I am so sorry for your loss and I can truly understand the pain you are feeling.
I lost my precious Rebel cat last year at this time, during the holidays, and I knew in my heart that it would be her last with us. She was with me for almost 19 years of my life... longer than any human or other pet. She had helped me through so many difficult and painful moments in my life and it just about killed me to know that I was losing her. I watched her fade slowly and waited for the moment that she would let me know that it was time. I struggled and worried that I would miss the sign and there for let her down, but one morning I looked into her eyes and it was unmistakeable what she wanted and needed me to do. Unfortunately my husband was out of town and I had to do this alone, but I soon realized that was the way it was meant to be. I was alone when she came into my life and perhaps that was the way it was supposed to be when she left. I miss her every single day and I swear there are days when I hear her distinct meow, or I see a shadow pass and I am almost positive that it is her. I don't think you will ever stop mourning your beloved pet, but rejoice in that ... because it is a reflection on your love shared and it is truly a blessing.

ryorkies, your story made me cry .... I hope i am as brave as your were when the time comes ... I really think it will break my heart in two ...
bless you ....

Your post made me all teary! :cry: I can definitely relate to what you're saying, I lost my Sebastian 5 years ago and rarely a day passes by without I think of him. Give yourself time, you have every right to be sad. Hang in there, it will get better with time but you can't really force it.

BIG HUGS to you!

I didn't lose a pet, but had to rehome one, and that's tough enough. I can't imagine what you're going through.

There are so many caring people here who can relate to your pain. Im sure it is hard on your Husband to see you so sad. It is an emotional time of year. I hope you find some comfort here.

I undertand, every pet is so different, just remember that Newman live for ever in your heart:aimeeyork

Elaine --

My heart goes out to you. I followed your Newman story and my heart broke for you.

We had to have our first Yorkie put down, too, due to cancer and it was one of the hardest things I've ever done. I still miss Scruff, but he wasn't the "velcro dog" that Ozzie is so it's impossible to really compare the two. But each of these little ones is their own personality. I didn't want another dog after Scruff, but Ozzie melted my heart and helped me heal. I hope that Lilly can do the same for you. After all, you rescued her … here's hoping she will rescue you right back. :)

I'm sorry your having such a rough time...We lost our Sheltie Mix last Christmas and it's been very hard without her. For 18 years she was the best girl anyone could have! I miss her every day but I know she's in a better place. Cody died of old age and will always be loved and missed but remember as long as you have their wonderful memories with you, your loved ones are never truly gone. God Bless you darlin' and I hope you get to feelin' better!

Elaine, I'm so sorry your heart still aches for Newman.
Yes, I rememer your thread when he was sick. The holiday's are
suppose to bring us cheer but it also brings back memories of those
who are no longer here to celebrate with us. It takes time for one's
heart to heal. It wonderful you have other fur-kids to keep you busy
and laughing but I know one can not replace another. All in good
time Elaine, all in good time. I promise it will get better.

I still miss all my babies. I have three at Rainbow Bridge. My first Peke a Poo...a little girl named Samantha. She's been gone almost 18 years. My second Peke a Poo a boy named Sammy. He's been gone about 4 and half years. And, my first Yorkie...a little girl named Bo...she's been gone more than two years now. Last year I got this little tree and I have pictures of them on it. Including the boy I have now. Thank God for him.

The ones you lose can never be replaced. But, the ones you still have can help so much. I don't know what I would do without my baby boy.

Sending prayers of comfort your way.

I am so sorry you are sad...your story made me cry too :( I hope time helps you heal...

I am sorry your having a hard day. I, too, followed your story about Newman and I am sure you do still grieve for him everyday. May each of your tomorrow\'s get a little easier in your remembrances of Newman. It makes me think of that poem, about not being truly gone when we are remembered. Big Hugs!!

Elaine, I cried with you when you lost Newman, and now my heart is sore for you again. It is so hard isn\'t it?
I pray your heart will heal.

Hugs,