I also am a child that really wasnt wanted. My real dad( I NEVER KNEW) didnt want me and than my mother worked all day and partied all night so I was with a babysitter most of my childhood and than she just up and left when I was 7. no bye, see ya nothing. No contact for 22 YEARS so I went to live with the guy that zI THOUGHT was my real dad well I just found out 6 months ago that he adopted me and nobody told me and he was an alcoholic so he never was home so I pretty much raised myself. I guess what im trying to say is with that background made me want my kids more than ever. They love me and I love them so much Id die for them. Thats what you need to think about. Will you love this baby sooo much youd die for it or sacrifice what you need for him or her? Your very mature for a 20 yr old and luckily you have a very good family to support you so if all possible Id keep it. BUT if you theres ANY DOUBT in your mind that your going to resent this baby you need to give it up to a loving family that WANTS one.
There were times and STILL is where I sit around wondering if things can get any worse..they can. My kids dont wear name brand stuff and arent bought everything in the world but there great kids and thats all that matters. It irritates when ppl go and say well it cost about 100,000 a year to raise a kid..the hell if it does. My kids have food on the table, clothes on their back and a home to live in. Were not rich...sometimes me and jeff think "oh S&*^ what are we going to do but everything works out. It may be hard for awhile butthings will work out!