Don't apologize for the way you feel...or question it. You lost something precious to you & you've got an empty place in your heart & home. Don't be surprised if your feelings change, that's all part of the grieving process. Your feelings show that you're a loving person who misses her best friend, Toby. Your heart will tell you what to do & when you're ready. You are a good Mommy & any furbaby would be glad to be yours.
CJ