when I read this posting. I always thought you were older than mid twenties.....I dont read everyone's profile....But, anyway, you are and have been so very mature for your age. Your postings are very insightful. You have to make the decision. .................... I remember when I was single....for 13 yrs actually, I tried to adopt a child, although I was raising one already with minimal help from his Dad. But, anyway...I began the process of being a "single Mom" by choice in hopes of adopting a second boy......I did not hesitate with the proceedings....unfortunately the birth Mom changed her mind.... ......but I did not think twice....so to speak.....and felt that I could change this baby's life.....coming to a home that loves him.....
I can honestly say, that this decision would be a spiritual decision for me if I were you.......so there in lies the decision......go with your heart.....
And remember you are stronger and smarter than you give yourself credit for...
good luck and bless you..
