[BellaWillow]

Dear Aubrey:

My heart continues to break for you as you mourn the loss of your sweet little baby Ella. There is not a day that hasn't went by that I haven't cried when I thought of the pain that you are going through. I wish I could say something to ease your pain . . . but all I can say is that we are all here for you Aubrey. We are here for you as you go through the grieving process of what was a terrible tragic horrific accident . . . but truly an accident.

All those crazy mixed up emotions you are feeling right now . . . the hatred . . . the guilt . . . the sorrow . . . honey they are all part of the natural grieving process . . . and it is so important that you continue to stay connected to the people that truly love you as you go through this. Will loves you Aubrey and I know that he is just as torn up with grief and guilt over this horrible tragedy as well. The anger that you feel toward him is part of the natural grieving process and you must let yourself go through it in order to heal.

Try not to be too hard on him Aubrey. Will is hurting too. Will just may be hurting more than you will ever know. You two need to hold on to each other, cry together, and heal together. No little puppy will ever replace sweet baby Ella . . . but someday you may feel that another puppy might be what Ella would want for you to truly heal your heart and put some closure on this. Aubrey your little baby Ella is not mad at you and don't ever think that you weren't a good momma to her. You gave her a lot of joy and love in her short little life and no one could ever blame you or Will for this accident. Aubrey is was a horrible accident and it was not your fault . . . it was not Will's fault either. I know it is hard to understand that now . . . but in time I hope you can come to understand and accept it. Accidents do happen and you can't blame yourself, or hate yourself, or blame Will, or hate Will for it. You need to find acceptance. I know it is hard right now to see this . . . but in time I know you can.

Aubrey I continue to light a candle every night for you and Will and sweet little baby Ella. I pray that you somehow find it in your heart to forgive yourself and forgive Will. I continue to pray for your baby and pray that you somehow find comfort in knowing that she loved you very much and that God needed a sweet little baby angel yorkie there beside him. I know that words cannot ease your pain . . . but I pray that somehow you will find peace in knowing that you are truly loved . . . your baby Ella continues to love you . . . and we love you too.

Love Pegi Taylor