Hello.
First, so sorry you lost your baby after all your brave efforts.
Thanks for your understanding and empathy. I see how kind many have been to us here, so my faith is restored.
I see my little one sleeping close to me and praying he is healing. The thought of him being in a hospital cage with no one to love him is is not easy to bear at this time. Love as well as technical procedures is healing and my dog sure needs my love at this time.
Thank you for taking the time to reply and for your understanding. Hugs.

Don’t think that way, you wanted to do everything you could for a loved member of your family. I’m sure he knows how much you loved him and that you were trying to save him. Sending hugs.

Thank you both!! And this is the reason why I keep coming back to YT. If anyone understands how much we love our littles, it's this group!

dottiesyrky, I hope your baby continues to heal and is comfortable. I agree that the vet/animal hospital is not as warm or comforting as being in your own home, in your own bed, with your pet parent to care for you.

Dottie, I've been off YT last couple years, didn't see the thread your referencing so it's sad to hear that you've had pain from other YT members who've disagreed with your choices for your baby. I've always found you to be one of the kindest, gentlest, most genuinely good-hearted members on YT and can never repay you for all of the hours of time, kindness and support you gave me publicly and privately when I had Dx. of breast CA. 6 years ago. I will NEVER EVER be able to thank you enough for being my good, kind, caring online friend, so the idea of your hurting from upsetting, disagreeable posts directed your way naturally hurts me. Knowing your consciousness and responsible qualities, I can't conceive of you EVER knowingly failing to act appropriately and responsibly, all things - including considering your dog's psychological fear, pain & suffering - toward your beloved Yorkie baby and that all your actions would be based on what's overall in that baby's best interests.

Many people are quick to grow accusatory online if you don't immediately accept their advice. But their lack of a complete history that only you can know, such as the pain, fear and regression, loss of trust many dogs go through during long, painful, scary treatments. Most only see online that there is a suffering dog who is perhaps being denied what they consider 'proper' vetting and become overly concerned for the dog and can get pretty righteous in reply. And face it, online, many people can get outright critical and nasty.

The only thing you can do is know that only you, as a responsible, inherently inquisitive, endlessly-researching, responsible and loving dog owner. devoted to keeping your dog from suffering, fully bear his OVERALL wellness AND well-being as no other can and take any unreasonable criticism for what it is and move on past it. Try to know that if that member, who has perhaps hurt you with their attitude, were actually in your shoes with your knowledge of and full history with your dog, they would very likely underwrite your actions and behave differently toward you. And since they aren't and cannot know, try to understand they just don't know what they don't know. And the others that are just passive-aggressive nasty, ugly or mean, using online forums to vent their unhappiness, block and rock on - they really don't matter.

Here's hoping YT wisdom gives you the support you seek in the future but if not, you've always got the comfort and real courage of your own years of long experience and fully-researched, well-earned convictions to rely on. Those are mighty tools to have when all is said and done. Be well, dear Friend.

Susana, Kaji knew he was loved dearly. I have deep sympathy for you making the toughest choices imaginable.

That's always my conundrum. I worry so much that the pain, fear, anxiety, dread of what's about to happen & loss of trust that comes in the form of prolonged, painful and/or nauseating treatment, together with its sometimes awful side-effects, for a dog that cannot speak for itself, is sometimes worse than timely euthanasia. What would my dog want if he could talk? What would I do if it were me and my family and what would they want? That's the hardest question and weighing all that is always the first thing that comes up when faced with a very sick or injured dog. I'm all for shortening suffering if possible so I'm always first to vet and not shy about asking about pain/nausea/agonizing GI problems my dog is likely to suffer from any test or treatment suggested and how they are going to alleviate it, if they can.

Facing a suffering dog is the hardest part of owning a dog and who can self-righteously ever dictate to another what or how they should proceed with a very sick/injured dog other than get it out of its pain ASAP? All we can do is try to give our dogs the best dog's life they can have(means they live tail-up and happy) and if they can't have that, lovingly let them go. You did your best and what you thought was right to give your dog a happy, tail's up life.