I know how you feel. I waited months for my little boy to be born, and he died after two weeks. The breeder promiced me the first male born in the next litter. When he was born, i was in Alaska. She sent me pictures on the internet every week, and I called her enough to be a real pain. When he was 12 weeks, I came to get him. She told me he had a bad cough, and she was trying to get me another puppy. I was frantic. I was in love with this little guy from the day he was born, and I couldn't face losing him. I know it isn't wise to buy a puppy when there might be a problem, but a quick visit to the vet was all I needed to know he was fine, except for a cough from his head, not his chest. I am so glad got my boy, and I found out later that the puppies in his litter sold for twice what I had paid. I guess I was just meant to have my Sawyer; and you will get the right one for you too.
