So sad, will I ever get over the fear of getting a new baby??
 

As some of ya'll know, I had gotten a new baby, and she was very ill and had to return her :( But I can't get out of my head and keep reliving each horrible moment I lived with her in the few hours I had her:( :( Like when I woke up after 3 hours of sleep and found her cold and almost dead:( :( . I can't forget:( :( Do ya'll think I will get over it??:( Even my husband is in shock to know I dont want another baby because I am so afraid:(.

I understand your pain and am so sorry you had to give your baby back... I think that anything can heal with time.... :)

Thanks, It is hard to understand how much I wanted a new babygirl:( :( and it turned into a nightmare:(

It hasn't been very long since it happened. In time you will probably feel better. I hope you are able to get a new baby and enjoy her. It is good you have your Husband to share it with. Feel better soon.

Aw Hon, what you are feeling is totally understandable. That image is still to fresh in your mind, so of course it puts that same feeling of apprehension in your head at the thought of going through that again. Give it time. Only you will know when you are ready to bring a new baby home. Please remember though, that as awful is it was, this was a one time experience that will not happen again. Concentrate on thinking of a happy, healthy baby that is in your future. Think of all the demented, glorious puppy moments like zoomies, chasing your toes, yapping at a toy, doing laps at top speed around anything and everything:animal37, bouncing into the air for no particular reason other than the utter joy of being a splendid baby Yorkie:woof:. Think of cuddles at night when all that energy is depleted:dogzzz:and waking up to sweet Yorkie, Puppy Breath kisses in the morning. That is what you must think of because that is what is in store for you when you try again. Trust me, it will happen.
Hugs to you;:ghug: I am so sorry you have gone through this,
Lauren

You've been through a very scary situation but you know you have learned form the experience. If you continue to fear getting a puppy why not think about an adult?

Yeah, you are right about the time, it hasn't been that long:( Maybe one day:(

Your pain will ease over time. I was there once too and a wise woman said to me think of all the love you have to share and the love that will be given in return.:animal-pa

OMG You are so nice:cry: :fallen: I am in tears:( Thanks for your kind words and for giving me hope in the future:(

Iam so sorry you are feeling so:( Only time can help ease you pain, I know how you feel, I have lost a babie before and its hard to except, I was scared to, but it did help me after all.

I am sorry for the pain you went thru. I would like to think when the time is right for you to get another baby you will know it in your heart. Time heals our pain and losses so take your time and know we are here for you thru this healing process.

Thank You ladies for understanding my feelings:( I can't help it, specially when I come into YT and see all the new babies, maybe I should not open those threads anymore............Maybe I am torturing myself:( :(

I can totally relate to how you are feeling......My best friend gave me a pup out of her yorkies litter...I named him Marshall after her....He was everything I ever wanted in a little Yorkie.....I had him 3 weeks and he had a seizure and died in my arms......I literally thought I was going to lose it.....It took time...I swore I would never get another yorkie or even a pup ever again....A couple months later....Hubby took me to see a girl that was for sale....I took one look at her and fell in love....But he said no.....She was dirty, smelly and he felt totally uncomfortable at the breeders...So we left.....While in the truck on the way home....(We drove about 4 hrs to go see her)....I got on the laptop and got on YT....I saw a post about 2 little boys......Called her and we went to see them...Brought Barney home....Went back 3 weeks later and got Benny.....So it does hurt and it does take time....But I promise you...The right one will come along...

It still hurts at times...My BF can't get over that I have the boys....She thought my Yorkie fever was over for sure....

So hang in there...It will get better



Joyce

Thanks that is a sad story with a beautiful perfect ending, maybe with time my heart will heal and I will find my baby girl somewhere.

I am sorry you went through this I couldn't imagine. I think time heals the heart, and too knowing that she had to go back to get better because she was sicky!! I sure hope that you can feel better and heal from your horrible experience. Sending you my best wishes and prayers!

You will see, it will happen exactly as I said. I know. I lost my little Tigger last year. The image of his death just about brought me to my knees. I could not even consider adopting another baby, the fear of losing one again was just too great. And then came my demented, wonderful, little Mango:animal36. Believe me, I checked her breeder out thoroughly, visited his house 3 times, met Mango's Sire and Dam, watched her develop and grow healthily for a month after I met her, before I was comfortable enough to bring her home with me for the first time. That way, I had the confidence of knowing she was a thriving, normally developing little puppy and it allowed me the peace of mind that I so needed, because I just knew I could not sustain another loss. Perhaps you should consider going this route when you are sufficiently healed - finding a local breeder whose litter you can watch carefully, so that you can adopt a baby with the same confidence I had with Mango.:)

Argh! I just put myself in your head. :sad:I know so much how you are feeling.... that image that you want to banish, but cannot yet:cry8:. Just concentrate on your other furbutts, and the happy picture of what awaits you in the future.
Hugs,:hug60:
Lauren

I know that had to have been an aweful experience for you :( and I'm sure it is hard to get over. But I also know you really wanted a new baby so bad before this. I hope you're able to get over it and get that baby you wanted. I'm so sorry you had to go through that experience. I think you were just so anxious to get a new baby and excited you found someone that you didn't take your time to check the breeder out well, and unfortunately she turned out to be a bad one. I think I saw that you said yourself that you just didn't see all the signs until after. I think we can be blinded sometimes when we see something that we want to be perfect. I think that even though this was aweful that it probably taught you to be more careful next time around. I think you'll know to take it slower this time and research the breeder and ask lots of questions first. A good breeder will get sell you a healthy puppy and be there for any concerns you have. I hope you're able to get over this eventually. I know it's hard. I would love to see you get a baby girl

Give yourself some time to mourn. Do you have a contract with the breeder to replace her or give you your money back? I'd take the money and go to a more reputable breeder. There's nothing like the love of a pup.

I am so sorry....:( .

I am so sorry you had to go through this. And shame on the breeder that put you through this!!:mad:

In time you will heal and when you are ready you will find your new perfect baby to love and spoil. Please don't give up hope, your baby is out there waiting for you and when the time is right and your heart is healed you will be introduced to each other.

Yes, you will get over it,well not get over it but move on. Everyone who owns a pet has some horror story in their life(especially if you've owned a lot of animals in your lifetime). I had to return a puppy this year and I practically had a nervous breakdown. I actually scared my dad calling him and crying so much because he thought I was always such a happy person.

I still miss that puppy, you will always have a special place in your heart for the one that was sick. You'll never forget her. But you'll heal and when you bring home the baby that was "meant" to be yours you'll love her so much and realize things happen for a reason.