As most of you know, I am having twin boys in June.
Well at the beginning things were really bad and then they got better.
Now they are back to bad again.
The father and I have been trying 2 work things out and I have been really nice to him because since he is the father I think he should deserve a chance to be in their life regardless of what an a$$ he was when he found out.
Well eventually everything started going good between us until now.
I just hate him. He is such a jerk.
Before I got pregnant I planned on moving to
PR to attend UPR.
Now that is out of the question so I decided to go 2 a university in Chicago.
When I told the father I still want to go to school he started putting me down and telling me I can't and that I ruined my life!! And I know I shouldn't listen to him but it is so hard when he is the main person there.
And ugh it is just really frustrating me.
I really want to continue going to school and eventually become a doctor, do you think that is really impossible now?
And then the father is just such an a$$hole that I don't even want him around anymore. He is always putting me down and making me feel so bad. He is always telling me that without him I'm nothing and won't be able to do anything with my life or with the kids and that they will get taken away from me. And I know it will be extremely hard without him, but does that mean I have to put up with him treating me like this?
Is it wrong for me not to want him around anymore?
When I play the whole situation in my head I feel like I am being so selfish but I'm to the point where I'm so confused and depressed that I don't even know what I'm doing anymore.