Well, you asked for thoughts and here are mine.
Babies are conceived while on the pill and women that thought they would have an abortion change their minds. This is nothing new. The father knew this was a possibility and he took the chance anyway.
You need to stop worrying about him. Life doesn't always turn out the way we want it to but that doesn't mean we shouldn't take responsibility for our actions and the results of those actions.
If he won't step up and do what is right there is nothing wrong with making him pay child support. It's HIS child. Why shouldn't this baby get whatever both of her parents can afford to give her? Because this isn't what he wants? This isn't about him anymore. He made his choices and now has to live with them. Just like the rest of us.
"I’ve never really minded the thought of having a child of my own, just not an infant."
Just wait. I won't try to explain it because it's like trying to explain falling in love to someone that has never been. You might think you understand but until it happens to you, you have no idea.
