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We brought Layla in this morning to be spayed. The vet is probably operating on her as I write this. I feel horrible. Layla kept kissing me this morning and I feel like I sent her to the executioners. I know this is the best thing for her. I trust my vet. But the waiting and not knowing is killing me.

I hope she's not scared or in too much pain. I'm not allowed to call until 3:00 which is around the time they think she will wake up. I have no idea how to stay sane & focused at work until 3pm.

I'm worried for Rylie to. This is the first day they have been apart since she came home 6 months ago. He probably trying to find her and he probably misses her.

Sigh. I'm such a worrywart.