loss of my Dezzy
 

Im new to this site and was interested on any helpful feedback on suffering from loss of a Yorkie.Actually it was very traumatic and Im having a hard time still.any tidbits of encouragement or opinions will be greatly appreciated.
My story is....
Aprox. 1-1/2 year ago my neighbor backed up over my Yorkie , of course leading to his death..Long story short is I have alot of pain and raged anger towards this person and the hardest part is I never heard "Im sorry"once.He took my child away.I know it was an accident but wouldnt you think he'd apologize??? I had to move since this and have gotten another Yorkie which I absolutely adore but this is haunting me.
I even spoke to a therapist and tried to accept but every so often I drive by the street, I want to confront him or beat him up.

Very sad and hurt...MY EARS ARE OPEN.???
Thank you

maybe I sound crazy here...
 

Hi,
I suffered the tragic loss of my 5 month old Yorkie 2 years ago. He died from ingesting rat poison. I have NO idea how or where he got into rat poison and I have/had my suspicions but nothing was ever confirmed. I had him creamated and have a little wooden urn with his pic on it, and his tiny paw print in clay.

I know the anger you feel from the senseless loss of your baby. I have sooo been there! Its horrible. However, holding onto that anger is only hurting yourself. So I say throw it out there, ask the universe to help you let go of the anger. Say out loud that you forgive the man for what he did. That it was an accident, that you have moved on to better times in your life and you are leaving this tragedy behind. Not your memories of your baby, but the tragedy itself. We will never be able to control or understand the actions of other people. We can only control our own reactions. Your anger and pain is not making any impact on anyone but yourself.

Write this guy a letter, let it all spill out, call him every name in the book, be nasty, angry, rude, condescending... read and re-read your letter.... then put it into your kitchen sink, light it on fire and burn it up. You will feel better getting all your emotions out in a non-destructive way.

You can't change what happened, and you can't change the guys reaction to it. Its up to you to let it go on your own so you don't carry this baggage around with you. Feel bad for the man who cannot be compassionate. He probably has no real joy or love in his life to have taught him the value of a unconditional love.

(((HUGS))) :)

this is the best peice of advice i have ever heard Celstu1 and it literally made me cry. i think everyone can relate to this in some way or another. thank you for sharing in such an eloquent way.

i am so sorry for your loss Vicky. :cry:

im so sorry for your loss. hugs to you. you can to the right place and
just want to welcome you with open arms..

My heart goes out to you both, praying things wil get better, the loss of a loved pet is one if the hardest things to deal with, I think we have all been there before:( I know i have, I guess time is the only answer, Im so sorry for your loss:(

many thanks
 

Thank you so much for your very kind note.It really did help!! I liked what you said about him not having or knowing unconditional love and that gave me some peace because I guess I never thought of it that way .I should feel sorry for him and he also has to live with the guilt.I moved and it hurt that he never made any attempt to apologize and that stinks but like ya said I can only control me and my thoughts and how I handle things.I know it is only hurting me.
It comes on stronger around holidays and bday etc and Halloween for some reason because my fiance' and I kinda joked that we could dress up in masks and just punch him once and maybe we'd feel better..Dont take that the wrong way, we wouldnt hurt anyone but we were both in so much pain and I was in shock watching the car go over him as I called his name..etc etc.
So it just instinctly wanted to put some pain on him.
I will go to a park one of these days or the woods and scream as hard as I can and then ask God to put some forgiveness in me.:)
Im so sorry about your baby too,Gosh that is so terrible.I am so paranoid with my new Yorkie now but loving her to pieces.Dezzy is buried at my new home(my fiance's house) under a tree he loved. God Bless you :) thanks again.

I am so terribly sorry for your loss. We had a similar accident that took our 13 yr. old poodle ... not a neighbor, Nicole ran into the street and it was unavoidable. The lady was as devistated as we were but even that didn't ease my grief. I cried every day for about two years for her and still do on occasion. For about 6 years I wouldn't even let my husband bring up the subject of another pet. I never, ever intended to love an animal that much again. Just look at my avatar!! That is what helped me more than anything else ... she is our joy! I still think of Nicole almost daily but her memory only helps me to appreciate every second with our Toto and reminds me that we aren't promised a single minute beyond the one we are living right now.

I want to welcome you here and will be praying that your heart will heal. God bless you.