I believe in chocolates too
Feelings go up and down..when you are really really depressed, remember to hang on in there because tomorrow will be better. I really don't know what to say but it helped me when I was depressed, I log in to YT and read and read and read and post when I need help. It is amusing how strangers are so willing to extend help to you only if you have the courage to reach out. Your kids and husband loves you and if you said so I am sure they will support you all the way through