting working to help her keep from getting dehydrated. No matter what I tried she just could not keep anything down. She kept hiding from me and appeared as if she just could not get comfortable. We took her to the emergency vet (over 2 hours away) and they gave her subcutaneous fluids and anti-nausea meds and told us she would be fine but to take her to her vet the next day if she did not seem any better. She did not seem to vomit any more but she was even more uncomfortable. She would not lay with me and we kept finding her hiding in the corner behind things and behind our couch. I decided to stay with her on the couch but she wanted our bed. I think I finally fell asleep around 3am and by 5am I just knew there was no way she was going to make it. Our vet opened at 8am and I just prayed that I could get her there in time. She whined and moaned. She was unable to walk more than a couple steps at a time. She was refusing liquids too. I just help her and talked to her, petting her to try and keep her calm. She laid her sweet little head on my shoulder and stayed that way until she was gone. I am so broken, empty, lonely. This is the hardest loss I have ever had in my entire lifetime. I want my baby back and I know I will never be able to have her back. I took the report from the emergency vet to our vet and they said she possibly would not have made it but it would have been better to put her on IV fluids. How do you move on after this? Is it right or even appropriate to get another puppy this soon? I know that Cookie loved me as much as I loved her. She was my sidekick. There was not a single minute that went by that I did not have her by my side. I have been working from home with the Covid stuff and she has her own special little place right next to me in my office where she would sleep most of the day and she would take breaks with me every hour for a short walk, and spend time on my lap playing with the kids over video (I am a child and family therapist). I was even contemplating taking her to work with me when we went back into the office. I'm so broken. I just don't know what to do.

I am so very sorry that you have lost your beloved companion! It is especially hard when it comes in such an unexpected manner, and we have no time to prepare. As a therapist, I am sure that you are aware that grieving will be a process which will take time, and offer many ups and downs along the way. Please take care of yourself!

That being said, your question regarding opening your heart to a new little one to love is one that only you can answer. I believe that there are two separate mindsets when this matter comes up. Some need time to heal before they can even contemplate adding a new member. Others, like me, cannot face grieving with "empty arms". I have always made the decision to bring a new baby into our family, not as a replacement for the one that I lost, but as a celebration of the love that having a sweet companion can bring. I still miss each and every one of the many furbabies that I have shared my life with, and shed a tear from time to time for those who have crossed the rainbow bridge.

I will warn you, however, that if you do bring a new member into your life, not everyone will understand. They may accuse you of "replacing" your beloved Cookie...but you know better than that! Make sure that you are truly ready if you are contemplating this move, take the time to feel (and not avoid) your sadness and grief from your loss, and be comforted by the fact that you will still be able to give and receive love as you move on.

You will be in my thoughts at this difficult time. Best wishes to you, whatever you decide! :love:

I am so very sorry for your loss. You have to decide what’s right for you on another pup.

I am very sorry for your loss. I had to put my baby down to weeks ago and she was my heart and soul. There is no right way to grieve you do what you feel is best for you.

I lost my first Yorkie at age 14. He was so sweet and so easy to train. He slept with us and was my protector. It was 3 years before I even thought of getting another fur baby. I decided i wanted another Yorkie but not another male. I didn't want to feel like I was replacing Teddy. I didn't want to compare the new puppy with Teddy in temperament or play things, etc. I found a little female Yorkie and I named her Gidget. She is nothing like Teddy. She's her own person. She doesn't like to play with toys (Teddy lived for play time). But she's the love of my life. She knows when I'm not feeling good and stays even closer to me than usual. So, when you're ready for another fur baby, you'll know the time is right.

I am so very sorry for the loss of your sweet baby. Everyone grieves in different ways, do for you what you feel is right. A new baby will help you heal the loss of your sweet Cookie. You can never replace a beloved companion, Cookie will be in your heart forever and, no two yorkies are alike, each have their own quirky lil personalities.

Keeping you in my thoughts and prayers to give you strength through this difficult time :love: (((hugs)))

i am so sorry for your lost it is hard to lose your best friend i also lost mij little girl 2 month ago

I am so very sorry. Sending deep sympathy.

My heart hurts for you‼️

Your story about little Cookie broke my heart. I'm so sorry. We understand what you are going through so know there is caring and support for you here. Time and grace will heal you one day. Take all the time you need to grieve your baby. It's a terrible loss and you never forget. One day hopefully your heart can accept the joy of another little one needing all your love very badly.

I'm so sorry you've lost your sweet baby, it is heart breaking. It happened so fast you are probably in shock as well as grieving. I'm sure you will figure out when the time is right to bring another baby into your life. Hugs.

It’s so hard to loose these little ones. This is why I like to have two, I couldn’t bear the quiet of none. Their is no right way to grieve, if you feel like another puppy will help you heal then get one.

so sad and sorry
 

I am so sorry for your loss! I understand completely, as our beloved little Graysee died from kidney disease on February 29 this year. I still cry over her; I miss her daily, even though we have fostered four dogs since then, but none will ever take the place of our sweet little Graysee. It will be hard to consider another dog, but I know that we need a little furball in our home to bring us the joy and companionship that we are missing. I believe that you will, too, in time. Allow yourself to grieve, and to cherish the memories.

Heartfelt condolences to you 😢