| lisaly | 08-24-2010 06:19 PM |
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Originally Posted by lovmyyorkie
(Post 3249756)
....and I so look forward to that day Lisa :hug: I wanted to ask you if you were ready for a new baby but I was not sure if you would think I was being disrespectfully to the memory of the girl's, but honestly I think there are a lot Yorkies that need the love and kindness you and your husband have to offer.
So please don't deprive some lucky Yorkie much longer :cry2: some baby out there needs you and your husband......:blush: is it working are you out the door to look for your next lucky puppy?? :Puppy2: ...how about now?? :dogsm6:
| This really put a smile on my face and means so much to me. Thank you so much for caring and for what you said, Rosie. I don't think it is disrespectful at all to Ashley's memory or her sisters either. It is because we loved them so much that we would love to bring another little one into our lives. After losing Kiwi, we were very brokenhearted. It was a huge loss that was not expected, especially since after she had gotten sick, her doctor was able to pull her through and she had started getting stronger. Although Ashley was older by just a year, we knew that she would probably outlive our tiny little terror and love bug, Gracie. Gracie was otherwise a very healthy little girl who almost never got sick, but she had a collapsing trachea from the time we got her as a baby. We took so many precautions with her and knew how to spot any kind of distress, but it was only a matter of time before it was going to create a strain on her heart. Operating on her was not advised. Gracie was so full of love and life, and she lived it full speed ahead running around playing until the day she died. My husband, John, is convinced that Gracie died of a broken heart after losing the sister she idolized so, because she passed away just four months after Kiwi. Ashley had been raised with her sisters, and we thought it was better for her to have siblings, but we were too devastated after losing her sisters so close together. When my husband and I felt we were ready to bring another little one home, we thought it would have been too much of an adjustment for Ashley to have to share our attention again. She loved being the center of attention and being able to go everywhere with me when I wasn't working. We decided that it really needed to be what was best for Ashley. Our lives revolved around Ashley, but that is what we wanted. We were very grateful to have her in our lives for so long. We know she had a wonderful life, and she made ours seem like it was perfect. Knowing this still doesn't make losing her any easier. When the focus of your attention and love isn't there any longer, it's difficult to know how to live your life. Whatever decision we made seemed to focus on what would be best for Ashley, and now she's not here. We know the best thing to do would be to bring another one into our lives. We know we have enough love to share with another little one, most likely two. It won't change the way how much we love Ashley and her sisters or change the grief we feel. Living like this with so much emptiness just doesn't seem to be an option for us. I know every time I see a dog, it makes me happy, and John is the same way. That said, unfortunately we need to wait to bring another one into our lives. John fell in April and broke his arm in many places. It couldn’t be operated on because it was broken from the shoulder to the elbow. To be able to put a plate in surgically, you need solid bone to attach it to, which John doesn’t have at this point. We were hoping it would heal using a plastic orthotic brace holding it together, but it’s only working partly. We thought he was going to have surgery to repair it last month, but the shoulder, which is healing, isn’t strong enough yet for screws or a plate. At this point, surgery won’t be for at least another month or two. Still, we’re still praying for a bit of a miracle that it will heal on its own without surgery. We considered getting a puppy this summer when we realized John had to wait so much longer for surgery, since I am off for the summer and it's such a good time to really spend time with a puppy, but decided it was best to wait. John is always home, so when we are able to, a new puppy will be able to adjust without being left home alone. We are too afraid that it won’t be fair to a puppy at this point, though, and we think a puppy’s needs have to come before our own. As soon as we know when we can commit to bringing a puppy into our lives, we will be able to start to look for one. I'm sorry this is so long; you're probably sorry you asked the question. It’s so lonely without Ashley, but she’s still all around us. She and her sisters will always be loved and a part of our lives, even though they aren't physically with us. There will be a day, though, that we will be able to welcome new little ones into our lives and I will be overjoyed when I can share them here.
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